a quick recap
- im bz preparing the upcoming monthly report. i have to settle it by tomorrow as monday is holiday, then on tuesday i need to go for a short meeting with jica agency as well as to settle everything on my visa.. guys! im going to japan for 2 weeks... i cant wait anymore. you see, it is not about im so insists to go to japan, it's just that i cant wait to be out from the office, i dont want to be in the office anymore... i want to run away from the office! arrgghhh
-BUT before i can truly "flying without my wings", i have to crack my head first as i need to prepare another report on 2008 report.. im half DEAD already dear! so please make this weekend as a wonderful weekend ever for me! beach looks great for me at this moment.... or cameron? ok dear? ('',)
- what else to says? forget to mentioned. ive went back to SP on CNY. and the highway was crowded with lots and lots of carssssss.... it took 9 hours for me to arrived in SP... arrghh and eventhough im already in KL, half of me still in SP...im zombie... arrgghhh (again!)...
- klah, i want to go back. wulan is at 6pm. hiks hiks... a cup of milo ice sound good to me for me to have it on the way back!
cheerio!!!!
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Im Tired of IT!
(19 January 2009)
I can’t believe how tersangat rajin I am for the past 1 week. I have no mood to do my job since last week. I felt so tired, I felt so sleepy… is not that I don’t hv nything to do in fact I have so many due date to run for and yet im still NOT in the mood of doing any… in fact, I have no mood to jot down any here.. arggh..
Kenapa lah sumer org + org tue asyik nak marah marah? Asyik panas baran? Sumer bender tak kene…pressure lah and penat lahh asyik nak kene sabar jerk…penat lah nak layan… penat lah nak ikut rentak korang jerk… penat! IM TIRED OF IT! i have a lot-i means lotss and lotsss of job need to be done, lotss and lotsss of things that I need to think it through, so please don’t make thing worse for me…
Kenapa lah sumer org + org tue asyik nak marah marah? Asyik panas baran? Sumer bender tak kene…pressure lah and penat lahh asyik nak kene sabar jerk…penat lah nak layan… penat lah nak ikut rentak korang jerk… penat! IM TIRED OF IT! i have a lot-i means lotss and lotsss of job need to be done, lotss and lotsss of things that I need to think it through, so please don’t make thing worse for me…
HAPPY NEW YEAR
(1 January 2009)
Today is the beginning of another new year!
where new resolution are made,
new targets are set,
new aims to achieve,
new faiths to fulfill!
but whatever it may be,
this old me would like to wish all of you the very best in whatever you may be doing and may you be in the best of health and happiness always!
WELCOME TO 2009!
Today is the beginning of another new year!
where new resolution are made,
new targets are set,
new aims to achieve,
new faiths to fulfill!
but whatever it may be,
this old me would like to wish all of you the very best in whatever you may be doing and may you be in the best of health and happiness always!
WELCOME TO 2009!
i wish... you didnt know..why?... will you?...
(21 December 2008)
Love is blind, but yet STILL can feel the passion.
Love is blind, but yet STILL can touch the heart.
I wish I had the chance to turn back time and could change the choice – CHOICES – ive made,
I wish ive NOT done anything ive done before
I wish im NOT the person I am now
I wish I have the GOLDEN opportunity to change my past and have a better tomorrow!
Like flowers need the rain
Like coffee needs a cup
Like a candle needs a flame
Like a hammer and a nail
Like socks and shoes
Like rhythm and blues
That’s how i NEED you!
BUT
You didnt know,How you hurt me so,
You’ll never know,Cause ill never show.
You didnt know,That i couldnt let go.
You just dont care,
You werent even there.
I dont know how i can show,
What you yourself, can never know.
Why do i care so much?
Why do i still try?
Why does it hurt so much when there was never anything there?
Why does it make me cry?
Why you and not someone else?
Will you ever care?
Will you ever be able to dry my tears?
Will it always be you?
Will you ever get over yourself and open up your eyes?
I ask myself those questions everyday but STILL can’t find any answers.
I don’t care what others might says, might think.
As for me, its hurts so much and it doesn’t mean anything anymore to me.
Im walking AWAY!
Love is blind, but yet STILL can feel the passion.
Love is blind, but yet STILL can touch the heart.
I wish I had the chance to turn back time and could change the choice – CHOICES – ive made,
I wish ive NOT done anything ive done before
I wish im NOT the person I am now
I wish I have the GOLDEN opportunity to change my past and have a better tomorrow!
Like flowers need the rain
Like coffee needs a cup
Like a candle needs a flame
Like a hammer and a nail
Like socks and shoes
Like rhythm and blues
That’s how i NEED you!
BUT
You didnt know,How you hurt me so,
You’ll never know,Cause ill never show.
You didnt know,That i couldnt let go.
You just dont care,
You werent even there.
I dont know how i can show,
What you yourself, can never know.
Why do i care so much?
Why do i still try?
Why does it hurt so much when there was never anything there?
Why does it make me cry?
Why you and not someone else?
Will you ever care?
Will you ever be able to dry my tears?
Will it always be you?
Will you ever get over yourself and open up your eyes?
I ask myself those questions everyday but STILL can’t find any answers.
I don’t care what others might says, might think.
As for me, its hurts so much and it doesn’t mean anything anymore to me.
Im walking AWAY!
i understand...
(10 December 2008)
i do understand with the words of “private moment”
i do understand with the phrase of “i cant be with you 24/7″
i do understand with the sentences of “i have no time now. need to go. let’s cont later”
i do understand with the words of “i wanna hang out with my friends”
i do understand with the sentences of “im tired, need to sleep”
i DO understand all that. in fact i NEED to understand.
But all i asked is just a moment... A MEANINGFULL moment instead.
For you to share my ups and downs.
For you to wipe away every tears that falling down.
For you to share your shoulder when i need to and
For you to lend your hand when i want to.
ive fall down. its hard… its hurt. but as im climbing back, i realise that im on my own.
without you,
without your support,
even without you knowing what is actually happen.
life is COMPLICATED. totally miserable!
i understand… in fact i NEED to understand!
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ermm just came back from eid-hajj. ive enjoyed every single food every single day. best! best! after 5 days of leave, my mail box is full of requested data @ statistics. need to rush for all that, but STILL i have time to jot down something. let’s see what have i hv done since morning…
-recap-
1) prepare requested data from amin, faiz, roslan, shidi & farid on data of profile of SMEs by districts
2) prepare requested data from ursla on status of financial assistances in sarawak
3) updated figures in the monthly table
4) prepare data for weekly report to MITI
5) prepare listing of companies in Perak for Faiz at 12.00pm, i went to see my boss, and here is my updated due date to rush to:
6) call SSM for their listing on the available information in their database
7) prepare figures for BI Tools
8- prepare special format on ethnicity data to EPU
9) i have to prepare few inputs as i need to attend meeting in Malacca for 3 days… 3 days? omg. 3 days for 1 meeting……
need to go…
chow
p/s: ive thought of going out for movie - its movieSS actually which are LOST and FAUN, transporter 3, twilight - AGAIN! love it!
i do understand with the words of “private moment”
i do understand with the phrase of “i cant be with you 24/7″
i do understand with the sentences of “i have no time now. need to go. let’s cont later”
i do understand with the words of “i wanna hang out with my friends”
i do understand with the sentences of “im tired, need to sleep”
i DO understand all that. in fact i NEED to understand.
But all i asked is just a moment... A MEANINGFULL moment instead.
For you to share my ups and downs.
For you to wipe away every tears that falling down.
For you to share your shoulder when i need to and
For you to lend your hand when i want to.
ive fall down. its hard… its hurt. but as im climbing back, i realise that im on my own.
without you,
without your support,
even without you knowing what is actually happen.
life is COMPLICATED. totally miserable!
i understand… in fact i NEED to understand!
******************************************************************************
ermm just came back from eid-hajj. ive enjoyed every single food every single day. best! best! after 5 days of leave, my mail box is full of requested data @ statistics. need to rush for all that, but STILL i have time to jot down something. let’s see what have i hv done since morning…
-recap-
1) prepare requested data from amin, faiz, roslan, shidi & farid on data of profile of SMEs by districts
2) prepare requested data from ursla on status of financial assistances in sarawak
3) updated figures in the monthly table
4) prepare data for weekly report to MITI
5) prepare listing of companies in Perak for Faiz at 12.00pm, i went to see my boss, and here is my updated due date to rush to:
6) call SSM for their listing on the available information in their database
7) prepare figures for BI Tools
8- prepare special format on ethnicity data to EPU
9) i have to prepare few inputs as i need to attend meeting in Malacca for 3 days… 3 days? omg. 3 days for 1 meeting……
need to go…
chow
p/s: ive thought of going out for movie - its movieSS actually which are LOST and FAUN, transporter 3, twilight - AGAIN! love it!
Wonderful Weekend!
(1 december 2008)
I hv a wonderful weekend last week. i have fun. lots and lots of fun actually. i enjoyed every single moment! we ( ME, my darling bebey - [he likes memey soo much, so i decided to call him bebey ('',) ], and together with the upcoming future couple to be - fadli & avvy nivia - *wink*) ‘ve spent time the whole saturday together gether.
the recap…
10.30am - went to seri kembangan to fetch my khasif as it’s my turn 2b his driver :( on the way to avvy’s house, we drob by to have a cup of pleasure… -which is the sugar cane and cocunut drink… yum yum yum… then, we stop again at the McD’s drive through and have Mc Chicken + banana pie + sundae choc for our breakfast. (NOT sure whether it still 2b consider as breakfast or not??) Jammed all over sg besi’s road. but he (he drives at last. fuhh!) took his sweet time driving.
1.00pm - arrived at av’s house. while waiting for her, we took this pic. (after a few shots to be exact. hiks hiks)
the movie end nearly around 2am. so after we sent av back to her apartment, and khasif to his apartment as well, i went back to my heaven. and i arrived in my sarang burung around 4pm…. hehhe…ill be dead if my mom find out!. huhu.. btw… im having soooo much fun! tq to bebey, av and fadli. next time we’ll go out again… and again… and again…. and again…… and it’s a NEVER ENDING LISTS!
chow!
I hv a wonderful weekend last week. i have fun. lots and lots of fun actually. i enjoyed every single moment! we ( ME, my darling bebey - [he likes memey soo much, so i decided to call him bebey ('',) ], and together with the upcoming future couple to be - fadli & avvy nivia - *wink*) ‘ve spent time the whole saturday together gether.
the recap…
10.30am - went to seri kembangan to fetch my khasif as it’s my turn 2b his driver :( on the way to avvy’s house, we drob by to have a cup of pleasure… -which is the sugar cane and cocunut drink… yum yum yum… then, we stop again at the McD’s drive through and have Mc Chicken + banana pie + sundae choc for our breakfast. (NOT sure whether it still 2b consider as breakfast or not??) Jammed all over sg besi’s road. but he (he drives at last. fuhh!) took his sweet time driving.
1.00pm - arrived at av’s house. while waiting for her, we took this pic. (after a few shots to be exact. hiks hiks)
1.30pm - we start our journey to OU. on the way there, i hv stomach pain and need to go to the toilet. URGENTLY. so we drob by at my house. and perform solat as well.
2.30 pm - arrived in OU. we looked for the parking (indoor parking) almost for half an hour. then we decided to park at the open air parking (we have to walk for 10 minutes. arrgghh!) We watched the salsa performance for 15 minutes. and go for free medical check up hold by OSIM. (this is the “Health is important” journey EVER! huhu… so the results- my urine test is ok! my stress level is ok as well, my blood glucose is normal!, my body water is ok… but i have problem with my blood pressure. that lady told me that i have low blood pressure! same as what my panel doc hv told me before…. (so guys out there! im perfectly perfect 4u! i wont get angry easily) hahah…. av is also ok with her results. and since fadli stress level is nearly to the high susceptibility, so we went to secret recipies (so that fadli can taste every single of pleasure - the cheese and the chocolate cake… i means cakeSSS). then we decided to go for IKEA after that. we spent there for “cuci mata” till 8.oo pm.
9.00 pm - we have dinner in ampang. have one round of movie at the le’ park restaurant (should i call this restaurant??). (the transporter - which ive already watched it).
11.15 pm - we headed to KLCC. plan to watch midnight movie. but no idea yet of what movie to watch. so we’re just gambling!
11.55 pm - arrived in tgv. so we decided to go for TWILIGHT. and i would like to say the movie is AWESOME! [ it is because im truly and deeply interested with the guy - Edward Culler. im in LOVE with him.. yESS im in love.. even avvy as well in love with Edward Culler.. that is the type of gut that I, no! it is actually WE (all ladies) interested in! ('',) ] it’s a action-packed & love story between a teenage girl with a vampire. a VAMPIRE!.
the movie end nearly around 2am. so after we sent av back to her apartment, and khasif to his apartment as well, i went back to my heaven. and i arrived in my sarang burung around 4pm…. hehhe…ill be dead if my mom find out!. huhu.. btw… im having soooo much fun! tq to bebey, av and fadli. next time we’ll go out again… and again… and again…. and again…… and it’s a NEVER ENDING LISTS!
chow!
the so, so, so, so AND so...
(27 November 2008)
So many updates to run to… so many meetings to attend to… (I have to prepare to attend one meeting tomorrow morning which I s-o-o fed up of it) and yet I still hv time to jot down something. It is because im so fed-up with all this (sooooo to be exact). Im so hungry at the moment. Let see what do I hv for my stomach today? 1 glass of milo ice, 2 slices of kaya and butter toast. That’s it… arrgghh… don’t hv time to eat as I hv to rush for my Dato’s speech input the whole morning till lunch break. Arrgghhh the phone just rang, I need to go for BAS (Business Advisory Services). Hold up!
………………………………………………………………………………
(50 minutes later)
Here I am… back to my luxury cubicles… just met a new upcoming entrepreneurs. One entrepreneur for a trading company (trader for frozen food to be exact) and another one is a manufacturer in furniture industry. Have to talk the same scripts every single time for every different casts. Tired of it… damn tired!
Stop for a while… my sis called!
So many updates to run to… so many meetings to attend to… (I have to prepare to attend one meeting tomorrow morning which I s-o-o fed up of it) and yet I still hv time to jot down something. It is because im so fed-up with all this (sooooo to be exact). Im so hungry at the moment. Let see what do I hv for my stomach today? 1 glass of milo ice, 2 slices of kaya and butter toast. That’s it… arrgghh… don’t hv time to eat as I hv to rush for my Dato’s speech input the whole morning till lunch break. Arrgghhh the phone just rang, I need to go for BAS (Business Advisory Services). Hold up!
………………………………………………………………………………
(50 minutes later)
Here I am… back to my luxury cubicles… just met a new upcoming entrepreneurs. One entrepreneur for a trading company (trader for frozen food to be exact) and another one is a manufacturer in furniture industry. Have to talk the same scripts every single time for every different casts. Tired of it… damn tired!
Stop for a while… my sis called!
This is ME? ... is it?
(23 November 2008)
Ive went though a personality test hold by JPA last August. And last week I got the results which im not sure whether it reflects me or not. Maybe certain criteria do fit in me, but the others??
Im an extrovert:
- Mendapat ransangan dari luar
- Gemar dan merasa bertenaga apabila bersama orang lain
- Memerlukan perhubungan dengan orang lain.
- Selalunya ramah, mesra dan mudah dikenali
- Cenderung bertindak sebelum berfikir
- Mudah memberi pendapat dan kritikan
- Berkemungkinan kurang peka dengan keperluan dalaman
diri
- Mudah merasa bosan dan gelisah jika terlalu lama
bersendirian
- Menceriakan kehidupan seharian
- Sering dianggap cetek pemikiran dan mengganggu oleh
orang introvert
- Memerlukan introvert untuk keseimbangan
Im an intuitive:
- Memproses maklumat secara mendalam dengan memberi fokus kepada makna, kaitan dan perhubungan
- Melihat corak dan kemungkinan tetapi maklumat sering tidak lengkap
- Berkomunikasi secara umum dengan menggunakan terma-terma yang abstrak
- Melihat sesuatu secara menyeluruh sebelum menyesuaikan bahagian-bahagian dengan yang berkenaan
- Cenderung bersedia untuk masa hadapan
- Gemar berimaginasi dan suka mencipta sesuatu yang baru
- Melakukan sesuatu secara tidak teratur dan berubah-ubah
- Suka kepada perubahan, idea baru dan kepelbagaian
- Dianggap sebagai Mat Jenin
Im a Feel’s person:
- Membuat keputusan berasaskan perasaan orang lain melalui proses yang berasakan nilai
- Berpegang kepada prinsip nilai sendiri
- Memberi perhatian kepada nilai orang lain dan organisasi
- Tidak suka kepada prinsip yang ‘impersonal’
- Mudah memahami orang lain dan mudah memuji
- Memberi fokus kepada perasaan dan bukannya fikiran
- Sukar untuk memberi perkhabaran buruk kepada orang lain
- Pentingkan perhubungan dan keharmonian
- Kelihatan seperti terlalu beremosi dan tidak rasional
Im a Judging person:
- Menjalani kehidupan yang teratur dan terancang
- Gemar kepada struktur dan terkawal
- Selesa berada di dalam’comfort zone’
- Membuat perancangan awal dan penjadualan yang tetap.
- Gemar membuat keputusan dan menguruskan orang lain
- Suka melakukan sesuatu sehingga selesai
- Tidak suka untuk mengubah perancangan dan sering terlepas pandang perubahan yang perlu dibuat
- Cepat membuat keputusan dan kelihatan tegar, terlalu mendesak dan tidak fleksibel
As conclusion, Anda mempamerkan diri sebagai seorang yang mempunyai imaginasi, kreativiti, suka kepelbagaian, dan cabaran baru dalam kehidupan. Anda boleh melihat pembangunan potensi diri orang laindan berusaha membantu mereka mencapai matlamat yang ditetapkan. Anda mempunyai sikap ingin tahutentang sesuatu idea baru dan mahu memberi sumbangan dari aspek kebajikan serta kemanusiaan. Dari aspek hubungan interpersonal, anda seorang yang mudah mesra penyayang, setia, boleh dipercayai dan boleh menyesuaikan diri dengan orang lain. Anda seorang yang prihatin dan menggunakan empati diri orang lain dan memberi sokongan serta semangat bagi pembangunan diri mereka. Anda menghargai kerjasama, boleh mempunyai orang lain, dan membina persetujuan antara satu sama lain walaupun mereka mempunyai minat serta motif yang berbeza. Anda kerap bertindak sebagai pengantara, fasilatator atau pemimpin yang memberi inspirasi, mengeluarkna yang terbaik daripada orang lain dan bertanggungjawab mengurus interaksi sosial antara rakan sekerja, kawan atau keluarga.
So as conclusion, im Extraversion, Action taker, Outward, Expressive, Do-Think-Do, Interaction-ER, Intuitive, Imaginative, Theoretical, Love to give Ideas, Future thinker, love to think on “What could be next”,Subjective, Understand, kind hearted, Judgement, Organized, in Control, Deliberate, Closure, Planner, Merciful, Decision maker, impersonal…
Am i this list? Am i…? am i…? — No idea!
Ive went though a personality test hold by JPA last August. And last week I got the results which im not sure whether it reflects me or not. Maybe certain criteria do fit in me, but the others??
Im an extrovert:
- Mendapat ransangan dari luar
- Gemar dan merasa bertenaga apabila bersama orang lain
- Memerlukan perhubungan dengan orang lain.
- Selalunya ramah, mesra dan mudah dikenali
- Cenderung bertindak sebelum berfikir
- Mudah memberi pendapat dan kritikan
- Berkemungkinan kurang peka dengan keperluan dalaman
diri
- Mudah merasa bosan dan gelisah jika terlalu lama
bersendirian
- Menceriakan kehidupan seharian
- Sering dianggap cetek pemikiran dan mengganggu oleh
orang introvert
- Memerlukan introvert untuk keseimbangan
Im an intuitive:
- Memproses maklumat secara mendalam dengan memberi fokus kepada makna, kaitan dan perhubungan
- Melihat corak dan kemungkinan tetapi maklumat sering tidak lengkap
- Berkomunikasi secara umum dengan menggunakan terma-terma yang abstrak
- Melihat sesuatu secara menyeluruh sebelum menyesuaikan bahagian-bahagian dengan yang berkenaan
- Cenderung bersedia untuk masa hadapan
- Gemar berimaginasi dan suka mencipta sesuatu yang baru
- Melakukan sesuatu secara tidak teratur dan berubah-ubah
- Suka kepada perubahan, idea baru dan kepelbagaian
- Dianggap sebagai Mat Jenin
Im a Feel’s person:
- Membuat keputusan berasaskan perasaan orang lain melalui proses yang berasakan nilai
- Berpegang kepada prinsip nilai sendiri
- Memberi perhatian kepada nilai orang lain dan organisasi
- Tidak suka kepada prinsip yang ‘impersonal’
- Mudah memahami orang lain dan mudah memuji
- Memberi fokus kepada perasaan dan bukannya fikiran
- Sukar untuk memberi perkhabaran buruk kepada orang lain
- Pentingkan perhubungan dan keharmonian
- Kelihatan seperti terlalu beremosi dan tidak rasional
Im a Judging person:
- Menjalani kehidupan yang teratur dan terancang
- Gemar kepada struktur dan terkawal
- Selesa berada di dalam’comfort zone’
- Membuat perancangan awal dan penjadualan yang tetap.
- Gemar membuat keputusan dan menguruskan orang lain
- Suka melakukan sesuatu sehingga selesai
- Tidak suka untuk mengubah perancangan dan sering terlepas pandang perubahan yang perlu dibuat
- Cepat membuat keputusan dan kelihatan tegar, terlalu mendesak dan tidak fleksibel
As conclusion, Anda mempamerkan diri sebagai seorang yang mempunyai imaginasi, kreativiti, suka kepelbagaian, dan cabaran baru dalam kehidupan. Anda boleh melihat pembangunan potensi diri orang laindan berusaha membantu mereka mencapai matlamat yang ditetapkan. Anda mempunyai sikap ingin tahutentang sesuatu idea baru dan mahu memberi sumbangan dari aspek kebajikan serta kemanusiaan. Dari aspek hubungan interpersonal, anda seorang yang mudah mesra penyayang, setia, boleh dipercayai dan boleh menyesuaikan diri dengan orang lain. Anda seorang yang prihatin dan menggunakan empati diri orang lain dan memberi sokongan serta semangat bagi pembangunan diri mereka. Anda menghargai kerjasama, boleh mempunyai orang lain, dan membina persetujuan antara satu sama lain walaupun mereka mempunyai minat serta motif yang berbeza. Anda kerap bertindak sebagai pengantara, fasilatator atau pemimpin yang memberi inspirasi, mengeluarkna yang terbaik daripada orang lain dan bertanggungjawab mengurus interaksi sosial antara rakan sekerja, kawan atau keluarga.
So as conclusion, im Extraversion, Action taker, Outward, Expressive, Do-Think-Do, Interaction-ER, Intuitive, Imaginative, Theoretical, Love to give Ideas, Future thinker, love to think on “What could be next”,Subjective, Understand, kind hearted, Judgement, Organized, in Control, Deliberate, Closure, Planner, Merciful, Decision maker, impersonal…
Am i this list? Am i…? am i…? — No idea!
will cont. LATER!
(11 November 2008)
Lots and lots of lists to update here.
2 friends of mine were already being a mother. Bun with her daughter named Damia Lutfiah and fiza CC is a mother to a new born baby named Nurul Madihah. Heheh… macam nama-nama dalam novel jerk… but whatever pun, Congratulations to you both! Hope you guys will be a great mother, grandmother, aunty etc EVER! :p
Me and khasif went to alida’s house for her so called “open house” eventhough we’re not in syawal month dah… the reason we were there is that alida told us that she’s going to cook on her own. So me and khasif were like “… ermmm… lets try it” Thanx GOD the food was ok… not bad for her 1st time try - I guess.. ;p thanks a triilion to dira as well. Meena and her boy was there too. The funny thing is when khasif at first thought “is that umi aida”? thanx god he never says it. :p Don’t forget to mention he was so nervous to meet alida and dira for the 1st time. Reason? I have no idea!
I went back to SP last weekend with khasif and my sis as well as with my beloved arman and adrish. The journey was disaster… the tyre was punctured around 1.30am. and we’re in the middle of nowhere. Luckily, the plus officer arrived there less than 5 minutes. And help us to settle down on everything. Go PLUS, go PLUS, go PLUS. Thank you very much to the Mr “I forget to ask his name”. Tq, tq, tq,..
Need to stop lah.. no mood to jot down on everything eventhough lots of stuffs need to tell ya! Miss my sayang actually…
p/s: Did I mention that im so in love with this new 2 songs. Which are the song by estrange – aurora as well as by M.Nasir ft malique – mantera beradu. Love it!
Lots and lots of lists to update here.
2 friends of mine were already being a mother. Bun with her daughter named Damia Lutfiah and fiza CC is a mother to a new born baby named Nurul Madihah. Heheh… macam nama-nama dalam novel jerk… but whatever pun, Congratulations to you both! Hope you guys will be a great mother, grandmother, aunty etc EVER! :p
Me and khasif went to alida’s house for her so called “open house” eventhough we’re not in syawal month dah… the reason we were there is that alida told us that she’s going to cook on her own. So me and khasif were like “… ermmm… lets try it” Thanx GOD the food was ok… not bad for her 1st time try - I guess.. ;p thanks a triilion to dira as well. Meena and her boy was there too. The funny thing is when khasif at first thought “is that umi aida”? thanx god he never says it. :p Don’t forget to mention he was so nervous to meet alida and dira for the 1st time. Reason? I have no idea!
I went back to SP last weekend with khasif and my sis as well as with my beloved arman and adrish. The journey was disaster… the tyre was punctured around 1.30am. and we’re in the middle of nowhere. Luckily, the plus officer arrived there less than 5 minutes. And help us to settle down on everything. Go PLUS, go PLUS, go PLUS. Thank you very much to the Mr “I forget to ask his name”. Tq, tq, tq,..
Need to stop lah.. no mood to jot down on everything eventhough lots of stuffs need to tell ya! Miss my sayang actually…
p/s: Did I mention that im so in love with this new 2 songs. Which are the song by estrange – aurora as well as by M.Nasir ft malique – mantera beradu. Love it!
- YOU -
(28 October 2008)
I used to asked my self who… YOU? and why… YOU?
Now I know that it is…
Because YOU loves to makes my life worthliving!
Because YOU loves making me cry before it made making me smile…
Because YOU loves to inspires me to be a better person…
Because YOU loves to taught me patience!
Because YOU loves to never blamed me for the wrongs I did…
Because YOU loves to stood up for me when nobody else did!
Because YOU loves to argue with me…
Because YOU loves to let me be me!
And because of it…
I DON’T really loves you to be here with me
I DON’T really loves you to share my life with me
But I NEED u to complete me…
Now I know that it is…
Because YOU loves to makes my life worthliving!
Because YOU loves making me cry before it made making me smile…
Because YOU loves to inspires me to be a better person…
Because YOU loves to taught me patience!
Because YOU loves to never blamed me for the wrongs I did…
Because YOU loves to stood up for me when nobody else did!
Because YOU loves to argue with me…
Because YOU loves to let me be me!
And because of it…
I DON’T really loves you to be here with me
I DON’T really loves you to share my life with me
But I NEED u to complete me…
MALAYS... where are we now?
(24 October 2008)
Hello there. How’s every 1? Hopefully u all in a good shape and in pink health. So what I wanna write here? Let me see… Mmm … There’s something that I always wanna jot down here in my blog. But each time, when im here in front of my comp and started to arrange my sentences on this topic, suddenly my mind goes blank. Maybe I’m afraid that someone will hurt while reading this. But as for now, I believe, it’s the time for me to pen down on this matter. Since I just came back from this 1 programme attended by my minister and which is coincidence-ly the same topic I’m interested in – Malays, where are we now? Allowed me to write on this matter – what my mind wants to say…
As at 2006, Malays are the main citizens of Malaysia:
Malay = 13,575,100
Chinese = 6,219,600
Indian = 1,858,500
This numbers can tell you that Malays are the majority. With 54.7%, supposedly Malays are the majority contributor in all aspects especially in the economic sector. BUT, what is actually happened is far away from what we’re actually expected.
Ekuiti milik bumiputera as at 2007 hanyalah 19.4%, sedangkan sasaran kita di dalam DEB, ia sepatutnya mencecah angka 30%. Jumlah ekuiti bagi kaum bukan bumi as at 2007 adalah 40.4%. sedangkan sasaran yang sepatutnya adalah 40%. Lihat sahaja perbezaan yang ketara itu. Lihat sahaja betapa kaum melayu sebenarnya telah ketinggalan ke belakang.
Ada pihak dengan lantangnya berpendapat DEB telah gagal. Tetapi bagi saya ia tidak gagal. Ia cuma tidak mencapai target setinggi seperti yang ditetapkan. Mungkin anda tidak tahu, pada tahun 1970, tahun dimana DEB diperkenalkan, ekuiti milik bumiputera pada masa itu hanyalah 2.4%. Pada tahun akhir DEB, iaitu 1990, taraf ekuiti bumiputera telah meningkat kepada 19.2%. Satu peningkatan yang pada saya cukup ketara. Cukup tinggi! Namun antara tahun 1990 hingga tahun 2007, peratus ekuiti melayu adalah 19.4%. Peningkatan sebanyak 0.2% sahaja bagi tempoh 17 tahun. Pada tahun DEB dilaksanakan, ekuiti melayu telah meningkat sebanyak 16.8%, namun pada tahun selepas itu sehingga tahun 2007, ekuiti bumi putera hanya meningkat 0.2%. Tidakkan itu menunjukkan bahawa DEB tidak gagal, tetapi orang orang melayu antara tahun 1990 hingga 2007 yang telah gagal untuk memajukan sektor ekonomi kaum mereka sendiri.
Saya juga terpikir, adakan mungkin disebabkan peningkatan yang tinggi itu telah berlaku pada tahun DEB dilaksanakan, menyebabkan kaum melayu berasa selamat di zon yang tersendiri. Dan dengan itulah, hanya peningkatan sebanyak 0.2% sahaja yang kita dapat lihat bagi kaum melayu dalam masa 17 tahun selepas itu??
Namun jika kita lihat sekarang, kaum melayu sendirilah adalah antara mereka yang dengan lantangnya telah menolak DEB. Tidakkah mereka terpikir, dengan DEB itulah, peratus ekuiti melayu telah meningkat?
Memang tidak dinafikan DEB adalah satu dasar yang tidak lagi diamalkan. Memang betul zaman DEB telah tamat. Namun, angka 30% itulah yang sepatutnya dijadikan semangat kita yang perlu dikekalkan sehingga sekarang. Semangat yang sepatutnya kita perjuangkan hingga sekarang.
Timbul pula isu kontrak sosial. Apa itu sebenarnya kontrak sosial? Kontrak sosial merujuk kepada perjanjian oleh bapa-bapa kemerdekaan negara dalam Perlembagaan, dan merupakan penggantian beri-memberi atau quid pro quo melalui Perkara 14–18 yang berkenaan dengan pemberian kewarganegaraan Malaysia kepada orang-orang bukan Melayu. Ia adalah satu persetujuan yang memberikan kewarganegaraan kepada orang-orang bukan Melayu dan bukan orang asli (kebanyakannya orang Malaysia Cina dan Malaysia India) sebagai ganti untuk pemberian hak keistimewaan kepada orang-orang Melayu.
Keyword - pemberian kewarganegaraan SEBAGAI GANTI pemberian hak istimewa kepada orang-orang Melayu. Namun, apa yang berlaku pada hari ini, setiap yang berbau melayu telah dicabar dan dipersoalkan dengan lantang dan terbuka. Contohnya, artikel 153: hak-hak istimewa bumiputera, sosial kontrak, asal usul melayu, DEB, bahasa melayu, kepimpinan melayu, raja-raja melayu, kebudayaan melayu, agama islam dan sebagainya yang berhubung kait dengan keistimewaan orang melayu. Kesemuanya itu telah dicabar dengan lantangnya oleh orang orang bukan melayu. Alasan yang diberikan, amat mudah – dasar tersebut menindas kaum lain. Hak kesamarataan perlu di tuntut!
Saya terpanggil untuk berfikir, jika hak keistimewaan melayu perlu ditarik balik, adakah sanggup kaum cina dan kaum india memberikan semula hak kewarganegaraan mereka? Kerana sosial kontrak itu sendiri menyebut hak keistimewaan melayu adalah SEBAGAI GANTI kepada pemberian kewarganegaraan. Fikirlah wahai melayu. Kadang-kala saya agak terkilan kerana melayu sendiri yang mahu hak keistimewaan mereka digadai. Contoh mudah – manifesto politik, yang dilaung laungkan sabah hari - hak yang sama antara kaum! Adakah itu yang sepatutnya diperjuangkan? Adakah itu yang sepatutnya diagung-agungkan? Sanggupkah kita menggadaikan apa yang sepatutnya menjadi milik kita hanya semata-mata untuk mengejar kekuasaan untuk mentadbir sebuah negara? Bukan saya hendak mengutuk mana-mana parti politik, jauh sekali menyokong mana-mana parti politik. Tetapi saya menyokong mereka yang akan memperjuangkan saya, yang akan memperjuangkan hak-hak saya, yang akan memperjuangkan hak-hak anak-anak, cucu-cucu dan seterusnya waris-waris saya. Saya menyokong mereka yang akan memperjuangkan bangsa saya dan agama saya… yang akan memperjuangkan negara saya! Tapi kini, melayu itu sendiri yang terumbang ambing di tanah asal usul mereka sendiri.
Saya setuju dengan laungan Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad satu masa dahulu… “Melayu mudah lupa!”… melayu mudah lupa dengan pengobanan orang orang terdahulu. Melayu mudah lupa dengan apa yang diperjuangkan oleh orang-orang terdahulu. Melayu mudah lupa akan erti sebenar sebuah bangsa, akan erti sebenar sebuah negara. Erti sebenar sebuah pengorbangan demi bangsa, agama dan negara… melayu mudah lupa akan segala galanya.
Adakah dengan wujudnya sosial kontrak itu, bangsa lain begitu tertindas? Adakah benar akan kenyataan tersebut? Kerana jika kita lihat pendapatan purata bagi kaum melayu lebih rendah berbanding kaum-kaum lain. Pendapatan purata kaum bagi tahun 2007:
Melayu = RM 3,156
Cina = RM 4,853
India = RM 3,799
Lihat saja! Pendapatan purata bulanan kaum yang selama ini mengatakan mereka tertindas, jauh lebih tinggi daripada kaum melayu sendiri. Lihat sahaja siapa sebenarnya yang tertindas. Chinese and Indian, they have better standard of living compared to the Malays. Adakah ini yang dikatakan satu penindasan?
Dari segi jawatan yang dipegang dalam syarikat, dari segi bidang professional, dari segi pemilikan syarikat, dari segi pemilikan bangunan dan premis komersial dan pelbagai lagi bidang… yang pasti bilangan bumiputera itu sendiri masih lagi kebelakang, masih lagi mundur… Kesemuanya dimonopoli oleh kaum bukan bumiputera.
Adakah ini masih lagi satu penindasan?
Tidakkan kita fikir, akibat daripada kelemahan org melayu itu sendiri lah, pada hari ini, melayu makin tidak berpijak di bumi yang nyata? Melayu selalu saja merungut… Kerajaan tak pernah membantu lah…. Kerajaan tak jaga melayu lahh… bermacam macam alasan dan rungutan lagi….
Wahhal, kerajaan sendiri telah memberi bantuan berbilion-billion ringgit kepada bumiputera itu sendiri. Dari segi dana, dari segi modal, dari segi kewangan, GLCs, ULCs, institusi-institusi melayu, peraturan peraturan dan dasar dasar yang melonjakkan melayu dalam ekonomi, pelbagai dasar yang memihak kepada melayu dan macam macam lagi. And yet melayu masih lagi mundur dalam sektor ekonomi.
Kenapa? Kenapa? Dan kenapa?
Saya terpikir, adakah kerana terlalu dimanjakan, adakah kerana terlampau disuap dalam segala hal, adakah kerana terlalu banyak pertolongan yang telah diberikan menyebabkan melayu menjadi seperti sekarang?
Yang pasti, melayu terperangkap di dalam zon ekonomi yang selesa yang mengelirukan! Melayu adalah bangsa yang tidak patriotik, adalah bangsa yang tidah pernah bersyukur dengan segala nikmat dan keistimewaan yang telah diberikan. Adakah kita masih perlu terus menerus tunduk dengan kemahuan kaum-kaum lain yang inginkan hak hak kita diketepikan? Adakah kita mahu menumpang di negara kita sendiri? Adakah kita masih mahu ketinggalan dalam segalanya?
Bangkitlah melayu! Bangkitlah melayu. Sedarlah!
Mungkin saya tidak mampu untuk mengubah segalanya seorang diri. Mungkin saya tidak mampu untuk menyedarkan semua orang akan hakikat sebenarnya seorang diri saya. Tetapi sekurang-kurangnya saya sedar akan kedudukan dan kelemahan kaum saya sendiri. Setidak-tidaknya saya berusaha dengan cara saya sendiri. Sekurang kurangnya saya masih ada semangat yang membara demi melayu saya…demi bangsa saya…demi agama saya…demi negara saya… !
Mungkin di era saya, melayu masih mampu berkuasa… tetapi adakah anak-anak saya, cucu-cucu saya dan seterusnya waris-waris saya masih mampu merasai nikmat hak-hak keistimewaan sebagai seorang melayu…? sebagai seorang islam…? Sebagai seorang penduduk peribumi negaranya sendiri?
Tidak terniat untuk mengutuk, jauh sekali untuk mempertikaikan kewujudan kaum lain. But as for me,
I’m not being racist, but I’m being a patriotic in my own ways - for my own Malays!
Hello there. How’s every 1? Hopefully u all in a good shape and in pink health. So what I wanna write here? Let me see… Mmm … There’s something that I always wanna jot down here in my blog. But each time, when im here in front of my comp and started to arrange my sentences on this topic, suddenly my mind goes blank. Maybe I’m afraid that someone will hurt while reading this. But as for now, I believe, it’s the time for me to pen down on this matter. Since I just came back from this 1 programme attended by my minister and which is coincidence-ly the same topic I’m interested in – Malays, where are we now? Allowed me to write on this matter – what my mind wants to say…
As at 2006, Malays are the main citizens of Malaysia:
Malay = 13,575,100
Chinese = 6,219,600
Indian = 1,858,500
This numbers can tell you that Malays are the majority. With 54.7%, supposedly Malays are the majority contributor in all aspects especially in the economic sector. BUT, what is actually happened is far away from what we’re actually expected.
Ekuiti milik bumiputera as at 2007 hanyalah 19.4%, sedangkan sasaran kita di dalam DEB, ia sepatutnya mencecah angka 30%. Jumlah ekuiti bagi kaum bukan bumi as at 2007 adalah 40.4%. sedangkan sasaran yang sepatutnya adalah 40%. Lihat sahaja perbezaan yang ketara itu. Lihat sahaja betapa kaum melayu sebenarnya telah ketinggalan ke belakang.
Ada pihak dengan lantangnya berpendapat DEB telah gagal. Tetapi bagi saya ia tidak gagal. Ia cuma tidak mencapai target setinggi seperti yang ditetapkan. Mungkin anda tidak tahu, pada tahun 1970, tahun dimana DEB diperkenalkan, ekuiti milik bumiputera pada masa itu hanyalah 2.4%. Pada tahun akhir DEB, iaitu 1990, taraf ekuiti bumiputera telah meningkat kepada 19.2%. Satu peningkatan yang pada saya cukup ketara. Cukup tinggi! Namun antara tahun 1990 hingga tahun 2007, peratus ekuiti melayu adalah 19.4%. Peningkatan sebanyak 0.2% sahaja bagi tempoh 17 tahun. Pada tahun DEB dilaksanakan, ekuiti melayu telah meningkat sebanyak 16.8%, namun pada tahun selepas itu sehingga tahun 2007, ekuiti bumi putera hanya meningkat 0.2%. Tidakkan itu menunjukkan bahawa DEB tidak gagal, tetapi orang orang melayu antara tahun 1990 hingga 2007 yang telah gagal untuk memajukan sektor ekonomi kaum mereka sendiri.
Saya juga terpikir, adakan mungkin disebabkan peningkatan yang tinggi itu telah berlaku pada tahun DEB dilaksanakan, menyebabkan kaum melayu berasa selamat di zon yang tersendiri. Dan dengan itulah, hanya peningkatan sebanyak 0.2% sahaja yang kita dapat lihat bagi kaum melayu dalam masa 17 tahun selepas itu??
Namun jika kita lihat sekarang, kaum melayu sendirilah adalah antara mereka yang dengan lantangnya telah menolak DEB. Tidakkah mereka terpikir, dengan DEB itulah, peratus ekuiti melayu telah meningkat?
Memang tidak dinafikan DEB adalah satu dasar yang tidak lagi diamalkan. Memang betul zaman DEB telah tamat. Namun, angka 30% itulah yang sepatutnya dijadikan semangat kita yang perlu dikekalkan sehingga sekarang. Semangat yang sepatutnya kita perjuangkan hingga sekarang.
Timbul pula isu kontrak sosial. Apa itu sebenarnya kontrak sosial? Kontrak sosial merujuk kepada perjanjian oleh bapa-bapa kemerdekaan negara dalam Perlembagaan, dan merupakan penggantian beri-memberi atau quid pro quo melalui Perkara 14–18 yang berkenaan dengan pemberian kewarganegaraan Malaysia kepada orang-orang bukan Melayu. Ia adalah satu persetujuan yang memberikan kewarganegaraan kepada orang-orang bukan Melayu dan bukan orang asli (kebanyakannya orang Malaysia Cina dan Malaysia India) sebagai ganti untuk pemberian hak keistimewaan kepada orang-orang Melayu.
Keyword - pemberian kewarganegaraan SEBAGAI GANTI pemberian hak istimewa kepada orang-orang Melayu. Namun, apa yang berlaku pada hari ini, setiap yang berbau melayu telah dicabar dan dipersoalkan dengan lantang dan terbuka. Contohnya, artikel 153: hak-hak istimewa bumiputera, sosial kontrak, asal usul melayu, DEB, bahasa melayu, kepimpinan melayu, raja-raja melayu, kebudayaan melayu, agama islam dan sebagainya yang berhubung kait dengan keistimewaan orang melayu. Kesemuanya itu telah dicabar dengan lantangnya oleh orang orang bukan melayu. Alasan yang diberikan, amat mudah – dasar tersebut menindas kaum lain. Hak kesamarataan perlu di tuntut!
Saya terpanggil untuk berfikir, jika hak keistimewaan melayu perlu ditarik balik, adakah sanggup kaum cina dan kaum india memberikan semula hak kewarganegaraan mereka? Kerana sosial kontrak itu sendiri menyebut hak keistimewaan melayu adalah SEBAGAI GANTI kepada pemberian kewarganegaraan. Fikirlah wahai melayu. Kadang-kala saya agak terkilan kerana melayu sendiri yang mahu hak keistimewaan mereka digadai. Contoh mudah – manifesto politik, yang dilaung laungkan sabah hari - hak yang sama antara kaum! Adakah itu yang sepatutnya diperjuangkan? Adakah itu yang sepatutnya diagung-agungkan? Sanggupkah kita menggadaikan apa yang sepatutnya menjadi milik kita hanya semata-mata untuk mengejar kekuasaan untuk mentadbir sebuah negara? Bukan saya hendak mengutuk mana-mana parti politik, jauh sekali menyokong mana-mana parti politik. Tetapi saya menyokong mereka yang akan memperjuangkan saya, yang akan memperjuangkan hak-hak saya, yang akan memperjuangkan hak-hak anak-anak, cucu-cucu dan seterusnya waris-waris saya. Saya menyokong mereka yang akan memperjuangkan bangsa saya dan agama saya… yang akan memperjuangkan negara saya! Tapi kini, melayu itu sendiri yang terumbang ambing di tanah asal usul mereka sendiri.
Saya setuju dengan laungan Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad satu masa dahulu… “Melayu mudah lupa!”… melayu mudah lupa dengan pengobanan orang orang terdahulu. Melayu mudah lupa dengan apa yang diperjuangkan oleh orang-orang terdahulu. Melayu mudah lupa akan erti sebenar sebuah bangsa, akan erti sebenar sebuah negara. Erti sebenar sebuah pengorbangan demi bangsa, agama dan negara… melayu mudah lupa akan segala galanya.
Adakah dengan wujudnya sosial kontrak itu, bangsa lain begitu tertindas? Adakah benar akan kenyataan tersebut? Kerana jika kita lihat pendapatan purata bagi kaum melayu lebih rendah berbanding kaum-kaum lain. Pendapatan purata kaum bagi tahun 2007:
Melayu = RM 3,156
Cina = RM 4,853
India = RM 3,799
Lihat saja! Pendapatan purata bulanan kaum yang selama ini mengatakan mereka tertindas, jauh lebih tinggi daripada kaum melayu sendiri. Lihat sahaja siapa sebenarnya yang tertindas. Chinese and Indian, they have better standard of living compared to the Malays. Adakah ini yang dikatakan satu penindasan?
Dari segi jawatan yang dipegang dalam syarikat, dari segi bidang professional, dari segi pemilikan syarikat, dari segi pemilikan bangunan dan premis komersial dan pelbagai lagi bidang… yang pasti bilangan bumiputera itu sendiri masih lagi kebelakang, masih lagi mundur… Kesemuanya dimonopoli oleh kaum bukan bumiputera.
Adakah ini masih lagi satu penindasan?
Tidakkan kita fikir, akibat daripada kelemahan org melayu itu sendiri lah, pada hari ini, melayu makin tidak berpijak di bumi yang nyata? Melayu selalu saja merungut… Kerajaan tak pernah membantu lah…. Kerajaan tak jaga melayu lahh… bermacam macam alasan dan rungutan lagi….
Wahhal, kerajaan sendiri telah memberi bantuan berbilion-billion ringgit kepada bumiputera itu sendiri. Dari segi dana, dari segi modal, dari segi kewangan, GLCs, ULCs, institusi-institusi melayu, peraturan peraturan dan dasar dasar yang melonjakkan melayu dalam ekonomi, pelbagai dasar yang memihak kepada melayu dan macam macam lagi. And yet melayu masih lagi mundur dalam sektor ekonomi.
Kenapa? Kenapa? Dan kenapa?
Saya terpikir, adakah kerana terlalu dimanjakan, adakah kerana terlampau disuap dalam segala hal, adakah kerana terlalu banyak pertolongan yang telah diberikan menyebabkan melayu menjadi seperti sekarang?
Yang pasti, melayu terperangkap di dalam zon ekonomi yang selesa yang mengelirukan! Melayu adalah bangsa yang tidak patriotik, adalah bangsa yang tidah pernah bersyukur dengan segala nikmat dan keistimewaan yang telah diberikan. Adakah kita masih perlu terus menerus tunduk dengan kemahuan kaum-kaum lain yang inginkan hak hak kita diketepikan? Adakah kita mahu menumpang di negara kita sendiri? Adakah kita masih mahu ketinggalan dalam segalanya?
Bangkitlah melayu! Bangkitlah melayu. Sedarlah!
Mungkin saya tidak mampu untuk mengubah segalanya seorang diri. Mungkin saya tidak mampu untuk menyedarkan semua orang akan hakikat sebenarnya seorang diri saya. Tetapi sekurang-kurangnya saya sedar akan kedudukan dan kelemahan kaum saya sendiri. Setidak-tidaknya saya berusaha dengan cara saya sendiri. Sekurang kurangnya saya masih ada semangat yang membara demi melayu saya…demi bangsa saya…demi agama saya…demi negara saya… !
Mungkin di era saya, melayu masih mampu berkuasa… tetapi adakah anak-anak saya, cucu-cucu saya dan seterusnya waris-waris saya masih mampu merasai nikmat hak-hak keistimewaan sebagai seorang melayu…? sebagai seorang islam…? Sebagai seorang penduduk peribumi negaranya sendiri?
Tidak terniat untuk mengutuk, jauh sekali untuk mempertikaikan kewujudan kaum lain. But as for me,
I’m not being racist, but I’m being a patriotic in my own ways - for my own Malays!
Im Still in Raya Mode.
(9 october 2008)
Afternoon everyone. It’s 9th of October 2008, so it’s da 9th day of eid-mubarak. How’s everyone’s eid mubarak? Hopefully u all enjoys your days… How’s mine? Mine, as usual… as always… there’s black and white. and of course lahh, the best part will be “eat, eat & eat”. Arrggghh, I missed my mother’s nasi tomato, rendang, chicken curry, kuew tiau soup etc. talking of which, I cant find anywhere lahh the “kuih sarang semut”. Misses that kuih lahh…apart from kuih bakar, and kuih batang buruk… hiks hiks
And the black side is, my sis accident. Don’t hv to mention it here lahh, in my blog as I personally believed that it is sooo- damn personal. Talking of which, I just realize that I hv only create a blog post once a month. So lazy of u lahh… (“,) naaa, I hv no time actually. My 24 hours/day seem not enough.
some1 did mention to me that he’s planned to quit his job and open his own business. What shall I said? What shall I do? Shall i just agreed? Or shall I just say no? Frankly speaking, im not agree with his decision to left everything n start his own biz. I know the outcome of biz is big. But it is too damn risky as well. It’s not that im not a risk taker. But as 4me, u don’t hv to gamble such way. Why don’t u grab both. (im not THAT greedy k). Let’s play safe. PLAY SAFE! i says it because u already hv a responsibility. u have a few people u need to take care of. U hv 2 family 4u2 not left them behind. Ure NOT alone anymore. I don’t say no and I don’t say yes to what so ever u hv planned. It’s up 2u2 think it on whatever u wanna do in your life. The road is yours. It’s up 4u to choose the way… the BEST way, of course!… I just wonder how ami and his friends are sooo determined to left everything and start their own biz? I just wonder….. (sorry ami for mentioning your name here :o’)
So many wedding ceremony to attend as well as open house. This sat is aimi’s wedding in ipoh. She’s getting married? Arrghhh… hiks hiks… so soon… Next week is my colleague’s wedding, Nida and ghaz. Both were my colleagues. :0) and 3 open house that I need to attend next week… never stop eating laah… since aimi’s wedding in ipoh, I thought of visiting my 2 friends as well. Bun hv just delivered her 1st child named damia…omg… seems like yesterday that she’s married. Time passes so fast… and jasmin is in the pantai puteri hospital for an operation. Pity her. She has prob with her intestines. May god bless u always. Get well SOON jas! Soon….
What else I need to update here huh?
Later lahh I’ll cont. need to rush for a few due date…. Shitt!
Afternoon everyone. It’s 9th of October 2008, so it’s da 9th day of eid-mubarak. How’s everyone’s eid mubarak? Hopefully u all enjoys your days… How’s mine? Mine, as usual… as always… there’s black and white. and of course lahh, the best part will be “eat, eat & eat”. Arrggghh, I missed my mother’s nasi tomato, rendang, chicken curry, kuew tiau soup etc. talking of which, I cant find anywhere lahh the “kuih sarang semut”. Misses that kuih lahh…apart from kuih bakar, and kuih batang buruk… hiks hiks
And the black side is, my sis accident. Don’t hv to mention it here lahh, in my blog as I personally believed that it is sooo- damn personal. Talking of which, I just realize that I hv only create a blog post once a month. So lazy of u lahh… (“,) naaa, I hv no time actually. My 24 hours/day seem not enough.
some1 did mention to me that he’s planned to quit his job and open his own business. What shall I said? What shall I do? Shall i just agreed? Or shall I just say no? Frankly speaking, im not agree with his decision to left everything n start his own biz. I know the outcome of biz is big. But it is too damn risky as well. It’s not that im not a risk taker. But as 4me, u don’t hv to gamble such way. Why don’t u grab both. (im not THAT greedy k). Let’s play safe. PLAY SAFE! i says it because u already hv a responsibility. u have a few people u need to take care of. U hv 2 family 4u2 not left them behind. Ure NOT alone anymore. I don’t say no and I don’t say yes to what so ever u hv planned. It’s up 2u2 think it on whatever u wanna do in your life. The road is yours. It’s up 4u to choose the way… the BEST way, of course!… I just wonder how ami and his friends are sooo determined to left everything and start their own biz? I just wonder….. (sorry ami for mentioning your name here :o’)
So many wedding ceremony to attend as well as open house. This sat is aimi’s wedding in ipoh. She’s getting married? Arrghhh… hiks hiks… so soon… Next week is my colleague’s wedding, Nida and ghaz. Both were my colleagues. :0) and 3 open house that I need to attend next week… never stop eating laah… since aimi’s wedding in ipoh, I thought of visiting my 2 friends as well. Bun hv just delivered her 1st child named damia…omg… seems like yesterday that she’s married. Time passes so fast… and jasmin is in the pantai puteri hospital for an operation. Pity her. She has prob with her intestines. May god bless u always. Get well SOON jas! Soon….
What else I need to update here huh?
Later lahh I’ll cont. need to rush for a few due date…. Shitt!
one fine day in September...
(11 September 2008)
Morning everybody! It’s FRIDAY!. Ive been waiting for this day the whole week. Ermmm.. erkk…. Mmmm… what am I going to write down here huh? It’s always like this… I do want to update, but the thing is, when I sat down if front of my comp, sign in to this page, start typing, then suddenly my mind slowly goes blank…it’s not like I don’t hv nything to jot down here - I do hv, like tons of it but it’s ok. ill start it slowly as I hv no due date to run to.. hiks hiks…
A quick recap.
I did hang up with my friends last wed.. with my one long lost friend - mizi plus another 2 friends - the future couple 2b - av & fad. Hehehe… ill be dead if one of them read this.. let say “kalu ader jodoh lahh”… it’s been for almost 5 years, since year 2003, we - me & fad, did not met him.. so we all were lepaking in the mcD in jalan pahang after terawikh (don’t forget 2do ur terawikh yerk. wut can I say, Im a good daughter. Always listen to wut my mum asked me 2do. heheh)…and spent for almost 3 hours talking, laughing and goes crazing… a lot of stuffs to tell and to share.. mostly our cherish moments and memorable moments in TAJ. From pakcik senheng, to the “mengga” thing, to the kantoi-ing moment, and so many to list down here. But whatever pun, mizi after 5 years, he remains the same… the same old brand new he.. same goes to fadhli and av.. and for you sayang, it’s not that I don’t want to bring u along, in fact av n fad did invite u, just that I don’t want you 2b lost when we were together. Nyway, good luckss to u mizi for ur interview.. hope you’ll join me, fad n av in kl soon… :p
me and my sayang went for a window shopping in a few places last weekend (sat 2b exact). As the roads were jammed all over kl, so we decided to cont. our so called “journey” using public transport-monorail. our 1st time journey together, using public transport. As we were there in bts, nothing much to do, no movie at 5pm as well. So while waiting for the 7.18pm to arrives, we went for a fish spa. Tq sayang for joining me as well. so cute of you… hahah.. our very 1st time also doing the fish spa. I cant stand that for the 1st 5 minutes. Now I wonder how maman - 2 years old boy can endure the fish spa. hiks hiks
any other good news to mentioned? YESS.. im engaged. It’s been for almost 1 month. Time passes by fast… too fast. I knew him since 2004… its been 4 years now. And now we’re engaged. A brand new me. a step ahead. fiance to my sayang. sound weird right? A new life is it? YESS and NOP as well.. nothing much different… everything remains the same.. hiks . As for the preparations, it was easy as ABC. Thanksss a trillion to my dad, mother, my sis, broS, my sis & bro in law… thanks to every one. every single one…
I didn’t hv time to inform ealier to most of my friends (blame to khasif and his family for their late noticed :p) especially to dina, alida, gda, dira, dayah, matul, hasi, Noreen, aina, bun, av, fad, sally and …. So many to list down here. L. Nevertheless, TQVM to all the best wishes. And here it is again, sorry for not informing earlier / inviting you guys for my unplanned engagement.
So wut am I going 2do this weekend? kak fiza going back. As well as kak ja. Lisa probably’ll go 4 dating as her abg coming. So sayang please take note! :p okies lahh.. take care gtg… cherrio…
Morning everybody! It’s FRIDAY!. Ive been waiting for this day the whole week. Ermmm.. erkk…. Mmmm… what am I going to write down here huh? It’s always like this… I do want to update, but the thing is, when I sat down if front of my comp, sign in to this page, start typing, then suddenly my mind slowly goes blank…it’s not like I don’t hv nything to jot down here - I do hv, like tons of it but it’s ok. ill start it slowly as I hv no due date to run to.. hiks hiks…
A quick recap.
I did hang up with my friends last wed.. with my one long lost friend - mizi plus another 2 friends - the future couple 2b - av & fad. Hehehe… ill be dead if one of them read this.. let say “kalu ader jodoh lahh”… it’s been for almost 5 years, since year 2003, we - me & fad, did not met him.. so we all were lepaking in the mcD in jalan pahang after terawikh (don’t forget 2do ur terawikh yerk. wut can I say, Im a good daughter. Always listen to wut my mum asked me 2do. heheh)…and spent for almost 3 hours talking, laughing and goes crazing… a lot of stuffs to tell and to share.. mostly our cherish moments and memorable moments in TAJ. From pakcik senheng, to the “mengga” thing, to the kantoi-ing moment, and so many to list down here. But whatever pun, mizi after 5 years, he remains the same… the same old brand new he.. same goes to fadhli and av.. and for you sayang, it’s not that I don’t want to bring u along, in fact av n fad did invite u, just that I don’t want you 2b lost when we were together. Nyway, good luckss to u mizi for ur interview.. hope you’ll join me, fad n av in kl soon… :p
me and my sayang went for a window shopping in a few places last weekend (sat 2b exact). As the roads were jammed all over kl, so we decided to cont. our so called “journey” using public transport-monorail. our 1st time journey together, using public transport. As we were there in bts, nothing much to do, no movie at 5pm as well. So while waiting for the 7.18pm to arrives, we went for a fish spa. Tq sayang for joining me as well. so cute of you… hahah.. our very 1st time also doing the fish spa. I cant stand that for the 1st 5 minutes. Now I wonder how maman - 2 years old boy can endure the fish spa. hiks hiks
any other good news to mentioned? YESS.. im engaged. It’s been for almost 1 month. Time passes by fast… too fast. I knew him since 2004… its been 4 years now. And now we’re engaged. A brand new me. a step ahead. fiance to my sayang. sound weird right? A new life is it? YESS and NOP as well.. nothing much different… everything remains the same.. hiks . As for the preparations, it was easy as ABC. Thanksss a trillion to my dad, mother, my sis, broS, my sis & bro in law… thanks to every one. every single one…
I didn’t hv time to inform ealier to most of my friends (blame to khasif and his family for their late noticed :p) especially to dina, alida, gda, dira, dayah, matul, hasi, Noreen, aina, bun, av, fad, sally and …. So many to list down here. L. Nevertheless, TQVM to all the best wishes. And here it is again, sorry for not informing earlier / inviting you guys for my unplanned engagement.
So wut am I going 2do this weekend? kak fiza going back. As well as kak ja. Lisa probably’ll go 4 dating as her abg coming. So sayang please take note! :p okies lahh.. take care gtg… cherrio…
My Life is Hectic!
(26 August 2008)
Ive been so buzy for the past 2 weeks… since last week. I have to worked over last weekend. And not to forget, this week also I have to come to the office to settle everything on the monthly report.
I love figures, and not forget to mention im INTO figures. But when it comes to all the “make up” stuff to my report. That’s the hardest part… or shall I say.. im so fed up of it.
So many meetings to attend. My life is full of meetings. Yesterday, there are 2 meetings. One in putrajaya at 9, another one in bank Negara in the afternoon. A day before, I have to do the factory/premise’ s visit in Selangor & KL… from klang to sg buluh to shah alam to kajang and KL area… with all the traffic jam here and there. im soo stress up.
This afternoon, there will be another meeting on 5S.. and on Friday, again! I have to do the factory visit… my legs hurts already lorr…
there’s a lot more to write, but I have to go and meet the new entrepreneur for the business advisory session… argghhhh
Ive been so buzy for the past 2 weeks… since last week. I have to worked over last weekend. And not to forget, this week also I have to come to the office to settle everything on the monthly report.
I love figures, and not forget to mention im INTO figures. But when it comes to all the “make up” stuff to my report. That’s the hardest part… or shall I say.. im so fed up of it.
So many meetings to attend. My life is full of meetings. Yesterday, there are 2 meetings. One in putrajaya at 9, another one in bank Negara in the afternoon. A day before, I have to do the factory/premise’ s visit in Selangor & KL… from klang to sg buluh to shah alam to kajang and KL area… with all the traffic jam here and there. im soo stress up.
This afternoon, there will be another meeting on 5S.. and on Friday, again! I have to do the factory visit… my legs hurts already lorr…
there’s a lot more to write, but I have to go and meet the new entrepreneur for the business advisory session… argghhhh
the SHE & the HE...
(28 July 2008)
Woman, once she feels like she’s been betrayed, things will never remains the same. Makes no different of what she’s been doing compared to what hv been going on previously. If suddenly, she hv no more priority and hv to share with the others, and NOT forget to mentioned - she’s been left out for the past 2 months by her so called “Man of her life”. why is it she cant let go of everything? why should she STILL think bout the time spent? bout others might says? bout others might think? why he suddenly wanna sms-ing her? mms-ing her? wanna to have a long chat with her? wanna ym her? cz as far as she knows, for the past 2 months, he never bother bout it.
Her instints was right. was PERFECT!! She has no regret at all.cz the best for her is to realise that what she’s been doing for the past 2 year is not enough. will NOT EVER enough and will NOT EVER perfect
She’s bleed! she’s hurts! even if she’s cured, scars REMAINS! No matter what he’ll do.. just remember that her trust for him will never ever remains the same. Her love will remains, will always there but her passion, her soul, her excitements- HALF GONE!.
If she knew she would fall when she step on, she would rather not to walk!
Woman, once she feels like she’s been betrayed, things will never remains the same. Makes no different of what she’s been doing compared to what hv been going on previously. If suddenly, she hv no more priority and hv to share with the others, and NOT forget to mentioned - she’s been left out for the past 2 months by her so called “Man of her life”. why is it she cant let go of everything? why should she STILL think bout the time spent? bout others might says? bout others might think? why he suddenly wanna sms-ing her? mms-ing her? wanna to have a long chat with her? wanna ym her? cz as far as she knows, for the past 2 months, he never bother bout it.
Her instints was right. was PERFECT!! She has no regret at all.cz the best for her is to realise that what she’s been doing for the past 2 year is not enough. will NOT EVER enough and will NOT EVER perfect
She’s bleed! she’s hurts! even if she’s cured, scars REMAINS! No matter what he’ll do.. just remember that her trust for him will never ever remains the same. Her love will remains, will always there but her passion, her soul, her excitements- HALF GONE!.
If she knew she would fall when she step on, she would rather not to walk!
BoReD
(17 July 2008)
BoreD!!! It’s the 5th day, i did nothing in the office… agrgghhhhh… so this one i did while office hour lahh..
1. If you’re being extremely quiet whatdoes it mean?
- Im so DAMN MAD!
2. Do you still have feelings for yourex?
-Nop!
3. Have you ever had a kiss?
- of COURSE! :p special kisses from maman, azieque, kakak & nana … and how can i forget about hanie!
4. Last time you laughed?
- last night cz it only 8.17am now. and i just arrived in my luxury cubicle
5. Has anyone told you they missed youlately?
- Seriously YESSS!
6. Are you wearing any clothes thatdon’t belong to you?
- sometime… i borrowed it from my sis or his’s …
7. Would you ever date your bestfriend (of the opposite sex)?
- at the moment belum lagi, But in future, MAYBE! hiks hiks
8. what’s the last mistake you made?
- Kiss some1’s car’s bumper! HATE it!
9. Do you regret anything from yourpast?
- SO maNYyyyyy…
10. If you could seek revenge onsomeone would you?
- no need lah.. i believe in Karma.. that person will get soon
11. How do you react when people cryaround you?
-anxiety kot…
12. Do you bump into someones arm ifyou want to hold their hand?
- huh? not really…
13. Last argument?
- with somebody from the chat room over some politics arguments. Both were big headed!
14. Last kist?
- i kiss my bantal busuk. hehhe
15. Would you kiss them again?
- my whole life..
16. Last beverage?
- yesterday, while im breaking my fast… 2day pun i puasa gak!
17. Last nap?
- the whole night larr… hujan maa… best… best…
18. Do you own a planner?
- of course. EVERYTHING inside thete..i’ll be lost if i lost IT!
19. Favorite month/s?
- SYawal… non-STop eating!
20. what’s going on next weekend?
- need to prepare my self with the upcoming training cz ill be attend it with Dato’ & other directors & senior managers… im the youngest & and the babiest! arrggghhhhhhh…
21. what song is on your mind justthis second?
- love in this club by Usher.. Love IT :))
22. What are you doing this Saturday?
- meet my old friens.. tempah baju raya.. hiks.
23. Sweetest thing anyone has everdone for you?
- so many to list down here…but the one ill remember forever, surprise burfday party hold by dayah,matul, noreen, hasi, azni…. and also … u know lahh… heheheh
gtg lorr… i need to prepare something for 5s meeting this afternoon.chow!!
BoreD!!! It’s the 5th day, i did nothing in the office… agrgghhhhh… so this one i did while office hour lahh..
1. If you’re being extremely quiet whatdoes it mean?
- Im so DAMN MAD!
2. Do you still have feelings for yourex?
-Nop!
3. Have you ever had a kiss?
- of COURSE! :p special kisses from maman, azieque, kakak & nana … and how can i forget about hanie!
4. Last time you laughed?
- last night cz it only 8.17am now. and i just arrived in my luxury cubicle
5. Has anyone told you they missed youlately?
- Seriously YESSS!
6. Are you wearing any clothes thatdon’t belong to you?
- sometime… i borrowed it from my sis or his’s …
7. Would you ever date your bestfriend (of the opposite sex)?
- at the moment belum lagi, But in future, MAYBE! hiks hiks
8. what’s the last mistake you made?
- Kiss some1’s car’s bumper! HATE it!
9. Do you regret anything from yourpast?
- SO maNYyyyyy…
10. If you could seek revenge onsomeone would you?
- no need lah.. i believe in Karma.. that person will get soon
11. How do you react when people cryaround you?
-anxiety kot…
12. Do you bump into someones arm ifyou want to hold their hand?
- huh? not really…
13. Last argument?
- with somebody from the chat room over some politics arguments. Both were big headed!
14. Last kist?
- i kiss my bantal busuk. hehhe
15. Would you kiss them again?
- my whole life..
16. Last beverage?
- yesterday, while im breaking my fast… 2day pun i puasa gak!
17. Last nap?
- the whole night larr… hujan maa… best… best…
18. Do you own a planner?
- of course. EVERYTHING inside thete..i’ll be lost if i lost IT!
19. Favorite month/s?
- SYawal… non-STop eating!
20. what’s going on next weekend?
- need to prepare my self with the upcoming training cz ill be attend it with Dato’ & other directors & senior managers… im the youngest & and the babiest! arrggghhhhhhh…
21. what song is on your mind justthis second?
- love in this club by Usher.. Love IT :))
22. What are you doing this Saturday?
- meet my old friens.. tempah baju raya.. hiks.
23. Sweetest thing anyone has everdone for you?
- so many to list down here…but the one ill remember forever, surprise burfday party hold by dayah,matul, noreen, hasi, azni…. and also … u know lahh… heheheh
gtg lorr… i need to prepare something for 5s meeting this afternoon.chow!!
L.O.V.E
(6th May 2008)
What is the one emotion that has everyone mystified?
What is the one emotion that has started as many wars as it has ended?
What emotion has had more plays, songs, and stories written about it than anything else?
LOVE, that one emotion that makes enemies into friends and friends into enemies.
So many legends surround this emotion, from the goddess Athena and Helen of Troy to Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet.
Love comes in so many different levels, that it doesn’t appear to be the same emotion at all,
but it is.
It can tear people apart and make us do irrational things to bringing together entire nations.
What can this emotion not do? It’s hard to tell, but there is a lot it can.
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