Happy Independence Day to all Malaysians!!

Happy Independence Day!

I would like to wish all Malaysians a Happy 53rd Independence Day.
Born and bred as a Malaysian for the past 26 years and yet I am still living in Malaysia. I survive! Not necessarily those who choose to stay back in Malaysia would strive to earn a living and lack behind to those who graduated and worked in the developed countries.
Way back when I was in primary or secondary, Independence Day was celebrated with so much joy and happiness: late sleep just because of the fireworks and wake up early for the National Parade.

After school, Independence Day was celebrated much less. But that’s doesn’t means the enthusiasm gone. Being patriotic doesn’t ONLY mean that you’re willing to sacrifice for the country. Your contribution to the economic development and Live happily and peacefully within races, it call patriotic too.

As the country is getting older, I really hope whoever rule the country will give their best effort on keeping this country peaceful and harmony. Lets different races blend in together without barriers and lets religious activities carries out without fear. War will not get us anywhere. There are much more to do with love than hate. Sometimes, a majority of us tend to think that the grass is greener on the other side. “Hujan emas di negeri orang, hujan batu di negeri sendiri, lebih baik hujan batu di negeri sendiri”. It’s a Malay proverb, meaning that although there are many good things outside our own country, and less in the place where we live, it is still best to live in our own place. It might be similar to “There is no place like home”.

5th puasa

went for ikea.

bought nothing.

legs hurt.

went for alamanda.

johnny's full house.

stress.

went for PARAM.

im full.
terawikh with khasif.
im sleppy.
monday coming.
arghh.
stats.
meeting.
discussion.
stress lagi...
friday.
SP
oohh heaven....




Happy Ramadhan to all muslims!

Travelling

Mama & Papa were here since last Tuesday. Horray. We’ll probably go to Genting this Saturday to celebrate Arman burfday. (Khasif bought Arman a PS2 as a burfday present but did not buy anything for my burfday!!!). Boy might be going as well. Hopefully! Not sure whether Khasif is going together or not as he should be attending Family day in LLM. [Talking of which, I remembered that Dato’ have requested to have the “back to basic” family day. (the ladies needs to wear the kain batik while all men need to wear kain pelekat) okey, I don’t think I’ll be attending our family day!].

The other saturday we’ll probably going back to kluang for a short stay as we need to rush back to kl on Sunday morning as I need to fly for Sarawak. (ohh, I cant wait as this is my 1st trip to Sarawak). Next Tuesday I’ll travel to Kuantan Pahang and middle of July I need to attend 3 days meeting in Langkawi. (oh, heaven!). oh yes, Khasif will be off for 3 days for Kota Baru end of July. Ermm seems like we are hardly meet in July. But anyways, traveling means experiencing right? Travel is all about to face the unknown and appreciate the familiar. I know it would be a tiring but just find joy in that little moment. Live in the present!

Oohh btw, Im so insists of air soya with jelly kuning yang dulu ada jual kat jln Maxwell, Ipoh and buah jambu yang hanya ada jual kat cameron Highlands tuh. Where can I get that in kl? Anyone?

praised to god!

Praised to God cz i know i've been blessed everyday.

this little precious is so cute right? :)

chow...

goodbye may and welcome June

We have already bid farewell to May and welcomed the month of June. What does the month of May means to you, you and you? Okey, all of you. Me? Well, I can only think of our 1st Wedding Anniversary. Don’t have time to write about this earlier as I was buzy as bee churning data, checking the paper and slides for our 1q 2010 survey on SMEs. Fuhh…

So we celebrated our 1st wedding anniversary with simple dinner... before my boss spoiled my mood. (She called me at 10pm and asked me to provide her few figures and she’ll wait for my sms)… oohh and I have to rush back to our sarang burung as soon as possible. Wtf? Okey, okey luckily I have a so called “husband yang memahami” yeah! I’m blessed and thankful that you are mine!

Happy 1st Wedding Anniversary to you sayang!
Im faithfully blessed n thankful for having a wonderful “you”.
Even its 1st anniversary and for some people it’s just a single number of year, but for us, we are so grateful that we managed to go thru the hitch n glitch thru out the year. I believe whatever God destined to me in my life are for reasons and it’s for my happiness and my future. Sayang, thank you for all the kindness and compassion towards me. I love u with all my heart. muaxx blush blush

Goodbye May, and thank you for the moment. Appreciate it!

Okey, that was May. How about June? Realized it or not, we are now at the middle of the year 2010. We’re halfway through the year. Depend on how we look at it. “Half empty or half-full cup ... filled with water?”
I have yet to reach targets.
- looking forward to have more savings. Hope that one day I’ll wake up with millions cash in my bank account.
- working real hard in the office (no fb-ing, no blogging etc)
- taking quick break from the city (Redang, Perhentian or Tioman perhaps?)
- etc
- etc
- etc
- etc
- etc


At the end of the day I realize that, Oh well - I am human after all :)


Ohh ya, I’ll be celebrating engagements and weddings of good old friends in June. Love it!!

Wifey for hubby!

I’m currently in the office. Bored even though i got lots and lots of task to be done by today. Got so many words in my mind but I had no idea how to begin. I am not a good storyteller. I’m just a storyteller who is just starting out.

Khasif is currently preparing himself (physically and mentally) to open a burger stall. And why burgers stall? Probably because of this business operating at night, the locations of most burger stalls are very convenient (burger stalls exist in popular hotspots, universities, housing areas, near 7E and many other populated areas) and this business are independently run by young home-based entrepreneurs. Leveraging on the consistent demand for these burgers, khasif is among those youngsters who want to have their own burger business. Oohh, not to forget, it’s also because of burger is a ‘must-eat’ snack at night. [Only for those yang berfikir 2-3 kali untuk spent money on luxury food everyday – like me when I was in UKM :) ]

So, a wife's role is very significant. I can be a tremendous help to my husband. I am a companion, supporter and admirer. (Ceewah! Walaupun hakikatnyer I always make jokes of it). A healthy relationship is when a wife gives her husband 100% support. She is his cheerleader, she brings out the best in him, she believes in him, she encourages him, and she is quick to praise him and to give him the moral and emotional support he needs. Wives, you have the power to build and support your husband!!
“An excellent wife is the crown of her husband”
(fuhh, ayat-ayat perasan keluar dari jiwa…)
Chaiyo’ Chaiyo’! Okey, enough of it cz it don’t even started yet… snap back to reality!

Oh ya, Praise to GOD for His blessing, Praise to GOD who made it possible for me during the interview. Praise to GOD for the opportunity to achieve excellence. Praise and thank God for blessing me every day!

31st May coming! Omg, I can't believe it has been nearly a year already! I wish to have many happy returns to come. Gosh, time flies without realizing we will reach our 1st Anniversary. We stuck together, through ups and downs and you were always with me when we went around, enjoying the wind together. But I just want to let you know how much I appreciate you no matter what.





XOXO

Kluang-day!

Im currently in Kluang. Since Yesterday. Will be going for Mersing in any minutes. For what? No idea. Probably just for jalan-jalan programme with PIL. Talking of which, PIL requested to us and express how they wish to spent few nights in Cameron. En hubby, please take note yeah.. and to av and Fad, come and join us lahh, at least takderlah aku mati kutu nanti. :))

Last night we went for Iron Man 2. (It's actually our main agenda everytime we're here cz please be informed that nothing much to do in kluang at night!). to be axact, i went for Robert Downey Jr. :))) i likeee... this movie has some pretty impressive gadget. very cool. and stark's laboratory such as "to die for see through monitor screen" is very very cool. There are lot more in the movie, it's just that i dont seem to know the name or the technology. Oh not to forget, the iron man briefcase.how on earth a massive robot suit could be fold and being kept in a small briefcase? Kalau spiderman or batman, i dont mind pun. after all yang disimpan just seluar kecik jerk... huhuhu. Anyway i didnt read any Iron man comic. (i dont even know the comic exist before, to be exact!). So if saya seperti orang jakun and all this stuff memang dah ada di dalam comic book, please show your mercy and bear with me okey. simply pardon my ignorance.

gtg, cont later....



btw, it's never late to wish all mothers, grand mother, great-grandmother, mother to-be, Mother's day!

TGIF

6.30 pm.
Friday.
Im already at home. wahh balik cepat arinie. hiks. my bosses not around. they went to One World for E50 soft launching. heaven!

I got no chance to jot down something on our jalan jalan cari makan trip last thursday. [ malas to be exact! :) ] so proceed jerlah to Fadhli or my PIC

btw, got lots and lots of works to do this weekends.
1) Validation on SME Survey.
2) Preparation on ICC <-- i hate this, seriously, i have no idea on this shit. and the best part is im the leader to our so called Decipher group.
3) Report on internal audit of 5S.

and

ironing, ironing & ironing...
will be glad if some1 could help me (hubby, please take note!)
;p

air mati

saya berpuasa hari...

dan

air mati di dalam peti ais kelihatan sungguh menarik di mata saya...

:p



[ air mati a.k.a air kosong ( bagi org2 utara sahaja!)]

.:sleepless:.

People can survive longer without food than without sleep.
sleep is so important in keeping ourselves looking good, hence the phrase "beauty sleep".
ohh, i need to go to sleep now. need to hv a great one. a combo of sleep and dream. and become worry free. even it's for a while.

Time check: 12.30am. Obviously a no-no to a non quality stays up!

Mode: Down

Entry kali ini agak emosi.

Entry yang lahir dari jiwa dan rasa yang lahir dari hati.

Terlalu banyak yang terbuku.

Sedih, kecewa, marah silih berganti.

Kehidupan terlalu menekan.

Tangisan sentiasa menjadi peneman.

Tidak mampu untuk berfikir lebih jauh apa yang bakal terjadi.

Masih ada lagikah hari esok?

Masih ada lagikah hari lusa?

Terlalu berat untuk diluahkan.

Terlalu peribadi untuk dikongsi.

Tapi aku yakin kesukaran aku adalah dari Allah.

Aku yakin Allah Maha Mengetahui.

Aku yakin Allah Maha Pengampun.

Aku yakin Allah Menyayangi.

Sesungguhnya Allah melaksanakan segala urusan yang dikehendakinya.

Sesungguhnya Allah telah mengadakan ketentuan bagi tiap tiap sesuatu.

Engkaulah yang aku sembah!

Engkaulah tempat ku memohon pertolongan!

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all the best to me

currently at home. lepaking. eventhough i should prepare for tomorrow, but im so malas to read the so-called SCORE, Innocert, Internship and Branding. arrgh, baru habis go through with NEM and economic outlook for 2010. NKRA to go... waduh, i cannot take any of this... just wanna let go, but i cant. 100% sure im going to termimpi2 those articles tonight. Mmm, i hate interview... and of course ther interviewer as well.. :) good luck to us, friendss!

Btw, hubby may you success with flying colours this friday. dont overshaking, eventhough i know you will :) make sure all contractors fully understand what the hell ure explaining to them.

CSI S08 to run to this weekend. hell yeahhhhh :))


chow

K.E.N.I.K.M.A.T.A.N

saya baru 'menikmati' new moon.

walaupun sudah 'basi' tapi saya suke, pernah suka dan akan terus suke!

cant wait for the next edward cullen. more to go!

I love my husband

Ohyeaahh… I love my husband. Even though I have to woke up at 5.15 am every morning to iron his office’s clothes ;p STILL i love him; I’m in love with him and will always love him. (ceewahh!!) eventhough, mama suruh hantar baju ke dobi. Mak cakap “jangan serika baju hasif, biar die buat sendiri, jangan manjakan sangat" but for me, I would rather iron his clothes than cook. (Doesn’t mean that I can’t cook, just that I don’t have that valuable time to cook) at least by ironing, I know my “touch” would be with him from 7am till 7pm.

Tomorrow is our 4th anniversary.. so
Happy 4th anniversary, Sayang! It’s our 4th year being together. We’re soul mates. Eventhough we take completely opposite ways to come up with solutions to anything. He makes me laugh. He tells me that I'm beautiful, even when I don't feel so pretty. If I'm mad or sad, he always says something to make me smile or laugh. He freely and generously tells me that he loves me.

~Hati saya berbunga~

^_^

-XOXO-

A story on FEBRUARY 2010..

I’ll have my first day in the office tomorrow after had a long one month break. Probably starting my day with checking tons of emails (hey, im doing it now jugak, tapi macam banyak sangat & malas dah nak baca one by one), update my planner with lots and lots of meetings to attend, update my to-do lists! It’s a never ending list, dude.

And never forget to mentioned, this is my first post after few months I hesitate not to do so. I’ve lost track of my friend’s latest post and what i've done in this few months. So let’s recall one by one. Merry Christmas, Congratulations to Munirah and Fawwaz on their new born baby, Happy New Year “Welcome 2010, Goodbye 2009”, Happy 26th birthday to hubby! “Love You So Much!”, Happy Thaipusam, Happy 26th Burfday to DINA!, Happy CNY, Congratulation to Safiza Salam on her engagement day, Salam Maulidur Rasul, and lastly Happy 26th Burfday to Sally. Let’s put everything in one single post.

Readers, you must be wonder, why do I have a long break from the office? I had my confinement back in SP. I’ve never mentioned here before that I was pregnant. Thought of telling you guys soon, but I guess I never had the chance to. One of the reason why I did not updated my blog for few months is because I was not doing that well. I was sick. I had an on and off high fever every 2 to 3 days, I had bad flu and cough. I’m not in good condition during my pregnancy period. Never thought that my baby also was not doing that well.

And on the 9th Feb 2010, doc from the Dahlia Clinic detect something is not right with my baby during my 4th month of checkup. I cried, of course! Of hearing that even though the doc said that it’s not confirmed yet and I should refer to O&G specialist soon. She calmed me down and said maybe her scan machine is wrong or maybe what she saw is not exactly what is exactly happened. I called khasif and I was crying like hell. I’m afraid of losing my little boy. Khasif came and we headed to Az-Zahrah for O&G Specialist. And out of sudden, Az-Zahrah was blackout and any machine can’t be use. An-Nur as well was blackout. We then headed to Kajang for KPJ, and the nurse said that the O&G doctor was not in and we can come back the next morning. We then went to Serdang Hospital and of course, with all the “karenah birokrasi”, the nurse said that I need to go first to the nearest klinik kesihatan, registered, get the stupid “buku merah” and wait for the appointment date. Hello, my baby is dying here and you asked me to wait? I called my sis without telling her what’s exactly happen and asked her whether Kg Baru Medical Centre (KBMC) is available for the scan for walk-in patience? My sis said it would be okay. From serdang, we headed again to KL for KBMC. And dugaan aper plak yang sy terima, suddenly there was an emergency case in KBMC and doc is not available for the scan. Again! Me and khasif lost hoped. We don’t know where to go. I can’t think of any places. And khasif just drove the car. Ntah macam mana, we arrived in Wangsa Maju and went to a general clinic. I’ve told the doc my prob, she scan me and she said that, she know why my panel doc was worried about the baby because from what she seen, she was worried as well. She said exactly what my panel said. Again all I can do is crying, crying and crying. I can’t think of anything at that moment. I sms-ing mama told her that I was worried because doc told me that baby is not right. Mama called me right after she received the sms and thought I was joking or something. But I was crying while talking to her and I can’t get to any O&G specialist. Mama was speechless and said let’s wait for the confirmation first from the O&G doc. papa called and said he’ll come to kl that night. And all I can remember after that is my bros and my sis called and all I can do is crying while talking to them. We then went back to serdang. And my sis called me and asked me to go to HUKM. We headed back to MRR2 for Bandar Tun Razak. Went to emergency counter and the nurse brought us directly to the O&G Department. But the doctor in charge told me to come back the next morning for appointment date and wait for the appointment date. I was speechless, tension, and depressed and Khasif was very angry with the doc. All we want is to scan and a confirmation from you. That’s all!! I don’t want any of your medicine, I don’t want your other time, I just want a confirmation at that particular time. Kak Uja and Abg Am arrived then at HUKM and I told them that I have to wait again. Then Kak Uja called KBMC and arrange for the appointment, the next morning with Dr Suhaimi. We went back to Serdang and went to Kak Uja’s house at 10pm as mama & papa wants us to stays there. We were soo tired that day, and yet we both can’t sleep that night. Afraid of what would happen the next day and how can we overcome days after…

10th Feb 2010, I had an appointment with Dr Suhaimi at 10am in KBMC. And i received the same result. It’s confirmed! I was crying in front of the doc, again. And for the very first time, khasif cried as well. I cried even worse when I saw my husband was crying. What else can I do? Even the nurse that assists the doc cried as well. Doc said it’s nobody fault. Accept God’s fate. He told us baby won’t stay that long. He’ll leave us soon. Dr Suhaimi then refers me to Dr Nazri. I have to meet him the same day at 8pm. All I know after that, I was crying on mama’s shoulder. Papa asked me to calm down. Accept God’s fate. God have his own reason and god knows why. We went to meet Dr Nazri at 8pm. With a better scan machine, I, WE to be exact can see clearly my son.

…………… And after a lab test (doc suggest this to confirm whether this is a syndrome or not and Alhamdulillah, results shows that there’s no problem and Insyallah we won’t face the same problem for the next baby) and a few procedures, I delivered my baby at his 4 months 11 days years old on the 18th Feb 2010 at 9am. He was buried at Taman Permata, near Kak Uja’s house.

TRILLION THANKS to papa, mama, mak, ayah, abang, kak ewa, kak uja, abang am, boy, aunties, uncles, cousins, and friends plus docs for your support. Appreciate that so much! And of course for my only one, khasif! My strength and my hope...

I have to say, I miss talking to my little boy. Sometimes I forgot that I don’t have him with me anymore. I used to be okay whenever khasif was busy with his work, or whenever I was all by myself, I can overcome it because i know i'm not alone as my little boy is with me. But it’s all ME, only me now… how I missed my baby so much… Even though we have never had a chance to meet, I believe we will one day. Even if it’s hard for me and khasif, we have to accept that everything has it owns reason. God creates a better place for you. Just want you to know that mama and ayah loves you so much, Mohd Faris Bin Mohd Khasif.

Al fatihah!


PS: to Anmum, stop calling me as I have no baby now!