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Wishes...

2011-04-07T15:59:00.000+08:00

If a genie grants you three wishes, what would you wish for?

- Enough money to live comfortably for the rest of my life
- Good health with no life-threatening illnesses and happiness for myself, my family and friends.

And, ermm…

- I would wish for more wishes! :))

World Peace!

The selfish husband!

2011-04-02T02:31:00.002+08:00

Some people are selfish in almost every aspects of their life. They must have everything in their ways in no uncertain terms. This sounds like the behavior of a spoiled child and how do we live with selfish and uncaring husband? The rules of marriage required both are treated equally. All too often the husband thinks only of himself and his needs. This type of behaviour has to be confronted without anger. So all wifes, standup for yourself and remain calm. All husbands needs to know that a marriage is a partnership and not a place for the husband to think about himself. Although it is impossible to get along with a selfish husband who must have it his way, it is possible to avoid divorce!

Welcome to the most challenging world, Arissa!

2011-02-24T12:52:00.005+08:00

Hello February 2011.

Whenever February arrives, we usually thinking of love, chocolates wrapped in red foil, roses and heart. And why is it roses or these chocolates are the popular demand only in February? Maybe there are few trivia lies behind it. But anyway, i have my own stories of February, at least for this year ('',). Well after 9+ months of waiting, Alhamdulillah and Praised to God, the presence of Arissa on the 5th February 2011 into ur marriage have brighten, lighten and cherish our life. We've been blessed. It's worth the pain and waiting. So here's the short recaps of the waiting :)

4th February 2011
10.30am: Tawaf Jusco Equine
12.30pm: Home sweet home. Had a beauty sleep till late evening. And MIL cooked for us that day.
10.30pm: Contraction started at every 10 minutes. Decided to wait as the next follow up checkup with Dr Nazri is the next morning.

5th February 2011
9.30am: Headed to KPJ Selangor
10.30am: Undergo the Cardiotogography test (CTG). CTG is the test of recording the fetal heartbeat and the uterine contractions during pregnancy. The results showed that the heartbeat is non active with minimal movement. Contractions started at every 7 minutes.
11.00am: Meet Dr Nazri
11.30am: Admitted
1.10pm: Induced
2.00pm: Undergo the next CTG test. Still, the results showed the same. Contraction started at every 5 minutes.
5.30pm: Went for water breaking process. Found out that the amniotic fluid was brownish-yellow. This is the sign of baby's distress. Thus i need to go for the delivery process immediately. Khasif looked so and sooo anxious. Im speechless. So Mama just says Yes for ceaser.
6.00pm: Prepared for the next procedures. PILs arrived.
7.10pm: Went for OT
7.23pm: Safely delivered Arissa. Thanked God!
8.30pm: I was sent back to my room :)

Alhamdulillah. How Great Allah is! What a wonderful and blessed life we have now. Praised to God for the wonderful moment!

Despite of having a great February, it's been a year since Mohd Faris B Khasif left us. Al fatihah. May Allah blessing will always be with him.

So all the best to my besties who are currently counting the months + days (You know who you are). Take the best care of ur self and of course, the baby!

Chow...

Welcome 2011!

2011-01-19T11:59:00.001+08:00

A month feels like a week. That’s how fast my life is now. Not complaining but thanking God for all the blessing in life. Praise to God. Hope it's not too late to say farewell to 2010 to all. Hey, people are celebrating Eidul Fitr for month. So I guess at this particulate moment, it’s not wrong to wish everyone happy New Year. Welcome 2011!

So what are my resolutions for 2011? Tradition dictates that every 365 days, you should try to kick bad habits and start your life anew. When I was younger, I did these whole lists of New Year resolutions (of which I can’t even remember of what is it by the end of December), and half of which I broke within the first month or even the first week of New Year. Learning from experience, my New Year resolutions list gets shorter and shorter as the years go by.

So for 2011, my lists would be:

- To save more and spend less. To pay off debt. Easier said than done, but I will try!
- To be more focused, more efficient and productive in the office. It’s not that I’m not being “that” for 2010, but I’m hoping I can do it better. Though I might have looked like I achieved a bit of something for 2010, a lot of time it was quite a last minute work. I need to be more motivated. And YES, I’m also hoping to be paid with higher salary.
- I desire to be a better Muslim and slayer to Allah and I want to be able to read the Quran regularly and not just do the seasonal Ramadan reading. I wish that I could advance my Islamic knowledge where I would be implementing what I have learned.
- To be a great partner, friend, mummy (Insha’Allah), daughter and colleague to loved ones. I’m hoping that I could spend lots of quality time with them. For the past years, there were so many people in my lives that I would want to reach out or spend time with. I love all those people out there but it just that I can’t find the right time to spend with. But what is love if it’s not shown in actions right? So hopefully, I’ll be able to show it in more practical ways this year!
- Last but not least, to put down weight. I have gained so many kilos so far in my pregnancy which I'm not really sure how. My aim is to lose back those kilos during my confinement. Need to work real hard for this.

So let’s have a great start for January 2011 and hope for a better love in February 2011 (incase I have no time to update this blog in February)

Happy Independence Day to all Malaysians!!

2010-09-01T10:57:00.000+08:00

Happy Independence Day!

I would like to wish all Malaysians a Happy 53rd Independence Day.
Born and bred as a Malaysian for the past 26 years and yet I am still living in Malaysia. I survive! Not necessarily those who choose to stay back in Malaysia would strive to earn a living and lack behind to those who graduated and worked in the developed countries.
Way back when I was in primary or secondary, Independence Day was celebrated with so much joy and happiness: late sleep just because of the fireworks and wake up early for the National Parade.

After school, Independence Day was celebrated much less. But that’s doesn’t means the enthusiasm gone. Being patriotic doesn’t ONLY mean that you’re willing to sacrifice for the country. Your contribution to the economic development and Live happily and peacefully within races, it call patriotic too.

As the country is getting older, I really hope whoever rule the country will give their best effort on keeping this country peaceful and harmony. Lets different races blend in together without barriers and lets religious activities carries out without fear. War will not get us anywhere. There are much more to do with love than hate. Sometimes, a majority of us tend to think that the grass is greener on the other side. “Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik hujan batu di negeri sendiri”. It’s a Malay proverb, meaning that although there are many good things outside our own country, and less in the place where we live, it is still best to live in our own place. It might be similar to “There is no place like home”.

5th puasa

2010-08-15T21:51:00.002+08:00

went for ikea.

bought nothing.

legs hurt.

went for alamanda.

johnny's full house.

stress.

went for PARAM.

im full.
terawikh with khasif.
im sleppy.
monday coming.
arghh.
stats.
meeting.
discussion.
stress lagi...
friday.
SP
oohh heaven....

Happy Ramadhan to all muslims!

Travelling

2010-06-24T14:57:00.002+08:00

Mama & Papa were here since last Tuesday. Horray. We’ll probably go to Genting this Saturday to celebrate Arman burfday. (Khasif bought Arman a PS2 as a burfday present but did not buy anything for my burfday!!!). Boy might be going as well. Hopefully! Not sure whether Khasif is going together or not as he should be attending Family day in LLM. [Talking of which, I remembered that Dato’ have requested to have the “back to basic” family day. (the ladies needs to wear the kain batik while all men need to wear kain pelekat) okey, I don’t think I’ll be attending our family day!].

The other saturday we’ll probably going back to kluang for a short stay as we need to rush back to kl on Sunday morning as I need to fly for Sarawak. (ohh, I cant wait as this is my 1st trip to Sarawak). Next Tuesday I’ll travel to Kuantan Pahang and middle of July I need to attend 3 days meeting in Langkawi. (oh, heaven!). oh yes, Khasif will be off for 3 days for Kota Baru end of July. Ermm seems like we are hardly meet in July. But anyways, traveling means experiencing right? Travel is all about to face the unknown and appreciate the familiar. I know it would be a tiring but just find joy in that little moment. Live in the present!

Oohh btw, Im so insists of air soya with jelly kuning yang dulu ada jual kat jln Maxwell, Ipoh and buah jambu yang hanya ada jual kat cameron Highlands tuh. Where can I get that in kl? Anyone?

praised to god!

2010-06-18T20:45:00.004+08:00

Praised to God cz i know i've been blessed everyday.

this little precious is so cute right? :)

chow...

goodbye may and welcome June

2010-06-02T15:58:00.005+08:00

We have already bid farewell to May and welcomed the month of June. What does the month of May means to you, you and you? Okey, all of you. Me? Well, I can only think of our 1st Wedding Anniversary. Don’t have time to write about this earlier as I was buzy as bee churning data, checking the paper and slides for our 1q 2010 survey on SMEs. Fuhh…

So we celebrated our 1st wedding anniversary with simple dinner... before my boss spoiled my mood. (She called me at 10pm and asked me to provide her few figures and she’ll wait for my sms)… oohh and I have to rush back to our sarang burung as soon as possible. Wtf? Okey, okey luckily I have a so called “husband yang memahami” yeah! I’m blessed and thankful that you are mine!

Happy 1st Wedding Anniversary to you sayang!
Im faithfully blessed n thankful for having a wonderful “you”.
Even its 1st anniversary and for some people it’s just a single number of year, but for us, we are so grateful that we managed to go thru the hitch n glitch thru out the year. I believe whatever God destined to me in my life are for reasons and it’s for my happiness and my future. Sayang, thank you for all the kindness and compassion towards me. I love u with all my heart. muaxx blush blush

Goodbye May, and thank you for the moment. Appreciate it!

Okey, that was May. How about June? Realized it or not, we are now at the middle of the year 2010. We’re halfway through the year. Depend on how we look at it. “Half empty or half-full cup ... filled with water?”
I have yet to reach targets.
- looking forward to have more savings. Hope that one day I’ll wake up with millions cash in my bank account.
- working real hard in the office (no fb-ing, no blogging etc)
- taking quick break from the city (Redang, Perhentian or Tioman perhaps?)
- etc
- etc
- etc
- etc
- etc

At the end of the day I realize that, Oh well - I am human after all :)

Ohh ya, I’ll be celebrating engagements and weddings of good old friends in June. Love it!!

Wifey for hubby!

2010-05-11T12:43:00.002+08:00

I’m currently in the office. Bored even though i got lots and lots of task to be done by today. Got so many words in my mind but I had no idea how to begin. I am not a good storyteller. I’m just a storyteller who is just starting out.

Khasif is currently preparing himself (physically and mentally) to open a burger stall. And why burgers stall? Probably because of this business operating at night, the locations of most burger stalls are very convenient (burger stalls exist in popular hotspots, universities, housing areas, near 7E and many other populated areas) and this business are independently run by young home-based entrepreneurs. Leveraging on the consistent demand for these burgers, khasif is among those youngsters who want to have their own burger business. Oohh, not to forget, it’s also because of burger is a ‘must-eat’ snack at night. [Only for those yang berfikir 2-3 kali untuk spent money on luxury food everyday – like me when I was in UKM :) ]

So, a wife's role is very significant. I can be a tremendous help to my husband. I am a companion, supporter and admirer. (Ceewah! Walaupun hakikatnyer I always make jokes of it). A healthy relationship is when a wife gives her husband 100% support. She is his cheerleader, she brings out the best in him, she believes in him, she encourages him, and she is quick to praise him and to give him the moral and emotional support he needs. Wives, you have the power to build and support your husband!!
“An excellent wife is the crown of her husband”
(fuhh, ayat-ayat perasan keluar dari jiwa…)
Chaiyo’ Chaiyo’! Okey, enough of it cz it don’t even started yet… snap back to reality!

Oh ya, Praise to GOD for His blessing, Praise to GOD who made it possible for me during the interview. Praise to GOD for the opportunity to achieve excellence. Praise and thank God for blessing me every day!

31st May coming! Omg, I can't believe it has been nearly a year already! I wish to have many happy returns to come. Gosh, time flies without realizing we will reach our 1st Anniversary. We stuck together, through ups and downs and you were always with me when we went around, enjoying the wind together. But I just want to let you know how much I appreciate you no matter what.

XOXO

Kluang-day!

2010-05-09T07:37:00.004+08:00

Im currently in Kluang. Since Yesterday. Will be going for Mersing in any minutes. For what? No idea. Probably just for jalan-jalan programme with PIL. Talking of which, PIL requested to us and express how they wish to spent few nights in Cameron. En hubby, please take note yeah.. and to av and Fad, come and join us lahh, at least takderlah aku mati kutu nanti. :))

Last night we went for Iron Man 2. (It's actually our main agenda everytime we're here cz please be informed that nothing much to do in kluang at night!). to be axact, i went for Robert Downey Jr. :))) i likeee... this movie has some pretty impressive gadget. very cool. and stark's laboratory such as "to die for see through monitor screen" is very very cool. There are lot more in the movie, it's just that i dont seem to know the name or the technology. Oh not to forget, the iron man briefcase.how on earth a massive robot suit could be fold and being kept in a small briefcase? Kalau spiderman or batman, i dont mind pun. after all yang disimpan just seluar kecik jerk... huhuhu. Anyway i didnt read any Iron man comic. (i dont even know the comic exist before, to be exact!). So if saya seperti orang jakun and all this stuff memang dah ada di dalam comic book, please show your mercy and bear with me okey. simply pardon my ignorance.

gtg, cont later....

btw, it's never late to wish all mothers, grand mother, great-grandmother, mother to-be, Mother's day!

TGIF

2010-04-30T18:31:00.003+08:00

6.30 pm.
Friday.
Im already at home. wahh balik cepat arinie. hiks. my bosses not around. they went to One World for E50 soft launching. heaven!

I got no chance to jot down something on our jalan jalan cari makan trip last thursday. [ malas to be exact! :) ] so proceed jerlah to Fadhli or my PIC

btw, got lots and lots of works to do this weekends.
1) Validation on SME Survey.
2) Preparation on ICC <-- i hate this, seriously, i have no idea on this shit. and the best part is im the leader to our so called Decipher group.
3) Report on internal audit of 5S.

and

ironing, ironing & ironing...
will be glad if some1 could help me (hubby, please take note!)
;p

air mati

2010-04-27T16:30:00.002+08:00

saya berpuasa hari...

dan

air mati di dalam peti ais kelihatan sungguh menarik di mata saya...

:p

[ air mati a.k.a air kosong ( bagi org2 utara sahaja!)]

.:sleepless:.

2010-04-27T00:07:00.003+08:00

People can survive longer without food than without sleep.
sleep is so important in keeping ourselves looking good, hence the phrase "beauty sleep".
ohh, i need to go to sleep now. need to hv a great one. a combo of sleep and dream. and become worry free. even it's for a while.

Time check: 12.30am. Obviously a no-no to a non quality stays up!

Mode: Down

2010-04-21T20:42:00.005+08:00

Entry kali ini agak emosi.

Entry yang lahir dari jiwa dan rasa yang lahir dari hati.

Terlalu banyak yang terbuku.

Sedih, kecewa, marah silih berganti.

Kehidupan terlalu menekan.

Tangisan sentiasa menjadi peneman.

Tidak mampu untuk berfikir lebih jauh apa yang bakal terjadi.

Masih ada lagikah hari esok?

Masih ada lagikah hari lusa?

Terlalu berat untuk diluahkan.

Terlalu peribadi untuk dikongsi.

Tapi aku yakin kesukaran aku adalah dari Allah.

Aku yakin Allah Maha Mengetahui.

Aku yakin Allah Maha Pengampun.

Aku yakin Allah Menyayangi.

Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan segala urusan yang dikehendakinya.

Sesungguhnya Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi tiap tiap sesuatu.

Engkaulah yang aku sembah!

Engkaulah tempat ku memohon pertolongan!

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all the best to me

2010-04-19T22:12:00.009+08:00

currently at home. lepaking. eventhough i should prepare for tomorrow, but im so malas to read the so-called SCORE, Innocert, Internship and Branding. arrgh, baru habis go through with NEM and economic outlook for 2010. NKRA to go... waduh, i cannot take any of this... just wanna let go, but i cant. 100% sure im going to termimpi2 those articles tonight. Mmm, i hate interview... and of course ther interviewer as well.. :) good luck to us, friendss!

Btw, hubby may you success with flying colours this friday. dont overshaking, eventhough i know you will :) make sure all contractors fully understand what the hell ure explaining to them.

CSI S08 to run to this weekend. hell yeahhhhh :))

chow

K.E.N.I.K.M.A.T.A.N

2010-04-14T08:10:00.005+08:00

saya baru 'menikmati' new moon.

walaupun sudah 'basi' tapi saya suke, pernah suka dan akan terus suke!

cant wait for the next edward cullen. more to go!

I love my husband

2010-03-18T18:57:00.004+08:00

Ohyeaahh… I love my husband. Even though I have to woke up at 5.15 am every morning to iron his office’s clothes ;p STILL i love him; I’m in love with him and will always love him. (ceewahh!!) eventhough, mama suruh hantar baju ke dobi. Mak cakap “jangan serika baju hasif, biar die buat sendiri, jangan manjakan sangat" but for me, I would rather iron his clothes than cook. (Doesn’t mean that I can’t cook, just that I don’t have that valuable time to cook) at least by ironing, I know my “touch” would be with him from 7am till 7pm.

Tomorrow is our 4th anniversary.. so
Happy 4th anniversary, Sayang! It’s our 4th year being together. We’re soul mates. Eventhough we take completely opposite ways to come up with solutions to anything. He makes me laugh. He tells me that I'm beautiful, even when I don't feel so pretty. If I'm mad or sad, he always says something to make me smile or laugh. He freely and generously tells me that he loves me.

~Hati saya berbunga~

^_^

2010-03-09T09:06:00.005+08:00

-XOXO-

A story on FEBRUARY 2010..

2010-03-07T13:30:00.002+08:00

I’ll have my first day in the office tomorrow after had a long one month break. Probably starting my day with checking tons of emails (hey, im doing it now jugak, tapi macam banyak sangat & malas dah nak baca one by one), update my planner with lots and lots of meetings to attend, update my to-do lists! It’s a never ending list, dude.

And never forget to mentioned, this is my first post after few months I hesitate not to do so. I’ve lost track of my friend’s latest post and what i've done in this few months. So let’s recall one by one. Merry Christmas, Congratulations to Munirah and Fawwaz on their new born baby, Happy New Year “Welcome 2010, Goodbye 2009”, Happy 26th birthday to hubby! “Love You So Much!”, Happy Thaipusam, Happy 26th Burfday to DINA!, Happy CNY, Congratulation to Safiza Salam on her engagement day, Salam Maulidur Rasul, and lastly Happy 26th Burfday to Sally. Let’s put everything in one single post.

Readers, you must be wonder, why do I have a long break from the office? I had my confinement back in SP. I’ve never mentioned here before that I was pregnant. Thought of telling you guys soon, but I guess I never had the chance to. One of the reason why I did not updated my blog for few months is because I was not doing that well. I was sick. I had an on and off high fever every 2 to 3 days, I had bad flu and cough. I’m not in good condition during my pregnancy period. Never thought that my baby also was not doing that well.

And on the 9th Feb 2010, doc from the Dahlia Clinic detect something is not right with my baby during my 4th month of checkup. I cried, of course! Of hearing that even though the doc said that it’s not confirmed yet and I should refer to O&G specialist soon. She calmed me down and said maybe her scan machine is wrong or maybe what she saw is not exactly what is exactly happened. I called khasif and I was crying like hell. I’m afraid of losing my little boy. Khasif came and we headed to Az-Zahrah for O&G Specialist. And out of sudden, Az-Zahrah was blackout and any machine can’t be use. An-Nur as well was blackout. We then headed to Kajang for KPJ, and the nurse said that the O&G doctor was not in and we can come back the next morning. We then went to Serdang Hospital and of course, with all the “karenah birokrasi”, the nurse said that I need to go first to the nearest klinik kesihatan, registered, get the stupid “buku merah” and wait for the appointment date. Hello, my baby is dying here and you asked me to wait? I called my sis without telling her what’s exactly happen and asked her whether Kg Baru Medical Centre (KBMC) is available for the scan for walk-in patience? My sis said it would be okay. From serdang, we headed again to KL for KBMC. And dugaan aper plak yang sy terima, suddenly there was an emergency case in KBMC and doc is not available for the scan. Again! Me and khasif lost hoped. We don’t know where to go. I can’t think of any places. And khasif just drove the car. Ntah macam mana, we arrived in Wangsa Maju and went to a general clinic. I’ve told the doc my prob, she scan me and she said that, she know why my panel doc was worried about the baby because from what she seen, she was worried as well. She said exactly what my panel said. Again all I can do is crying, crying and crying. I can’t think of anything at that moment. I sms-ing mama told her that I was worried because doc told me that baby is not right. Mama called me right after she received the sms and thought I was joking or something. But I was crying while talking to her and I can’t get to any O&G specialist. Mama was speechless and said let’s wait for the confirmation first from the O&G doc. papa called and said he’ll come to kl that night. And all I can remember after that is my bros and my sis called and all I can do is crying while talking to them. We then went back to serdang. And my sis called me and asked me to go to HUKM. We headed back to MRR2 for Bandar Tun Razak. Went to emergency counter and the nurse brought us directly to the O&G Department. But the doctor in charge told me to come back the next morning for appointment date and wait for the appointment date. I was speechless, tension, and depressed and Khasif was very angry with the doc. All we want is to scan and a confirmation from you. That’s all!! I don’t want any of your medicine, I don’t want your other time, I just want a confirmation at that particular time. Kak Uja and Abg Am arrived then at HUKM and I told them that I have to wait again. Then Kak Uja called KBMC and arrange for the appointment, the next morning with Dr Suhaimi. We went back to Serdang and went to Kak Uja’s house at 10pm as mama & papa wants us to stays there. We were soo tired that day, and yet we both can’t sleep that night. Afraid of what would happen the next day and how can we overcome days after…

10th Feb 2010, I had an appointment with Dr Suhaimi at 10am in KBMC. And i received the same result. It’s confirmed! I was crying in front of the doc, again. And for the very first time, khasif cried as well. I cried even worse when I saw my husband was crying. What else can I do? Even the nurse that assists the doc cried as well. Doc said it’s nobody fault. Accept God’s fate. He told us baby won’t stay that long. He’ll leave us soon. Dr Suhaimi then refers me to Dr Nazri. I have to meet him the same day at 8pm. All I know after that, I was crying on mama’s shoulder. Papa asked me to calm down. Accept God’s fate. God have his own reason and god knows why. We went to meet Dr Nazri at 8pm. With a better scan machine, I, WE to be exact can see clearly my son.

…………… And after a lab test (doc suggest this to confirm whether this is a syndrome or not and Alhamdulillah, results shows that there’s no problem and Insyallah we won’t face the same problem for the next baby) and a few procedures, I delivered my baby at his 4 months 11 days years old on the 18th Feb 2010 at 9am. He was buried at Taman Permata, near Kak Uja’s house.

TRILLION THANKS to papa, mama, mak, ayah, abang, kak ewa, kak uja, abang am, boy, aunties, uncles, cousins, and friends plus docs for your support. Appreciate that so much! And of course for my only one, khasif! My strength and my hope...

I have to say, I miss talking to my little boy. Sometimes I forgot that I don’t have him with me anymore. I used to be okay whenever khasif was busy with his work, or whenever I was all by myself, I can overcome it because i know i'm not alone as my little boy is with me. But it’s all ME, only me now… how I missed my baby so much… Even though we have never had a chance to meet, I believe we will one day. Even if it’s hard for me and khasif, we have to accept that everything has it owns reason. God creates a better place for you. Just want you to know that mama and ayah loves you so much, Mohd Faris Bin Mohd Khasif.

Al fatihah!

PS: to Anmum, stop calling me as I have no baby now!

2009-11-30T16:17:00.002+08:00

sesungguhnya, saya:

- penat & letih sesangat!

- berasa sungguh loya & pening kepala!

- semakin slow untuk buat keje!

- semakin malas untuk ke office!

- hanya mahu berehat, berehat & berehat....

Festival of Sacrifice AKA Selamat Hari Raya Haji!

2009-11-26T10:40:00.003+08:00

“Hari Raya Haji (or also known as Festival of Sacrifice) is a religious festival celebrated by Muslims and Druze worldwide in commemoration of the willingness of Ibrahim (Abraham) to sacrifice his son as an act of obedience to Allah. The devil tempted Ibrahim by saying he should disobey Allah and spare his son. As Ibrahim was about to kill his son, Allah intervened: instead Allah provided a lamb as the sacrifice. This is why today all over the world Muslims who have the means to, sacrifice an animal, as a reminder of Ibrahim’s obedience to Allah. The meat is then shared out with family and friends, as well as the poorer members of the community (Islam names Ishmael as the son who was to be sacrificed, whereas the Judeo-Christian name Isaac)”

Hello world! =p

Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all muslim...
Every year, me and my family, we celebrate raya haji in SP or Penang. But this year, we decided (decided? It’s actually i HAVE to! Hiks) to celebrate here in KL.... cz PIL coming. Not happening beb. so, what i meant by not that 'happening' is because you don't get to celebrate in the 'kampung' environment with lots and lots of food on the table. The "North People" (like us, of course) :-) celebrated hari raya haji as happening as hari raya puasa. like alida said, "the only food that are not available during raya haji is the kuih raya." heheh.. btw, avvy, hopefully you tak leh balik ktan, jom raya dengan i di kl. btw, ada apa dengan KL time raya nih???

^_^

sleepless nightss

2009-11-24T14:17:00.001+08:00

Im having sleepless nights!

what can i do to get some proper sleep?

no matter how tired i am, i wake every hour at least, it’s starting to drive me insane...

Im tired all the time but cant sleep!!

LIFE vs WORK

2009-11-23T08:06:00.010+08:00

I'm already beginning to question if work’s taking over my life. I say slowly... but SURELY! Neglecting health, sometimes meals and most of the time fun. Is it a beginning of a word of obsession for work? Fuhh… I woke up every morning at 5.45am. Starting car engine at 6.30am, punched out at 7.30pm and reached home at 8.00pm.. Then start my every day – routine: basuh-ing baju, sidai-ing baju, lipat-ing baju, iron-ing baju, kemas-ing rumah…and sometimes cooking! (I don’t have ‘that’ enough time to cook, okey!) Since it’s toward the end of 2009, im soo insistly to have an inspiring weeks, or at least an inspiring days at any place … (hubby, please take note!!)
As promise in earlier post, I have to update you on this. Last month (18th October to be exact), WE [me+khasif+avvy+fadli (and gangs!)] went for theatre show at Taman Budaya KL, titled “Miaw Miaw Sang Arnab”, presented by Tronoh Theatre Shop (TTS). It is a theatre group from Universiti Teknologi PETRONAS (UTP), Tronoh Perak, which involves mainly in theatre, sketch and mime shows. First time for me to watched real “mimers”. It’s actually first time I n khasif went for this kind of show. I shall says it was quite interesting jugak…so fadli, please plan for the next show, please!. But I would probably give two thumbs up to “Tok Janggut” It’s a monolog and I respect him as the way he present himself totally superb. Cerita sarat dengan isu tersirat dan mesej simbolik (ceewah!)

Remember I told you all about mimie? There she is… a pic of her for you guys…
Congratulationsss to Azura n Aidil on their wedding reception in Penang on 8/11/2009 and KL on the 15/11/2009. Me n khasif are the bunga telur boy and girl for the day and it’s totally tiring day for us as we have to drive back to KL on the same day and have to work on the next day. Anyway, may GOD bless you both! Lately, ive been cracking my head to make one of the big decision in my life…Do you ever have trouble making decisions? The fear of failure and of making a mistake can immobilize a person. Which carpet to buy for your floor. Which sofa to choose. What to wear that day. What you feel like doing on your days off. What kind of work you really want to do. i can get stuck behind my fear and anxiety. i may lose my motivation when i know i have to make a decision. Making decisions can be difficult, very difficult. For me, making decisions is a creative process. But my mind doesn't know anything about creativity. My mind is logical, rational, and thinks it can logically decide on what is right or best. You have only 4 days to go. Make a choice, fyza! Between SMEs Corp or Royal Malaysian Customs department!

-END-

12112009

2009-11-12T19:09:00.002+08:00

Mama's coming!

:)

the tronoh theatre shop and Qum actors

2009-10-20T09:25:00.003+08:00

want to update on this... but have no time. will post it later. i promise!

cherrio!

Tiring weekendss and PAPADOM!

2009-10-16T08:45:00.008+08:00

Hello!

:) im soo excited cz it's friday!

To let u know, since 1st weekend of puasa till this weekend's weekend (",), i dont have the chance to relax at all! wanna know y? lets recap:

1st week of puasa: went back to Kluang
2nd week of puasa: went back to Kedah
3rd week of puasa: went back to Kluang
4th week of puasa:went back to Kluang (again?)
5th week of puasa: went back to Kedah (Raya's coming!)
1th week of raya: in Kluang
2nd week of raya: went back again to Kedah :o)
3rd week of raya: Mama and the others came! Went to Kuantan. Thanks hubby!
4th week of raya: PILs coming on Sat for kenduri and Again will be back to Kluang (tomorrow lorr!)

soooo, im so damn tired with the word of T-R-A-V-E-L-L-I-N-G!

btw, guys GO AND WATCH PAPADOM... buah tangan terbaru from my fav of all, afdlin!

best giler! sanggup i bersengkang mata tgk movie nie pukul 11.55pm..ended around 2am. arrived home around 2.45am. and have to bangun around 6am untuk ke office.... :) but whatever...! i want to be among the 1st to watch it.... ermmm it's actually i HAVE TO BE!

AND

im looking forward for CUCI 'da musical!

new member of the house

2009-10-07T17:46:00.004+08:00

there are already 3 of us, instead of only both of us. (",)

Welcome to mimie...

it's a persian cat, btw. huhuh

50's [Same Old Brand New!]

2009-10-07T17:20:00.002+08:00

i got this from Jasmin. misses each and everyone of them soo much!... (ju-are is missing)

angkara si "DIA"

2009-10-06T10:47:00.002+08:00

email from KSN to all KSUs,CEOs, and later forwarded to all officers (included me, of course!)

From: amei mei [mailto:amei_mei@yahoo.com]
Sent: 30 September 2009 15:19
To: Tan Sri Mohd Sidek b. Hassan
Cc: Nordziah binti. Mohamed
Subject: KELAKUAN KAKITANGAN KERAJAAN YANG KURANG MENYENANGKAN

Disini saya ingin mengutarakan satu masalah dan tabiat segelintir kakitangan kerajaan (bukan semua) yang suka melayari facebook, segelintir kakitangan kerajaan leka melayari facebook sehinggakan terlupa yang mereka tu sedang bekerja. Disini saya sebagai orang awam dan mereka tu adalah kakitangan awam ingin saya menasihatkan agar utamakan kerja mereka kerana setiap tingkah laku penjawat awam adalah mencerminkan sesebuah kerajaan.
Kenapa lah perkara ni tak dipantau oleh majikan mereka? adakah majikan mereka tidak tahu atau sama terlibat? ini yang menjadi persoalan......
Ada kes tu sehinggakan ruangan facebook tu sentiasa standby agar mudah untuk respon jika terima chat dan ada juga dok melayan game online. Kebanyakkan mereka yang muda-muda. Bagi saya jika ianya digunakan dengan betul tidak menjadi masalah.
tingkah laku kakitangan kerajaan itu mencerminkan kepimpinan kerajaan terutama Perdana Menteri kita dan juga Dato KSN.
Jadi, perkara mcm ni haruslah dianggap serius dan saya cadangkan agar keluarkan lah satu perkeliling agar ianya boleh memberikan kesedaran kepada mereka2 ni. Ianya juga dapat menyelamatkan mereka2 dari memakan hasil haram dari tindakkan mereka curi tulang.

SEKIAN, TERIMA KASIH
SELAMAT HARI RAYA

my so-called journey of raya

2009-10-03T11:30:00.003+08:00

this year eid is the most penat eid of all... most of the time of my raya days was on the highway..

1st raya - in sg. petani, kedah. after eid prayer, we went for tg dawai. Reached back in sg petani around 3pm. bought my all time fav blended ice kacang on the way back home. once arrived, put down my things and help mama preparing the foodssss for our rumah terbuka which should started at 7pm, but 2 of my uncles came in early (pah teh's family and uncle sham's family). khasif got diarrhea and was on the bed for the whole day (trust me! - he cant even walk or eat.. ) so US (me, kak uja, abg, abg am, and kak ewa - plus papa, of course) helps mama all the way. [boy cant make it for the hari raya. hua hua hua (which refer to padan muka, actually!)] my house was crowded for the night till 11.30pm. then, cleaned the house. settled around 12am and brought khasif to the clinic. came back to my luxury bed aroud 1am. (see how tired i was?)

2nd raya - wake up early to packed all my things as we (me and khasif) need to go back for kluang, pulak. thought of postponed it to the next day (yeah!) but his parents called and asked us (it's asked ME, to be exact) "will you both arriving at 1pm today? so that mak can masak for us." errmm, wut am i supposed to do then? (and tetibe khasif pun dah sihat [propaganda betul]). so around 11am, we started our journey back to johor. but we singgah for auty chu's open house in kulim (papa and mama urged us to go - which i think we should, hey! it's hari raya right? that's was the real hari raya meant to be) and tok teh's house in junjung. around 4pm we started our car heading for johor. Arrived in johor around 1 am

3rd raya - in kluang for the whole day as MIL having 24hours open house. non-stop cuci-ing the pinggan as well as preparing the foods and drinks (it's SHOULD be fooodssss and driinksss actually!)

4th raya - again on the road. heading for segamat, labis, etc (i dunno where's on earth is this places). and again reached in kluang around 10pm. thought of going for pontian for sabri's house. (Bun, kami tak jumper lagi Damia ko [tak aci, fadli and av dah jumpe!]). but have to beralah-lah...

5th raya - Again in the car for kota tinggi (cant go for pontian gaks). omg, places in johor is far away from one another. so pening. (but mama sms-ing me said that, "okey lah, at least tak duduk kat rumah jerk, kalu tak nanti kene masak and boring... ehhehe.. [mama really understand me-lah]). luckily, mama's message got through. celcom was breakdown on that day. i was "hangin" all the way gak as i cant call or sms-ing anyone! arrived back in kluang at 8pm. directly went for pacific (mall in kluang) as MIL requested for triffle. sampai rumah ader lagi tetamu yang datang beraya. (it's 10pm!, okey).

6th raya - wake up early again for "Breakfast wit MIL programme" (without khasif - as he was happily tido [sape anak for mak ayah saper nih?]). went for maybank (lembab-est maybank on earth [mabank, please take note!]) for cherry card, tabung haji (thumbs up!! [cz very effisien]) for daftar haji (requested by mak mertua), repaired mine and his watch (plus bought a new watch). this 4 so-called agenda took me till 4pm to settled. came back to packed our things. and around 6pm started our car untuk baliksss. but have to stop at mak ngah's house for salam raya (",) (his mak ngah's house is in the same neighbourhood actually) sembang2 sampai tak sedar dah pukul 7.30pm. turn back to MIL house as mak ngan kirim something for mak. start back our journey at 8pm to IPOH for Dina's Wedding. Arrived in ipoh at 2.30 am [penat, but cant wait for D's W (",)]

7th raya - wake up early (9am- it's early for me okey! coz it's saturday) for dina's akad nikah. have to be dina's dulang girl. (Dina, Happy Wedding okey!). settled around 1pm. Then, went for Fadli's house (Selamat Hari Raya, Fad. Sedap spagetti ko!, sampai habis khasif melantak... xpe nanti aku ganti balik ngan nasi ayam aku.. hahahha). Dina's Reception in SUK at 8pm. Came back to our sarang burung at 12am.

8th raya - Went for Simpang Pulai for Mak Itam's house. Stayed there till 3pm. Heading back to ipoh and lepaking in Ipoh Parede. Went for Jin Notti (borrriiinggg!) and spa-ing my hair (love this!). arrived again at my sarang burung at 10pm. thought of balik KL, tapi penat so we both tido jerk!

9th raya - supposely ive to start working today. but ive arrived in kl at 8.30am. (EL jelah gamaknyer!) We departed from Ipoh at 5.30am... sleep the whole day (it's recovering my energy okey!)

10th - 13th raya - working like hell! and im fasting for the puase 6. on friday - im sooo insists to go back to sg petani for my mom's cooking, plus boy in SP as well. can raya togerther2 (",)

14th raya - here i am, in SP for mama's food! (but somebody ruined my mood - u know who you are!) btw, Dina - Happy Wedding AGAIN in Muar. Selamat menjadi Johorian!

- END-

090909 everyone!

2009-09-09T09:00:00.002+08:00

It's 090909. This date wont come again babe, Ever!

what's so special about this date to me? absolutely - NOTHING!
im STILL going to do my work. this week have been so jahat to me- probably next week too... as tonneSS of KPIs need to be settle before eid-fitri.

ha'aaa, need to pick up my kuih raya at moon's house tonight! :)

me, so layu at the office today! chow

Raya coming (Part 1)

2009-09-07T09:49:00.002+08:00

Raya coming. Yeah! i cant wait. Why? because it'll be a new full chapter of hari raya for me...
last sat me and khasif did invite few friends for berbuka. i cooked nasi ayam for the invitees. my first try (serious! no-joke! - but of course-lah, tgk resipi mama) which will turn out to be my 2nd, 3rd.... [i even got tempahan from fadli for the triffle. hahahha :) ] everyone puji. included fadli (the very cerewet person!) [i still remember what he told me and av 7 years ago in Av's ous in Kelantan. "that's not the way of potong the bawang! tahu masak ker tak pompuan-pompuan nih?" (as for me and av, who's cares of the bentuk bawang? u ate it anyway! )]

still! im hunting for my baju raya... and kuih sarang semut. anyone know this kuih? please do let me know.

dina, ive just got your wedding card.... fuhh, at last... :) (dramas) need to reply kah? hahah surely i datang... can i make comfirmation through this blog... hahahaha

cant wait for your W. less than 20 days to gO! pray for DINA!!!

[not in 'da mood 2 talk]

2009-09-02T13:35:00.002+08:00

have no mood to talk

but in mood in doing my work!

everyone keeps asking me,

"ru sick?",

"you look very pale",

"hardly to hear fyza's voice these days".

it's because im not in the mood of TALKING!

gateaway, please!

Ramadhan coming!

2009-08-21T14:46:00.003+08:00

yuhhu... fasting month is tomorrow. Oh.. so fast!

hoped to celebrate 1st Ramadhan with my mom and dad back in sg petani.

....but im going back to kluang tomorrow morning... hey, they are my parents as well right? :)

cant wait to feel the new experience on 1st ramadhan in a new place.

so Happy Ramadhan everyone. Sorry for all the wrongdoings!

-just came back from Hilton. for the launching of the SME Corp's new logo-

cheerio (",)

2009-08-13T17:18:00.002+08:00

it's 5.19pm... a lot more to be done. need to hurry. wanna go for movie tonight. hurry up fyza! work smart!

12 August 2009

2009-08-12T13:04:00.003+08:00

1. Saya baru saja baik demam. my tonsil bengkak and caused my telinga infected ;(

2. saya masuk office hari ini dengan kerja yang bertimbun (update stimulus package, update retrenchment figures, settlekan DOSM's request, settlekan on the quotation, settlekan KE's folder on kabinet meeting on tourism, etc)

3. Fad ajak tengok the proposal. Tetapi av cannot make it as she was afraid of the H1N1. so fad, next time kiter plan again, okey!

4. Dina! your wedding coming soon... eeemmm tak sabar nak makan nasi pengantin u-lah.

5. kepala saya pening kembali. feel like vomitting at the same time. chow...

^_^

2009-08-04T10:36:00.003+08:00

Have you ever thought that KL sometimes could be so boring? Both me and khasif were always asking ourselves (especially on Friday! Coz weekends coming…) where else can we go? What else can we do? What else can we see? What else can we eat? and usually we end-up doing the same thing!

Last week (the whole week, to be exact!) we were craving for something.. and we don’t know what it is… So after office hour, we start our engine for somewhere and something eventhough we were so tired with lots and lots of works (pressure actually) during our office hour…

Monday – “jalan-jalan cari makan”

Tuesday – went for “Skrip 7707” (eventhough im soo insists of Ghost of gfs past and the proposal, but khasif wants the skrip 7707 [penyokong filem melayu-lah kononnya…]). It’s a crap!.... wasting my RM6…

Wednesday – “jalan-jalan cari makan” – AGAIN!

Thursday – went for setem… thumbs up!... (it’s a bit slow in the first half, but towards the end – the only words I can describe it – GOOOD JOB! [see, the extra O i gave :)] [Love afdlin (“,)]) Keep it up!

Friday – cleaning the house as his relatives coming!

Saturday – as told before, im so insists of beach… so we went for pantai klanang… somewhere in banting. Eventhough it is not as good as PD, but, hey, it’s not crowded with peoples okey! The beach is mine.. huhuh

Sunday – window shopping (we were walking from SOGO - Jalan TAR – Jalan Masjid India – PS [ that’s a long journey, babe! ]) and walking back to SOGO, of course!

Not forget to mentioned here,
Previous Saturday – went to nilai + bangi for wedding with parents in law. (bangi and nilai are soo panas okey….!)

Previous Sunday – went to SA to visit his relatives and IKEA- also with parents in law…aduhh sakit kaki sehhh!

See?? That’s why im soo ‘layu’ during office hour

May she rest in peace..

2009-07-27T11:04:00.003+08:00

i love her positive messages bout life...

i love her passion towards one nation... That is the message that Malaysia sorely needs these days!

And now, the magical Storyteller behind these messages is sadly gone!

Al-fatihah buat Yasmin Ahmad!

-end-

a so-called reunion!

2009-07-21T11:45:00.004+08:00

WE (me, dina, gda & alida) together with khasif, aizat and lisa went for makan-makan in SP. (should this be called makan-makan? :p no idea lah, but... whatever!).

We arrived a bit late, nearly 10pm as khasif (yang sungguh GATAL!) wants to hv a hair cut on the way to SP...

futher story, please proceed to DINA ! sorry yerk dina, i malas nak tulis... hehhehe

btw, pic of US! again----without sally ;(

chow!

headache....

2009-07-17T14:36:00.004+08:00

Just came back from secret recipies in mont kiara plaza. We're [ me, alida, gda, and alida's mother] having our lunch there. my head is spinning around because of the lamb steak i ate just now! im so craving for it and now im so regret. why is it on the first place i ate that cz i know i cant stand lorrr.. how am i going to settle my work while everything looks so blur and spinning around to me... damn steak!

ermm.... WE [me, alida, gda, dina] 'll probably hang up toningt! let's go girlS!

chow

entry mode ~ BORED!

2009-07-16T11:10:00.004+08:00

im so insistSS of:

-BEACH, BEACH & BEACH!

anyone??

ermmm...waiting for hubby!

2009-07-13T22:45:00.003+08:00

1. ermmm im in bangi right now. time check - 10.45pm. waiting for hubby to settle his work... no idea on what is it. but he's beside me, with his crack face... tensionSSS + stressingSSS over something in LLM's website. his tolling system down.. so he's trying to fix it now. i can always waits for him in our sweet home, but ermm boring!!!!... so i decided to follow him since i dont hv to rush for work tomorrow morning . i have to attend 2 days training for trainers seminar - the SME & Universities Internship Programme hold by SMIDEC and UKM. huhuhu... HEAVEN!!!

2. ive upload my W pics in my fb. ermmm tak larat lorr nak upload it here!

3. this weekend is Johanna's W in bangi. and next weekend is Nad's W in Ipoh. and hubby's cousins coming this weekend as well as the upcoming weekend. so hv to manage every single second wisely!

4. klah... chow. that's all i wanna jot down here. cu on da next 3 days!!! cheerio...

I'll stuck in the office today!

2009-07-08T16:51:00.003+08:00

it 5 pm. my plan to go back exactly at 5pm on the dot will flies far away from me! it's because of the NSDC meeting tomorrow. shit! i have to wait for my CEO to come back from the briefing meeting with our deputy minister on tomorrow's meeting... we have to wait for her as she want to ammend something on the slides. Hello...! meeting is tomorrow morning. what else you want? we hv prepared so many folders for the meeting. and you expect us to reprint everything back again? gosh... my boss [ALL of us in economics division in fact] was sooo fed-up with it... we were so tired and fatigue. my minister is another spoiler. He suppose to represent MITI in this meeting and we have prepared everything for him and even hold a special briefing session yesterday for him so that he will be able to present all slides in the NSDC meeting. he even request a special folder this morning. after a few hours running ups and downs preparing everything for him, suddenly he called and told us that he wont make it for the meeting. his deputy will replace him tomorrow. and that's why i am HERE in the office at this particular moment as my CEO have to hold another briefing session for the deputy minister pulak... arghh.. till what time i have to wait for her to come back? arrgghhhh... my boss went for briefing meeting with gabenor on tomorrow's meeting and our senior manager went for briefing meeting also with PM on tomorrow's meeting as well. everyone went out. so me, darwina, gayatry and suraini hv to ammend all STUPID folders. i hate working here!!!

what a life!

2009-07-07T17:46:00.004+08:00

ermmm... i always wanna write something here, but everytime i wanna start writting my stories, my memories flies... (",) ... im hungry now, damn hungry as im fasting today. thought of breaking fast, but since alida is also fasting, so i decided to continue my puasa. Talking of which, alida is working with smidec already. and she's in my division as well.. hehehe... funny lahh, we were in the same class back in tcs, sat next to each other. like dejavu -lahh, as it's repeating now...

suddenly i remembered dina message yesterday. she was telling me that her borang kahwin hv typing error. SAME LIKE MINE, okey! so we both were agreed that johorian nie harap pandai jawi jer, bahasa melayu hampeh...ejaan dalam malays pun salah. hiks hiks... right dina?

it's 5.59pm, i wanna go back. but if i were driving at this moment, surely i'll stuck in the traffic jam. so let's wait till 7pm to go back. khasif promise to cook tonight!. so fyza, you dont have to rush for anything!

ermm i've watch trasformers, drag me to hell, as well as jangan pandang belakang congkak. last week was my movie-marathon week. People keep telling me [i guess EVERYONE, kot] that transformers was great. so i and khasif decided to go for it-lah... and after 2 hours 30 minutes, we were like...ermmm ok? the movies were like ok jer lahh... not lahh so great!... i wonder how boy told me while US [abg am, kak uja, arman, adrish, khasif] were celebrating arman burfday. he said that he wants to cry watching that movie. the movie were superb. is it? NO idea lahh. As for drag me to hell, i hate the ending! Jangan pandang belakang congkak was great! It's not that im soo into malay movies. but i guess, it's been a while for malaysia to have such comedy film. I always thought that afdlin shauki is the only one who can produce such film... guess im wrong right? or am i being soo racist to my own film industry? hehhee...whatever-lah. (cant wait for twillight 2)

it's a tiring week for me. maybe because not enough rest! i went back to SP last saturday, then came back to KL on sunday and arrived around 11 something. my tyre was punctured, so i drove khasif's car to work on the next day. and my office hour was miserable [today got so many soalan parlimen that i have to prepare the answers, of course. (what else yerk?, monthly report, NSDC preps, inputs on post cab paper, inputs on board member meeting, input on Southern Region Investment & Trade Dialogue, status of govt stimulus package... fuuhh, by 5 pm, im half dead already!)]. last night we went to munirah's house in puncak jalil. and it's takes us 2 hours to arrives to their house. eventhough we were from serdang raya jer. gilerssss. it's because we were sesat-ing and to make thing worst i forgot to bring my hp, and khasif phone was blocked! ermmm luckily, it's only takes us 10 minutes to come back home and to change the tyre once we arrived, of course... cant wait for friday! come fast! come fast!

ermmm.... tonight got pasar malam lahh... my fav pasar malam (located in bangi) - to go OR not to go? im so insists of durian right now...

okeylah, we'll cont! time check-6.30pm. perfect time to perform my asar and to go back after that, of course... hehehe..

chow!

hello world!

2009-07-06T14:05:00.001+08:00

already got my W pics. Will upload it later - prob next week! I hv to rush for few things this week-NSDC meeting! gtg

5s

2009-06-17T18:31:00.002+08:00

errrmmm... after a tough and rough preparation of 5s, at last we were certified 5s by MPC for the 2nd year in a row. as one of the committee member, i cant express my feelings now as it's a tiring job. trust me! we were busy-ing "sorok-ing" everything. (everyone cant find back their belongings after the auditing was done) hiks. it's a tough job as an internal auditors of 5s... felt like resigning this post soon... [let's give the others the chance, right?] but, before i can do so, i received a "GREAT" news ever. Got letter from the administration department saying "congratulation to you as you were selected as JK Penyiasat Kehilangan Aset Alih Kerajaan"... what the ****?

btw dina, msg from khasif (eventhough, ive let you know earlier, [he reminds me everyday, okay!]) "Anda dijemput untuk menghadiri majlis di kluang! (at the same time boleh ziarah saudara mara di muar...ooops, bakal saudara mara(",) )"

and to alida, best of lucks for your interview!

ok bye everyone. im OFF for my kenduri in kluang. and a few days off, of course! not forget, i hv to attend PTK exam while im in my cuti mode. [still 50-50, either to go OR not to go!]

chow...

100609

2009-06-10T11:03:00.002+08:00

arrrghh... today is so boringgggg. life would be much easier if we could only sleep, sleep, and sleep... got so many stuff to do and yet i dont hv mood into it. my lists would be:
- internal audit of 5S and prepare report of it, of course!
- Status of I and II stimulus package (hate this! cz those officers incharge [in certain non-cooperative ministry] of this dont want to pick up the stupid phone)
- have to go for persidangan statistik kebangsaan in PICC
- inputs on perlaksanaan penggunaan kod, klasifikasi dan definisi statistik [i have no idea of this! and Dato's message is "statistician please prepare input"] what kind of input do you want actually?

today got morning assembly and i purposely make my myself not available for that.. BORING!

2nd episode of twilight

2009-06-08T12:30:00.007+08:00

The twilight saga:new moon coming! NOT that SOON, of course ('',) . will be coming out on the 20 November 2009.... Av and Fad! let's book our tics and date, please... hehehehe

......................................................... END ........................................................

Wedding Part 1.

2009-06-08T11:52:00.009+08:00

im using the word "Part" cz i dont think i hv the time to update every single story on my W day in 1 day (tiru dina actually, hehehhe) ... so the first part would be a few pics taken by my friends... have to "cilok" from them as the entire family were buzy welcoming the guests and dont hv time to snap the pics... i have to wholly depends on the photographer...hehehe

mitra,alida,dina,ME,sally

us AGAIN

ME with shaz and av...

Av and Shaz dengan post simpang jalan dieorg... hahaha

Shaz and Fad!

So TQVM for everyone for attending my W ceremony...

Cont later...

at last..

2009-05-18T14:52:00.002+08:00

i just came back from spa for full body scrub and full body massage. at last... YEAHH! (curik tulang time keje nihh. heheh)

180509

2009-05-18T11:16:00.003+08:00

argrghh... my back hurt. my arm hurt... my full body hurt cz i and khasif (of course!) went for basuh-ing and cleaning the so-called our house last weekend [whole saturday and whole sunday to be exact].....

hafiz won the af7... yeahhh... aril comes 2nd [pity alida! ('',)]... oklah tuhh.. both were my fav..im happy as long as isma not in the 1st place. so surprise how come she's at the 5th? where have her voters gone? btw, congratulation to both hafiz and aril as well as their afundersss... heheh...

my fingers also lenguh-lenguh, so i cant write more (full of drama lahh...[as told by dina])

p/s: Dina, dont forget to come and see me ar? before i get married... hehhhe ;)

my life?

2009-05-14T22:43:00.001+08:00

ermm..time check ------ it's 10.46pm and im STILL in the office... arrgghhh...tension sihhh!

reward myself! ... need to.

2009-05-12T08:37:00.002+08:00

arrgghh... need to go for full body massage and im ssoooo insists for manicure and pedicure as well as foot scrubs at this moment.. it's heaven! ('',)

btw, congratulationsss to czarina and czarif for the new borned baby!

thank you..

2009-05-05T12:40:00.002+08:00

WE [khasif + me] never had a chance to thanked FADLI and AVVY for being OUR pengapit!

tq, tq, tq

After 4 days break

2009-05-05T12:29:00.003+08:00

... was like hell.

- slides on the SMEWG -

- Monthly report -

- validation on the Survey on global economic and financial crises: impact on SMEs -

- tabulation on the SMEs retrenchement figures -

- invitees, programme books, invitation cards, etc.... for the opening ceremony of SMIDEX -

- Updates and report on 5S -

- meeting BAS meeting BAS meeting BAS meeting BAS -

not forget to add in the...

- invitation card for the W day -

- hantaran -

- hotels -

- non stop looking and surveying for the rumah.... i hate this! -

fuhh... all this need to be done by this weekends!

which one is which?

2009-04-21T08:25:00.003+08:00

Hey! Ive been asked by somebody yesterday. Which one you’re interested in?

a guy who comes with a full of surprises presents and cards but he was ignoring you, he’s not giving his full attention to you because he was so busy and don’t have time to call you or even sent you a simple and sweet message to you. Eventhough it’s only takes a few minutes. OR a guy who is taking care of you, giving his full attention to you even though he’s so busy but yet he still got time to call you or even sms-ing you, but there is no any token of appreciation for you.

huh?

It’s the thoughts that count, anyway!

Chow

April...

2009-04-20T17:51:00.002+08:00

It's been a week since my latest post. I find it’s hard for me to write down here on something everyday cz I don’t have time to click on to this website as well as I dont know what to blog in here.

Btw, let’s make a quick recap.

1) tqvm for all birthday wishes, for all presents, for all birthday cards, as well as for the surprise birthday party hold by my housemate. It’s a 6am birthday party, and im still sleeping on my luxury bed, surrounded by all my bantal busuk, and suddenly they came to my room together with my fav cheese cake, and sang a birthday song for me. Im touched. :( This year surprise birthday party reminds me of my friends back in UKM. Missing dayah, matul, hasi, noreen, aina and azni sooo much…thanxx so much for everything. I appreciate all you’ve done so much. And I meant IT! ermm it funny to received a totally diff birthday wishes this year. im used to hear the "semoga panjang umur", "semoga kawin cepat", etc. But this year it's more to "cepat cepat dapat baby".. hehehe.. im not married yet lah... :)

2) im soooo insists to go for the night market. It’s been a while since my last time. And tq for khasif for making my dream come true. Huhuh

3) My life quite tough for the past 3 weeks. I don’t know why but ive been so sensitive lately. It’s so tough both physically and mentally. Everything seems soo wrong. Everything is crumbling. Ive been through so many ups and downs. I’ve spent some sleepless nights. Sometimes, people just cant understand what others might hv been through. People sometimes are very selfish. Seems it’s so hard, even to asked, “how are you?” OR “what’s wrong with you?” (Hey you! You are NOT supportive ok?) Sometimes people are so rude and thought they, themselves are the best, but yet they are useless. Ive been so patience to that particular person and I don’t know why should I? but I guess, only God knows why.

4) at last, fad and av have comfirmed to be our pengapit on our W day. tq tq tq for being so sporting.

5) So many updates to run to. Gtg. Chow.

Mad

2009-04-13T12:06:00.003+08:00

[ currently into this, MAD by Ne-yo ]

She's starin' at me

I'm sittin' wonderin' what she's thinkin'

Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'

And now it's I'm yellin' over her, she yellin' over me

All that that means is neither of us is listening

And what's even worse?

That we don't even remember why we're fighting

So both of us are mad for,

Nothing, fighting forNothin', crying forNothing,

But we won't let it go forNothing, no not forNothing, this should beNothing to a love like what we go

Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain

But baby, can we make up now?'

Cause I can't sleep through the pain

Can't sleep through the painGirl,

I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me

No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you

And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me...

and the lyrics continued...

ME!

2009-04-08T17:36:00.000+08:00

MY heart rate goes up.
MY blood pressure goes up.
MY breathing gets shallower and harder.
MY muscles tense up.

I’M being hit.
I’M being cheated.
I’M being neglected and ignored.
I’M unable to be in control and...
I’M being in stressful and demanding situations

it's show time!

2009-04-06T08:00:00.008+08:00

friends out there! go and watch this 2 movies:

Talentime explores love in its many manifestations, from boy-girl affection TO parent-child devotion TO plantonic affection between friends...

fast and furious 4: ermm... what can i say? just watch it. seeing is believing. words cant describe it! im INTO it.

coba lah coba...

2009-04-01T08:01:00.005+08:00

Coba kau dengar, coba kau coba, diam bila ku coba, untuk berbicara dengan kamu.
Pernahkah kau ada, bila ku perlu, untuk meluahkan rasa hati.
Dan bila kau bersuara, setia ku mendengar, agar tenang kau merasa.
Coba kau lihat, coba kau coba, renung ke mata aku, bila ku melihatmu.
Pernahkah kau ada, bila ku perlu, untuk menyatakan rasa sakit dalam diri.
Dan bila kau perlu, setia ku menunggu, agar senang kau merasa
Siapa sebenarnya aku padamu, mungkin sama dengan teman lain, yang bisa kau buat begitu.

Dan bila tiada lagi teman bermain, kau pulang untuk dapatkan aku, itulah aku... padamu

-Beautiful words with meaningful phrases!-

March...

2009-03-31T08:06:00.013+08:00

NO entry in March. Not even once because March has been so CRUEL to me as March didn’t gave me the opportunity to pen down anything here.

I’ve been very busy for the past few days. ermm shall I says the whole month? Or shall i say I am both lazy and busy then? (Hey! It rhymes! :hehe: ) I started and ended each month with my monthly report! Urgh! I had enough of those shits! This report just drives me mad and crazy as well. I’ve been coping with it for the last 2 years and I feel so sick whenever I looked up to the calendar and it shows 30th. As the report needs to come out by 7th, so the 1st till the 7th is like hell for me. I need 36 hour/day, please. Hurmm…. Need to work on the weekends as well.

Ive also went for a brainstorming session (programmes, policies and incentives for RMK10) in PD for 2 days. The 2 days was like hell… AGAIN! Not enough rest, not enough sleep. That’s why it was called a brainstorming huh? Nevertheless the food was always good. Thank god! (‘’,)

Not forget to mention I need to come over for a rehearsal in Legend Hotel for the so-called JICA Graduation day on a public holiday. Hello everybody! It’s a public holiday okey. Another 1 day gone!

Heyy, enough of it! Im more interested to wrote bout my training programme in JAPAN! It was wonderful! It was great! It was marvelous! Words just cant describe it. Wonder if anyone would says the same thing if they were in a training programme? Hehehe. Btw, those words was meant for the jalan-jalan session ok, not the training session. Hehe. Get me? [i remembered what dina told me, "fyza, this is not training, this is bercuti." heheh] How I wish I would be there again. I cherish every moment in Japan with lynn, fiza, farid and rahim. It will be never ending lists if I wrote here how I felt and what I felt. But that was a great moment for me to be there. Trust me! It was a short pleasure ive been waiting for after a rough year. Eventhough it was for short while but it means a lot for me, for US. We went for a few places – Tokyo Disneyland, Shinjuku, Ueno Okachimachi, Asakusa, Akihabara, Raponggi, etc. So here are some pics. Seeing is believing huh?

As im in Japan, I don’t have a chane to attend my cousin wedding in penang. All the best to moon and fawwaz for their future!. May god bless them, forever. Amin... A few shot i cilok from them, please. huhu

ermmm.. a few people getting old in March. ('',) Happy burfday to boy for his 23th birthday on the 22th March. As well as to Fadli for his 25th burfday on the 12th March.

so that's it... goodbye march 2009. Welcome April 2009. Im looking forward for this month. Seriously YESS!!

Simple words with BIG impact.

2009-02-24T17:50:00.002+08:00

Sometimes simple words can mean a lot to someone. The words "I hate you" can break your heart. The words "you are amazing" can change your whole attitude. Words start wars and divide families. Words can inspire, encourage, and convey love. They can poke and prod and compel to action. Or they can wound, discourage, and criticize. And what is said or not said in the most mundane moment can alter the course of a life...forever!

But what I wanna pen down here is the important of words – hello, thank you, im fine and how are you. It’s just a words, ONE simple words but it means a lot. It gives a big impact to the others.

When you’re busy, even when you’re in the middle of somewhere, is it HARD to call or at least sms-ing and says “hi. Im busy, cont later” OR “how ru?” OR “im busy. Cant talk. Hope ure OK” OR “tq for calling or sms-ing, but im bz. Hope ure ok”. That’s all! Is it sooo damn hard? Sometimes people make that as the hardest thing to do in the world. It only takes one or two minutes.

those words are not only meant for lovers, but friend and family member. Btw, hello doesn't come from Hell, that's for sure! So… just says it!

I talk politics OR I don’t talk politics?

2009-02-24T08:19:00.003+08:00

Issue on Elizabeth Wong: She’s good. She sacrificed building a family and raising kids for the sake of servicing to the people. No doubt ‘bout it.
I shall says that she’s at the wrong place at the wrong time. Pity her that she was blackmailed. It’s true that, this ‘particular’ person who did that should be brought to the justice as it is against the law.

But, Come to think about it again.

- Do we want to vote a party that does not respect the sanctity of our family institution? (They don't let her to resign ..)
- Do we want our children to consume this cultural garbage?
- Can elected reps say that what ever happen behind closed door is their privacy and do not affect their role as elected leaders?

…. plus some leaders from the so called Islamic party allowed this to happen ...

being someone better!

2009-02-23T07:45:00.007+08:00

Hello. Black mon come again. im bored and totally have enough rest+sleep+food. Wanna know y? ermmm... cz khasif went for induction course for a week and only to come back on this friday. so i did nothing the whole weekend as he went for the induction yesterday and he need sat as the preparation-day. ;p

NO movies, NO window shopping, NO late night out, NO "lets try the food thing", NO calls, NO jokes, NO arguing, NO merajuk-merajuk thing, no-NOTHING!. Soo, on sat i went to my sis ous, N as ive expected, every1 keep on asking, "not going out with khasif?" or "where's khasif?" and another 1001 q on khasif to answer.

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and at this particular moment, im 100% agreed that sometimes we forgot to appreciate the most important life to us and sometimes we've only know what we've got until we loose it. and i dont want to loose him so that i can appreciate him. i want to have him and appreciate him-which ive never did that ever.

every year's resolution which 2b some1 better just flies through the year (which it's yearss 2b exact), without me done anything better on it. my BAD!. arrgghhh... saturday come fast!.

marriage...

2009-02-17T16:27:00.006+08:00

"Many marriages would be better if the husband and wife clearly understood that they're on the same side"

transfer order...

2009-02-16T15:35:00.000+08:00

dude,

i received a transfer order last friday - from the IT division to a newly-setup economic division. [i was EL, so i got the news over the phone call] naa, actually my boss, which i suppose to address him as my ex boss now hv told me 2 days earlier before the MEMO came out. my feeling-ss?
freak+nervous+mazed+trobbing as i'll be working with new boss which she's from BNM, one E48 from MITI, and the other 2 new officer. im glad as my tag-team were brought together with me in this upcoming "most pressured division". There's a lot to be done- we need to come out with SMEs annual report by June as the NSDC meeting will be held -and we're now zero. we have to work backward. As told by BNM, they took around 8 months to came out with the report. but seems like we were given like 3-4 months ONLY...? i know it's a great feeling when you can benefit the public and together to enhance the economic development but please do it in a proper ways lahh...

i shall be glad as well as ill be experienced a new environment... ermmm lets take this as a opportunity for a better career path then? hopefully... amin....

one of the new officer, which i thought of "she looked very familiar" named darwina. after a short interview with her, you see- no wonder she looked very familiar! she's same aged with me and from ipoh. she's MCs. so many lahh ipoh-ians in this office.

en ghaz have transfered to MITI last friday. gonna miss you lahh. miss? NOT that miss, it's the other miss... heheh. btw en ghaz, tqvm for everything. every single thing. appreciate so much for your help-ss for the past 2 years. tq, tq, tq.

well.. that's all. gonna perform my solat.

...Because february means LOVE LETTER!

2009-02-11T17:16:00.000+08:00

hello february! wahh so fast time flies... felt like i celebrated new year yesterday. hiks.. life go on, no matter how slow u r.

a quick recap!

1- trip to japan hv been postponed to Martch 10th. argghh... how i wish im on the plane right now so that i can left my brain in the office.. god, please make the time flies fast, i means faster! as told before, it is NOT that im so intoo for Japan, just that i wanna go somewhere without anyone from the office to disturb me.

2- my colleague, ani have left this office for better place. i hope so.. Wish u all the best! Nanti kawin jangan luper jemput. For sure ill turun Pendang! hiks hiks. [here our last pic as requested by U!]

3. Me and Khasif went for so called "jalan-jalan cari makan" at port klang. and we decided to go for ikan bakar at Muara Ikan Bakar as we were insists of it since.... forever. and the food? fuuhh... words just cant descrise it lets eyes be the witnesses.. It's a journey from nowhere to somewhere as we never planned to anywhere!

[Pic taken before we enjoy our food!]

[before]

[after]

yummy!

btw, thought of going together with my av and fad, but seems like they are too bz with.. LIFE? OFFICE? FAMILY? FRIENDS? PARTNER? .....

4. Last weekend, i went to see my beloved arman and adrish. as arman was not in good mood, so i and khasif took adrish for a short car-ride. thought of window shopping-ing but adrish slept before we arrived at our so-called "the only hot spot in wangsa maju" . so we cancel the plan and bring back adrish to his heaven.

am i a good baby sitter? huh ('',)... khasif please answer me? hhhahah. definitely the answer will be YESS...

5. im cracking my head [which i think it should be - STILL cracking] to prepare the wedding gift for my W day... friend & friendsss need your brain in providing me the best, best-er, and best-est idea..ideass

6. Speacial words to my ex roomate- BE TOUGH dayah!. Allah knows what HE's doing. Pray for the best! The best motivation always comes from within.

7. errmm... need more time to think on W. As i need to involves in SMIDEX in May, SMIDEC to be transform to SME Corp in APRIL, NSDC meeting in JUNE, Japan in March, so is there any minutes for me to think over for my W day? goshh....

chow

F*** OFF

2009-02-04T12:59:00.000+08:00

arrghh... menyampah betul aku dok kat sini...
nak buat keje pun tak senang...
lepas sorang-sorang menyusahkan hidup aku...
Membebankan aku dgn masalah-masalah yang tak der kena mengena ngan aku...
and orang lain pun ske cari pasal ngan aku... pleaselah, tanyer elok2, so jawab lahh elok2 gak...
aku pun tau gak nak marah... kesabaran aku nie ada hadnyer...
enough IS enough!
and please
F*** OFF lahh!

half DEAD!

2009-01-29T17:22:00.000+08:00

a quick recap

- im bz preparing the upcoming monthly report. i have to settle it by tomorrow as monday is holiday, then on tuesday i need to go for a short meeting with jica agency as well as to settle everything on my visa.. guys! im going to japan for 2 weeks... i cant wait anymore. you see, it is not about im so insists to go to japan, it's just that i cant wait to be out from the office, i dont want to be in the office anymore... i want to run away from the office! arrgghhh

-BUT before i can truly "flying without my wings", i have to crack my head first as i need to prepare another report on 2008 report.. im half DEAD already dear! so please make this weekend as a wonderful weekend ever for me! beach looks great for me at this moment.... or cameron? ok dear? ('',)

- what else to says? forget to mentioned. ive went back to SP on CNY. and the highway was crowded with lots and lots of carssssss.... it took 9 hours for me to arrived in SP... arrghh and eventhough im already in KL, half of me still in SP...im zombie... arrgghhh (again!)...

- klah, i want to go back. wulan is at 6pm. hiks hiks... a cup of milo ice sound good to me for me to have it on the way back!
cheerio!!!!

Im Tired of IT!

2009-01-29T12:28:00.001+08:00

(19 January 2009)

I can’t believe how tersangat rajin I am for the past 1 week. I have no mood to do my job since last week. I felt so tired, I felt so sleepy… is not that I don’t hv nything to do in fact I have so many due date to run for and yet im still NOT in the mood of doing any… in fact, I have no mood to jot down any here.. arggh..

Kenapa lah sumer org + org tue asyik nak marah marah? Asyik panas baran? Sumer bender tak kene…pressure lah and penat lahh asyik nak kene sabar jerk…penat lah nak layan… penat lah nak ikut rentak korang jerk… penat! IM TIRED OF IT! i have a lot-i means lotss and lotsss of job need to be done, lotss and lotsss of things that I need to think it through, so please don’t make thing worse for me…

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2009-01-29T12:27:00.001+08:00

(1 January 2009)

Today is the beginning of another new year!

where new resolution are made,

new targets are set,

new aims to achieve,

new faiths to fulfill!

but whatever it may be,

this old me would like to wish all of you the very best in whatever you may be doing and may you be in the best of health and happiness always!

WELCOME TO 2009!

i wish... you didnt know..why?... will you?...

2009-01-29T12:23:00.000+08:00

(21 December 2008)

Love is blind, but yet STILL can feel the passion.
Love is blind, but yet STILL can touch the heart.

I wish I had the chance to turn back time and could change the choice – CHOICES – ive made,
I wish ive NOT done anything ive done before
I wish im NOT the person I am now
I wish I have the GOLDEN opportunity to change my past and have a better tomorrow!

Like flowers need the rain
Like coffee needs a cup
Like a candle needs a flame
Like a hammer and a nail
Like socks and shoes
Like rhythm and blues
That’s how i NEED you!

BUT

You didnt know,How you hurt me so,
You’ll never know,Cause ill never show.
You didnt know,That i couldnt let go.
You just dont care,
You werent even there.
I dont know how i can show,
What you yourself, can never know.

Why do i care so much?
Why do i still try?
Why does it hurt so much when there was never anything there?
Why does it make me cry?
Why you and not someone else?

Will you ever care?
Will you ever be able to dry my tears?
Will it always be you?
Will you ever get over yourself and open up your eyes?

I ask myself those questions everyday but STILL can’t find any answers.
I don’t care what others might says, might think.
As for me, its hurts so much and it doesn’t mean anything anymore to me.
Im walking AWAY!

i understand...

2009-01-29T12:20:00.000+08:00

(10 December 2008)

i do understand with the words of “private moment”
i do understand with the phrase of “i cant be with you 24/7″
i do understand with the sentences of “i have no time now. need to go. let’s cont later”
i do understand with the words of “i wanna hang out with my friends”
i do understand with the sentences of “im tired, need to sleep”
i DO understand all that. in fact i NEED to understand.
But all i asked is just a moment... A MEANINGFULL moment instead.
For you to share my ups and downs.
For you to wipe away every tears that falling down.
For you to share your shoulder when i need to and
For you to lend your hand when i want to.
ive fall down. its hard… its hurt. but as im climbing back, i realise that im on my own.
without you,
without your support,
even without you knowing what is actually happen.
life is COMPLICATED. totally miserable!
i understand… in fact i NEED to understand!

******************************************************************************

ermm just came back from eid-hajj. ive enjoyed every single food every single day. best! best! after 5 days of leave, my mail box is full of requested data @ statistics. need to rush for all that, but STILL i have time to jot down something. let’s see what have i hv done since morning…

-recap-

1) prepare requested data from amin, faiz, roslan, shidi & farid on data of profile of SMEs by districts

2) prepare requested data from ursla on status of financial assistances in sarawak

3) updated figures in the monthly table

4) prepare data for weekly report to MITI

5) prepare listing of companies in Perak for Faiz at 12.00pm, i went to see my boss, and here is my updated due date to rush to:

6) call SSM for their listing on the available information in their database

7) prepare figures for BI Tools

8- prepare special format on ethnicity data to EPU

9) i have to prepare few inputs as i need to attend meeting in Malacca for 3 days… 3 days? omg. 3 days for 1 meeting……

need to go…
chow

p/s: ive thought of going out for movie - its movieSS actually which are LOST and FAUN, transporter 3, twilight - AGAIN! love it!

Wonderful Weekend!

2009-01-29T12:10:00.001+08:00

(1 december 2008)

I hv a wonderful weekend last week. i have fun. lots and lots of fun actually. i enjoyed every single moment! we ( ME, my darling bebey - [he likes memey soo much, so i decided to call him bebey ('',) ], and together with the upcoming future couple to be - fadli & avvy nivia - *wink*) ‘ve spent time the whole saturday together gether.

the recap…

10.30am - went to seri kembangan to fetch my khasif as it’s my turn 2b his driver :( on the way to avvy’s house, we drob by to have a cup of pleasure… -which is the sugar cane and cocunut drink… yum yum yum… then, we stop again at the McD’s drive through and have Mc Chicken + banana pie + sundae choc for our breakfast. (NOT sure whether it still 2b consider as breakfast or not??) Jammed all over sg besi’s road. but he (he drives at last. fuhh!) took his sweet time driving.

1.00pm - arrived at av’s house. while waiting for her, we took this pic. (after a few shots to be exact. hiks hiks)

1.30pm - we start our journey to OU. on the way there, i hv stomach pain and need to go to the toilet. URGENTLY. so we drob by at my house. and perform solat as well.

2.30 pm - arrived in OU. we looked for the parking (indoor parking) almost for half an hour. then we decided to park at the open air parking (we have to walk for 10 minutes. arrgghh!) We watched the salsa performance for 15 minutes. and go for free medical check up hold by OSIM. (this is the “Health is important” journey EVER! huhu… so the results- my urine test is ok! my stress level is ok as well, my blood glucose is normal!, my body water is ok… but i have problem with my blood pressure. that lady told me that i have low blood pressure! same as what my panel doc hv told me before…. (so guys out there! im perfectly perfect 4u! i wont get angry easily) hahah…. av is also ok with her results. and since fadli stress level is nearly to the high susceptibility, so we went to secret recipies (so that fadli can taste every single of pleasure - the cheese and the chocolate cake… i means cakeSSS). then we decided to go for IKEA after that. we spent there for “cuci mata” till 8.oo pm.

9.00 pm - we have dinner in ampang. have one round of movie at the le’ park restaurant (should i call this restaurant??). (the transporter - which ive already watched it).

11.15 pm - we headed to KLCC. plan to watch midnight movie. but no idea yet of what movie to watch. so we’re just gambling!

11.55 pm - arrived in tgv. so we decided to go for TWILIGHT. and i would like to say the movie is AWESOME! [ it is because im truly and deeply interested with the guy - Edward Culler. im in LOVE with him.. yESS im in love.. even avvy as well in love with Edward Culler.. that is the type of gut that I, no! it is actually WE (all ladies) interested in! ('',) ] it’s a action-packed & love story between a teenage girl with a vampire. a VAMPIRE!.

the movie end nearly around 2am. so after we sent av back to her apartment, and khasif to his apartment as well, i went back to my heaven. and i arrived in my sarang burung around 4pm…. hehhe…ill be dead if my mom find out!. huhu.. btw… im having soooo much fun! tq to bebey, av and fadli. next time we’ll go out again… and again… and again…. and again…… and it’s a NEVER ENDING LISTS!
chow!

the so, so, so, so AND so...

2009-01-29T12:08:00.000+08:00

(27 November 2008)

So many updates to run to… so many meetings to attend to… (I have to prepare to attend one meeting tomorrow morning which I s-o-o fed up of it) and yet I still hv time to jot down something. It is because im so fed-up with all this (sooooo to be exact). Im so hungry at the moment. Let see what do I hv for my stomach today? 1 glass of milo ice, 2 slices of kaya and butter toast. That’s it… arrgghh… don’t hv time to eat as I hv to rush for my Dato’s speech input the whole morning till lunch break. Arrgghhh the phone just rang, I need to go for BAS (Business Advisory Services). Hold up!

………………………………………………………………………………

(50 minutes later)

Here I am… back to my luxury cubicles… just met a new upcoming entrepreneurs. One entrepreneur for a trading company (trader for frozen food to be exact) and another one is a manufacturer in furniture industry. Have to talk the same scripts every single time for every different casts. Tired of it… damn tired!

Stop for a while… my sis called!

This is ME? ... is it?

2009-01-29T12:05:00.000+08:00

(23 November 2008)

Ive went though a personality test hold by JPA last August. And last week I got the results which im not sure whether it reflects me or not. Maybe certain criteria do fit in me, but the others??

Im an extrovert:
- Mendapat ransangan dari luar
- Gemar dan merasa bertenaga apabila bersama orang lain
- Memerlukan perhubungan dengan orang lain.
- Selalunya ramah, mesra dan mudah dikenali
- Cenderung bertindak sebelum berfikir
- Mudah memberi pendapat dan kritikan
- Berkemungkinan kurang peka dengan keperluan dalaman
diri
- Mudah merasa bosan dan gelisah jika terlalu lama
bersendirian
- Menceriakan kehidupan seharian
- Sering dianggap cetek pemikiran dan mengganggu oleh
orang introvert
- Memerlukan introvert untuk keseimbangan

Im an intuitive:
- Memproses maklumat secara mendalam dengan memberi fokus kepada makna, kaitan dan perhubungan
- Melihat corak dan kemungkinan tetapi maklumat sering tidak lengkap
- Berkomunikasi secara umum dengan menggunakan terma-terma yang abstrak
- Melihat sesuatu secara menyeluruh sebelum menyesuaikan bahagian-bahagian dengan yang berkenaan
- Cenderung bersedia untuk masa hadapan
- Gemar berimaginasi dan suka mencipta sesuatu yang baru
- Melakukan sesuatu secara tidak teratur dan berubah-ubah
- Suka kepada perubahan, idea baru dan kepelbagaian
- Dianggap sebagai Mat Jenin

Im a Feel’s person:
- Membuat keputusan berasaskan perasaan orang lain melalui proses yang berasakan nilai
- Berpegang kepada prinsip nilai sendiri
- Memberi perhatian kepada nilai orang lain dan organisasi
- Tidak suka kepada prinsip yang ‘impersonal’
- Mudah memahami orang lain dan mudah memuji
- Memberi fokus kepada perasaan dan bukannya fikiran
- Sukar untuk memberi perkhabaran buruk kepada orang lain
- Pentingkan perhubungan dan keharmonian
- Kelihatan seperti terlalu beremosi dan tidak rasional

Im a Judging person:
- Menjalani kehidupan yang teratur dan terancang
- Gemar kepada struktur dan terkawal
- Selesa berada di dalam’comfort zone’
- Membuat perancangan awal dan penjadualan yang tetap.
- Gemar membuat keputusan dan menguruskan orang lain
- Suka melakukan sesuatu sehingga selesai
- Tidak suka untuk mengubah perancangan dan sering terlepas pandang perubahan yang perlu dibuat
- Cepat membuat keputusan dan kelihatan tegar, terlalu mendesak dan tidak fleksibel

As conclusion, Anda mempamerkan diri sebagai seorang yang mempunyai imaginasi, kreativiti, suka kepelbagaian, dan cabaran baru dalam kehidupan. Anda boleh melihat pembangunan potensi diri orang laindan berusaha membantu mereka mencapai matlamat yang ditetapkan. Anda mempunyai sikap ingin tahutentang sesuatu idea baru dan mahu memberi sumbangan dari aspek kebajikan serta kemanusiaan. Dari aspek hubungan interpersonal, anda seorang yang mudah mesra penyayang, setia, boleh dipercayai dan boleh menyesuaikan diri dengan orang lain. Anda seorang yang prihatin dan menggunakan empati diri orang lain dan memberi sokongan serta semangat bagi pembangunan diri mereka. Anda menghargai kerjasama, boleh mempunyai orang lain, dan membina persetujuan antara satu sama lain walaupun mereka mempunyai minat serta motif yang berbeza. Anda kerap bertindak sebagai pengantara, fasilatator atau pemimpin yang memberi inspirasi, mengeluarkna yang terbaik daripada orang lain dan bertanggungjawab mengurus interaksi sosial antara rakan sekerja, kawan atau keluarga.

So as conclusion, im Extraversion, Action taker, Outward, Expressive, Do-Think-Do, Interaction-ER, Intuitive, Imaginative, Theoretical, Love to give Ideas, Future thinker, love to think on “What could be next”,Subjective, Understand, kind hearted, Judgement, Organized, in Control, Deliberate, Closure, Planner, Merciful, Decision maker, impersonal…

Am i this list? Am i…? am i…? — No idea!

will cont. LATER!

2009-01-29T12:02:00.000+08:00

(11 November 2008)

Lots and lots of lists to update here.

2 friends of mine were already being a mother. Bun with her daughter named Damia Lutfiah and fiza CC is a mother to a new born baby named Nurul Madihah. Heheh… macam nama-nama dalam novel jerk… but whatever pun, Congratulations to you both! Hope you guys will be a great mother, grandmother, aunty etc EVER! :p

Me and khasif went to alida’s house for her so called “open house” eventhough we’re not in syawal month dah… the reason we were there is that alida told us that she’s going to cook on her own. So me and khasif were like “… ermmm… lets try it” Thanx GOD the food was ok… not bad for her 1st time try - I guess.. ;p thanks a triilion to dira as well. Meena and her boy was there too. The funny thing is when khasif at first thought “is that umi aida”? thanx god he never says it. :p Don’t forget to mention he was so nervous to meet alida and dira for the 1st time. Reason? I have no idea!

I went back to SP last weekend with khasif and my sis as well as with my beloved arman and adrish. The journey was disaster… the tyre was punctured around 1.30am. and we’re in the middle of nowhere. Luckily, the plus officer arrived there less than 5 minutes. And help us to settle down on everything. Go PLUS, go PLUS, go PLUS. Thank you very much to the Mr “I forget to ask his name”. Tq, tq, tq,..

Need to stop lah.. no mood to jot down on everything eventhough lots of stuffs need to tell ya! Miss my sayang actually…

p/s: Did I mention that im so in love with this new 2 songs. Which are the song by estrange – aurora as well as by M.Nasir ft malique – mantera beradu. Love it!

- YOU -

2009-01-29T12:00:00.000+08:00

(28 October 2008)

I used to asked my self who… YOU? and why… YOU?
Now I know that it is…

Because YOU loves to makes my life worthliving!

Because YOU loves making me cry before it made making me smile…

Because YOU loves to inspires me to be a better person…
Because YOU loves to taught me patience!

Because YOU loves to never blamed me for the wrongs I did…
Because YOU loves to stood up for me when nobody else did!

Because YOU loves to argue with me…
Because YOU loves to let me be me!

And because of it…
I DON’T really loves you to be here with me
I DON’T really loves you to share my life with me

But I NEED u to complete me…

MALAYS... where are we now?

2009-01-29T11:53:00.000+08:00

(24 October 2008)

Hello there. How’s every 1? Hopefully u all in a good shape and in pink health. So what I wanna write here? Let me see… Mmm … There’s something that I always wanna jot down here in my blog. But each time, when im here in front of my comp and started to arrange my sentences on this topic, suddenly my mind goes blank. Maybe I’m afraid that someone will hurt while reading this. But as for now, I believe, it’s the time for me to pen down on this matter. Since I just came back from this 1 programme attended by my minister and which is coincidence-ly the same topic I’m interested in – Malays, where are we now? Allowed me to write on this matter – what my mind wants to say…

As at 2006, Malays are the main citizens of Malaysia:
Malay = 13,575,100
Chinese = 6,219,600
Indian = 1,858,500

This numbers can tell you that Malays are the majority. With 54.7%, supposedly Malays are the majority contributor in all aspects especially in the economic sector. BUT, what is actually happened is far away from what we’re actually expected.

Ekuiti milik bumiputera as at 2007 hanyalah 19.4%, sedangkan sasaran kita di dalam DEB, ia sepatutnya mencecah angka 30%. Jumlah ekuiti bagi kaum bukan bumi as at 2007 adalah 40.4%. sedangkan sasaran yang sepatutnya adalah 40%. Lihat sahaja perbezaan yang ketara itu. Lihat sahaja betapa kaum melayu sebenarnya telah ketinggalan ke belakang.

Ada pihak dengan lantangnya berpendapat DEB telah gagal. Tetapi bagi saya ia tidak gagal. Ia cuma tidak mencapai target setinggi seperti yang ditetapkan. Mungkin anda tidak tahu, pada tahun 1970, tahun dimana DEB diperkenalkan, ekuiti milik bumiputera pada masa itu hanyalah 2.4%. Pada tahun akhir DEB, iaitu 1990, taraf ekuiti bumiputera telah meningkat kepada 19.2%. Satu peningkatan yang pada saya cukup ketara. Cukup tinggi! Namun antara tahun 1990 hingga tahun 2007, peratus ekuiti melayu adalah 19.4%. Peningkatan sebanyak 0.2% sahaja bagi tempoh 17 tahun. Pada tahun DEB dilaksanakan, ekuiti melayu telah meningkat sebanyak 16.8%, namun pada tahun selepas itu sehingga tahun 2007, ekuiti bumi putera hanya meningkat 0.2%. Tidakkan itu menunjukkan bahawa DEB tidak gagal, tetapi orang orang melayu antara tahun 1990 hingga 2007 yang telah gagal untuk memajukan sektor ekonomi kaum mereka sendiri.

Saya juga terpikir, adakan mungkin disebabkan peningkatan yang tinggi itu telah berlaku pada tahun DEB dilaksanakan, menyebabkan kaum melayu berasa selamat di zon yang tersendiri. Dan dengan itulah, hanya peningkatan sebanyak 0.2% sahaja yang kita dapat lihat bagi kaum melayu dalam masa 17 tahun selepas itu??

Namun jika kita lihat sekarang, kaum melayu sendirilah adalah antara mereka yang dengan lantangnya telah menolak DEB. Tidakkah mereka terpikir, dengan DEB itulah, peratus ekuiti melayu telah meningkat?

Memang tidak dinafikan DEB adalah satu dasar yang tidak lagi diamalkan. Memang betul zaman DEB telah tamat. Namun, angka 30% itulah yang sepatutnya dijadikan semangat kita yang perlu dikekalkan sehingga sekarang. Semangat yang sepatutnya kita perjuangkan hingga sekarang.

Timbul pula isu kontrak sosial. Apa itu sebenarnya kontrak sosial? Kontrak sosial merujuk kepada perjanjian oleh bapa-bapa kemerdekaan negara dalam Perlembagaan, dan merupakan penggantian beri-memberi atau quid pro quo melalui Perkara 14–18 yang berkenaan dengan pemberian kewarganegaraan Malaysia kepada orang-orang bukan Melayu. Ia adalah satu persetujuan yang memberikan kewarganegaraan kepada orang-orang bukan Melayu dan bukan orang asli (kebanyakannya orang Malaysia Cina dan Malaysia India) sebagai ganti untuk pemberian hak keistimewaan kepada orang-orang Melayu.

Keyword - pemberian kewarganegaraan SEBAGAI GANTI pemberian hak istimewa kepada orang-orang Melayu. Namun, apa yang berlaku pada hari ini, setiap yang berbau melayu telah dicabar dan dipersoalkan dengan lantang dan terbuka. Contohnya, artikel 153: hak-hak istimewa bumiputera, sosial kontrak, asal usul melayu, DEB, bahasa melayu, kepimpinan melayu, raja-raja melayu, kebudayaan melayu, agama islam dan sebagainya yang berhubung kait dengan keistimewaan orang melayu. Kesemuanya itu telah dicabar dengan lantangnya oleh orang orang bukan melayu. Alasan yang diberikan, amat mudah – dasar tersebut menindas kaum lain. Hak kesamarataan perlu di tuntut!

Saya terpanggil untuk berfikir, jika hak keistimewaan melayu perlu ditarik balik, adakah sanggup kaum cina dan kaum india memberikan semula hak kewarganegaraan mereka? Kerana sosial kontrak itu sendiri menyebut hak keistimewaan melayu adalah SEBAGAI GANTI kepada pemberian kewarganegaraan. Fikirlah wahai melayu. Kadang-kala saya agak terkilan kerana melayu sendiri yang mahu hak keistimewaan mereka digadai. Contoh mudah – manifesto politik, yang dilaung laungkan sabah hari - hak yang sama antara kaum! Adakah itu yang sepatutnya diperjuangkan? Adakah itu yang sepatutnya diagung-agungkan? Sanggupkah kita menggadaikan apa yang sepatutnya menjadi milik kita hanya semata-mata untuk mengejar kekuasaan untuk mentadbir sebuah negara? Bukan saya hendak mengutuk mana-mana parti politik, jauh sekali menyokong mana-mana parti politik. Tetapi saya menyokong mereka yang akan memperjuangkan saya, yang akan memperjuangkan hak-hak saya, yang akan memperjuangkan hak-hak anak-anak, cucu-cucu dan seterusnya waris-waris saya. Saya menyokong mereka yang akan memperjuangkan bangsa saya dan agama saya… yang akan memperjuangkan negara saya! Tapi kini, melayu itu sendiri yang terumbang ambing di tanah asal usul mereka sendiri.

Saya setuju dengan laungan Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad satu masa dahulu… “Melayu mudah lupa!”… melayu mudah lupa dengan pengobanan orang orang terdahulu. Melayu mudah lupa dengan apa yang diperjuangkan oleh orang-orang terdahulu. Melayu mudah lupa akan erti sebenar sebuah bangsa, akan erti sebenar sebuah negara. Erti sebenar sebuah pengorbangan demi bangsa, agama dan negara… melayu mudah lupa akan segala galanya.

Adakah dengan wujudnya sosial kontrak itu, bangsa lain begitu tertindas? Adakah benar akan kenyataan tersebut? Kerana jika kita lihat pendapatan purata bagi kaum melayu lebih rendah berbanding kaum-kaum lain. Pendapatan purata kaum bagi tahun 2007:
Melayu = RM 3,156
Cina = RM 4,853
India = RM 3,799

Lihat saja! Pendapatan purata bulanan kaum yang selama ini mengatakan mereka tertindas, jauh lebih tinggi daripada kaum melayu sendiri. Lihat sahaja siapa sebenarnya yang tertindas. Chinese and Indian, they have better standard of living compared to the Malays. Adakah ini yang dikatakan satu penindasan?

Dari segi jawatan yang dipegang dalam syarikat, dari segi bidang professional, dari segi pemilikan syarikat, dari segi pemilikan bangunan dan premis komersial dan pelbagai lagi bidang… yang pasti bilangan bumiputera itu sendiri masih lagi kebelakang, masih lagi mundur… Kesemuanya dimonopoli oleh kaum bukan bumiputera.

Adakah ini masih lagi satu penindasan?

Tidakkan kita fikir, akibat daripada kelemahan org melayu itu sendiri lah, pada hari ini, melayu makin tidak berpijak di bumi yang nyata? Melayu selalu saja merungut… Kerajaan tak pernah membantu lah…. Kerajaan tak jaga melayu lahh… bermacam macam alasan dan rungutan lagi….

Wahhal, kerajaan sendiri telah memberi bantuan berbilion-billion ringgit kepada bumiputera itu sendiri. Dari segi dana, dari segi modal, dari segi kewangan, GLCs, ULCs, institusi-institusi melayu, peraturan peraturan dan dasar dasar yang melonjakkan melayu dalam ekonomi, pelbagai dasar yang memihak kepada melayu dan macam macam lagi. And yet melayu masih lagi mundur dalam sektor ekonomi.
Kenapa? Kenapa? Dan kenapa?

Saya terpikir, adakah kerana terlalu dimanjakan, adakah kerana terlampau disuap dalam segala hal, adakah kerana terlalu banyak pertolongan yang telah diberikan menyebabkan melayu menjadi seperti sekarang?

Yang pasti, melayu terperangkap di dalam zon ekonomi yang selesa yang mengelirukan! Melayu adalah bangsa yang tidak patriotik, adalah bangsa yang tidah pernah bersyukur dengan segala nikmat dan keistimewaan yang telah diberikan. Adakah kita masih perlu terus menerus tunduk dengan kemahuan kaum-kaum lain yang inginkan hak hak kita diketepikan? Adakah kita mahu menumpang di negara kita sendiri? Adakah kita masih mahu ketinggalan dalam segalanya?
Bangkitlah melayu! Bangkitlah melayu. Sedarlah!

Mungkin saya tidak mampu untuk mengubah segalanya seorang diri. Mungkin saya tidak mampu untuk menyedarkan semua orang akan hakikat sebenarnya seorang diri saya. Tetapi sekurang-kurangnya saya sedar akan kedudukan dan kelemahan kaum saya sendiri. Setidak-tidaknya saya berusaha dengan cara saya sendiri. Sekurang kurangnya saya masih ada semangat yang membara demi melayu saya…demi bangsa saya…demi agama saya…demi negara saya… !

Mungkin di era saya, melayu masih mampu berkuasa… tetapi adakah anak-anak saya, cucu-cucu saya dan seterusnya waris-waris saya masih mampu merasai nikmat hak-hak keistimewaan sebagai seorang melayu…? sebagai seorang islam…? Sebagai seorang penduduk peribumi negaranya sendiri?

Tidak terniat untuk mengutuk, jauh sekali untuk mempertikaikan kewujudan kaum lain. But as for me,

I’m not being racist, but I’m being a patriotic in my own ways - for my own Malays!

Im Still in Raya Mode.

2009-01-29T11:52:00.000+08:00

(9 october 2008)

Afternoon everyone. It’s 9th of October 2008, so it’s da 9th day of eid-mubarak. How’s everyone’s eid mubarak? Hopefully u all enjoys your days… How’s mine? Mine, as usual… as always… there’s black and white. and of course lahh, the best part will be “eat, eat & eat”. Arrggghh, I missed my mother’s nasi tomato, rendang, chicken curry, kuew tiau soup etc. talking of which, I cant find anywhere lahh the “kuih sarang semut”. Misses that kuih lahh…apart from kuih bakar, and kuih batang buruk… hiks hiks

And the black side is, my sis accident. Don’t hv to mention it here lahh, in my blog as I personally believed that it is sooo- damn personal. Talking of which, I just realize that I hv only create a blog post once a month. So lazy of u lahh… (“,) naaa, I hv no time actually. My 24 hours/day seem not enough.

some1 did mention to me that he’s planned to quit his job and open his own business. What shall I said? What shall I do? Shall i just agreed? Or shall I just say no? Frankly speaking, im not agree with his decision to left everything n start his own biz. I know the outcome of biz is big. But it is too damn risky as well. It’s not that im not a risk taker. But as 4me, u don’t hv to gamble such way. Why don’t u grab both. (im not THAT greedy k). Let’s play safe. PLAY SAFE! i says it because u already hv a responsibility. u have a few people u need to take care of. U hv 2 family 4u2 not left them behind. Ure NOT alone anymore. I don’t say no and I don’t say yes to what so ever u hv planned. It’s up 2u2 think it on whatever u wanna do in your life. The road is yours. It’s up 4u to choose the way… the BEST way, of course!… I just wonder how ami and his friends are sooo determined to left everything and start their own biz? I just wonder….. (sorry ami for mentioning your name here :o’)

So many wedding ceremony to attend as well as open house. This sat is aimi’s wedding in ipoh. She’s getting married? Arrghhh… hiks hiks… so soon… Next week is my colleague’s wedding, Nida and ghaz. Both were my colleagues. :0) and 3 open house that I need to attend next week… never stop eating laah… since aimi’s wedding in ipoh, I thought of visiting my 2 friends as well. Bun hv just delivered her 1st child named damia…omg… seems like yesterday that she’s married. Time passes so fast… and jasmin is in the pantai puteri hospital for an operation. Pity her. She has prob with her intestines. May god bless u always. Get well SOON jas! Soon….

What else I need to update here huh?
Later lahh I’ll cont. need to rush for a few due date…. Shitt!

one fine day in September...

2009-01-29T11:20:00.000+08:00

(11 September 2008)

Morning everybody! It’s FRIDAY!. Ive been waiting for this day the whole week. Ermmm.. erkk…. Mmmm… what am I going to write down here huh? It’s always like this… I do want to update, but the thing is, when I sat down if front of my comp, sign in to this page, start typing, then suddenly my mind slowly goes blank…it’s not like I don’t hv nything to jot down here - I do hv, like tons of it but it’s ok. ill start it slowly as I hv no due date to run to.. hiks hiks…

A quick recap.

I did hang up with my friends last wed.. with my one long lost friend - mizi plus another 2 friends - the future couple 2b - av & fad. Hehehe… ill be dead if one of them read this.. let say “kalu ader jodoh lahh”… it’s been for almost 5 years, since year 2003, we - me & fad, did not met him.. so we all were lepaking in the mcD in jalan pahang after terawikh (don’t forget 2do ur terawikh yerk. wut can I say, Im a good daughter. Always listen to wut my mum asked me 2do. heheh)…and spent for almost 3 hours talking, laughing and goes crazing… a lot of stuffs to tell and to share.. mostly our cherish moments and memorable moments in TAJ. From pakcik senheng, to the “mengga” thing, to the kantoi-ing moment, and so many to list down here. But whatever pun, mizi after 5 years, he remains the same… the same old brand new he.. same goes to fadhli and av.. and for you sayang, it’s not that I don’t want to bring u along, in fact av n fad did invite u, just that I don’t want you 2b lost when we were together. Nyway, good luckss to u mizi for ur interview.. hope you’ll join me, fad n av in kl soon… :p

me and my sayang went for a window shopping in a few places last weekend (sat 2b exact). As the roads were jammed all over kl, so we decided to cont. our so called “journey” using public transport-monorail. our 1st time journey together, using public transport. As we were there in bts, nothing much to do, no movie at 5pm as well. So while waiting for the 7.18pm to arrives, we went for a fish spa. Tq sayang for joining me as well. so cute of you… hahah.. our very 1st time also doing the fish spa. I cant stand that for the 1st 5 minutes. Now I wonder how maman - 2 years old boy can endure the fish spa. hiks hiks

any other good news to mentioned? YESS.. im engaged. It’s been for almost 1 month. Time passes by fast… too fast. I knew him since 2004… its been 4 years now. And now we’re engaged. A brand new me. a step ahead. fiance to my sayang. sound weird right? A new life is it? YESS and NOP as well.. nothing much different… everything remains the same.. hiks . As for the preparations, it was easy as ABC. Thanksss a trillion to my dad, mother, my sis, broS, my sis & bro in law… thanks to every one. every single one…

I didn’t hv time to inform ealier to most of my friends (blame to khasif and his family for their late noticed :p) especially to dina, alida, gda, dira, dayah, matul, hasi, Noreen, aina, bun, av, fad, sally and …. So many to list down here. L. Nevertheless, TQVM to all the best wishes. And here it is again, sorry for not informing earlier / inviting you guys for my unplanned engagement.

So wut am I going 2do this weekend? kak fiza going back. As well as kak ja. Lisa probably’ll go 4 dating as her abg coming. So sayang please take note! :p okies lahh.. take care gtg… cherrio…

My Life is Hectic!

2009-01-29T11:18:00.000+08:00

(26 August 2008)

Ive been so buzy for the past 2 weeks… since last week. I have to worked over last weekend. And not to forget, this week also I have to come to the office to settle everything on the monthly report.

I love figures, and not forget to mention im INTO figures. But when it comes to all the “make up” stuff to my report. That’s the hardest part… or shall I say.. im so fed up of it.

So many meetings to attend. My life is full of meetings. Yesterday, there are 2 meetings. One in putrajaya at 9, another one in bank Negara in the afternoon. A day before, I have to do the factory/premise’ s visit in Selangor & KL… from klang to sg buluh to shah alam to kajang and KL area… with all the traffic jam here and there. im soo stress up.

This afternoon, there will be another meeting on 5S.. and on Friday, again! I have to do the factory visit… my legs hurts already lorr…

there’s a lot more to write, but I have to go and meet the new entrepreneur for the business advisory session… argghhhh

the SHE & the HE...

2009-01-29T11:15:00.000+08:00

(28 July 2008)

Woman, once she feels like she’s been betrayed, things will never remains the same. Makes no different of what she’s been doing compared to what hv been going on previously. If suddenly, she hv no more priority and hv to share with the others, and NOT forget to mentioned - she’s been left out for the past 2 months by her so called “Man of her life”. why is it she cant let go of everything? why should she STILL think bout the time spent? bout others might says? bout others might think? why he suddenly wanna sms-ing her? mms-ing her? wanna to have a long chat with her? wanna ym her? cz as far as she knows, for the past 2 months, he never bother bout it.

Her instints was right. was PERFECT!! She has no regret at all.cz the best for her is to realise that what she’s been doing for the past 2 year is not enough. will NOT EVER enough and will NOT EVER perfect

She’s bleed! she’s hurts! even if she’s cured, scars REMAINS! No matter what he’ll do.. just remember that her trust for him will never ever remains the same. Her love will remains, will always there but her passion, her soul, her excitements- HALF GONE!.

If she knew she would fall when she step on, she would rather not to walk!

BoReD

2009-01-29T11:05:00.000+08:00

(17 July 2008)

BoreD!!! It’s the 5th day, i did nothing in the office… agrgghhhhh… so this one i did while office hour lahh..

1. If you’re being extremely quiet whatdoes it mean?
- Im so DAMN MAD!

2. Do you still have feelings for yourex?
-Nop!

3. Have you ever had a kiss?
- of COURSE! :p special kisses from maman, azieque, kakak & nana … and how can i forget about hanie!

4. Last time you laughed?
- last night cz it only 8.17am now. and i just arrived in my luxury cubicle

5. Has anyone told you they missed youlately?
- Seriously YESSS!

6. Are you wearing any clothes thatdon’t belong to you?
- sometime… i borrowed it from my sis or his’s …

7. Would you ever date your bestfriend (of the opposite sex)?
- at the moment belum lagi, But in future, MAYBE! hiks hiks

8. what’s the last mistake you made?
- Kiss some1’s car’s bumper! HATE it!

9. Do you regret anything from yourpast?
- SO maNYyyyyy…

10. If you could seek revenge onsomeone would you?
- no need lah.. i believe in Karma.. that person will get soon

11. How do you react when people cryaround you?
-anxiety kot…

12. Do you bump into someones arm ifyou want to hold their hand?
- huh? not really…

13. Last argument?
- with somebody from the chat room over some politics arguments. Both were big headed!

14. Last kist?
- i kiss my bantal busuk. hehhe

15. Would you kiss them again?
- my whole life..

16. Last beverage?
- yesterday, while im breaking my fast… 2day pun i puasa gak!

17. Last nap?
- the whole night larr… hujan maa… best… best…

18. Do you own a planner?
- of course. EVERYTHING inside thete..i’ll be lost if i lost IT!

19. Favorite month/s?
- SYawal… non-STop eating!

20. what’s going on next weekend?
- need to prepare my self with the upcoming training cz ill be attend it with Dato’ & other directors & senior managers… im the youngest & and the babiest! arrggghhhhhhh…

21. what song is on your mind justthis second?
- love in this club by Usher.. Love IT :))

22. What are you doing this Saturday?
- meet my old friens.. tempah baju raya.. hiks.

23. Sweetest thing anyone has everdone for you?
- so many to list down here…but the one ill remember forever, surprise burfday party hold by dayah,matul, noreen, hasi, azni…. and also … u know lahh… heheheh

gtg lorr… i need to prepare something for 5s meeting this afternoon.chow!!

L.O.V.E

2009-01-29T10:57:00.000+08:00

(6th May 2008)

What is the one emotion that has everyone mystified?

What is the one emotion that has started as many wars as it has ended?

What emotion has had more plays, songs, and stories written about it than anything else?

LOVE, that one emotion that makes enemies into friends and friends into enemies.

So many legends surround this emotion, from the goddess Athena and Helen of Troy to Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet.

Love comes in so many different levels, that it doesn’t appear to be the same emotion at all,

but it is.

It can tear people apart and make us do irrational things to bringing together entire nations.

What can this emotion not do? It’s hard to tell, but there is a lot it can.