sesungguhnya, saya:
- penat & letih sesangat!
- berasa sungguh loya & pening kepala!
- semakin slow untuk buat keje!
- semakin malas untuk ke office!
- hanya mahu berehat, berehat & berehat....
Monday, November 30, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Festival of Sacrifice AKA Selamat Hari Raya Haji!
“Hari Raya Haji (or also known as Festival of Sacrifice) is a religious festival celebrated by Muslims and Druze worldwide in commemoration of the willingness of Ibrahim (Abraham) to sacrifice his son as an act of obedience to Allah. The devil tempted Ibrahim by saying he should disobey Allah and spare his son. As Ibrahim was about to kill his son, Allah intervened: instead Allah provided a lamb as the sacrifice. This is why today all over the world Muslims who have the means to, sacrifice an animal, as a reminder of Ibrahim’s obedience to Allah. The meat is then shared out with family and friends, as well as the poorer members of the community (Islam names Ishmael as the son who was to be sacrificed, whereas the Judeo-Christian name Isaac)”
Hello world! =p
Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all muslim...
Every year, me and my family, we celebrate raya haji in SP or Penang. But this year, we decided (decided? It’s actually i HAVE to! Hiks) to celebrate here in KL.... cz PIL coming. Not happening beb. so, what i meant by not that 'happening' is because you don't get to celebrate in the 'kampung' environment with lots and lots of food on the table. The "North People" (like us, of course) :-) celebrated hari raya haji as happening as hari raya puasa. like alida said, "the only food that are not available during raya haji is the kuih raya." heheh.. btw, avvy, hopefully you tak leh balik ktan, jom raya dengan i di kl. btw, ada apa dengan KL time raya nih???
^_^
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
sleepless nightss
Im having sleepless nights!
what can i do to get some proper sleep?
no matter how tired i am, i wake every hour at least, it’s starting to drive me insane...
Im tired all the time but cant sleep!!
Monday, November 23, 2009
LIFE vs WORK
I'm already beginning to question if work’s taking over my life. I say slowly... but SURELY! Neglecting health, sometimes meals and most of the time fun. Is it a beginning of a word of obsession for work? Fuhh… I woke up every morning at 5.45am. Starting car engine at 6.30am, punched out at 7.30pm and reached home at 8.00pm.. Then start my every day – routine: basuh-ing baju, sidai-ing baju, lipat-ing baju, iron-ing baju, kemas-ing rumah…and sometimes cooking! (I don’t have ‘that’ enough time to cook, okey!) Since it’s toward the end of 2009, im soo insistly to have an inspiring weeks, or at least an inspiring days at any place … (hubby, please take note!!)
As promise in earlier post, I have to update you on this. Last month (18th October to be exact), WE [me+khasif+avvy+fadli (and gangs!)] went for theatre show at Taman Budaya KL, titled “Miaw Miaw Sang Arnab”, presented by Tronoh Theatre Shop (TTS). It is a theatre group from Universiti Teknologi PETRONAS (UTP), Tronoh Perak, which involves mainly in theatre, sketch and mime shows. First time for me to watched real “mimers”. It’s actually first time I n khasif went for this kind of show. I shall says it was quite interesting jugak…so fadli, please plan for the next show, please!. But I would probably give two thumbs up to “Tok Janggut” It’s a monolog and I respect him as the way he present himself totally superb. Cerita sarat dengan isu tersirat dan mesej simbolik (ceewah!)
As promise in earlier post, I have to update you on this. Last month (18th October to be exact), WE [me+khasif+avvy+fadli (and gangs!)] went for theatre show at Taman Budaya KL, titled “Miaw Miaw Sang Arnab”, presented by Tronoh Theatre Shop (TTS). It is a theatre group from Universiti Teknologi PETRONAS (UTP), Tronoh Perak, which involves mainly in theatre, sketch and mime shows. First time for me to watched real “mimers”. It’s actually first time I n khasif went for this kind of show. I shall says it was quite interesting jugak…so fadli, please plan for the next show, please!. But I would probably give two thumbs up to “Tok Janggut” It’s a monolog and I respect him as the way he present himself totally superb. Cerita sarat dengan isu tersirat dan mesej simbolik (ceewah!)
Remember I told you all about mimie? There she is… a pic of her for you guys…
Congratulationsss to Azura n Aidil on their wedding reception in Penang on 8/11/2009 and KL on the 15/11/2009. Me n khasif are the bunga telur boy and girl for the day and it’s totally tiring day for us as we have to drive back to KL on the same day and have to work on the next day. Anyway, may GOD bless you both! Lately, ive been cracking my head to make one of the big decision in my life…Do you ever have trouble making decisions? The fear of failure and of making a mistake can immobilize a person. Which carpet to buy for your floor. Which sofa to choose. What to wear that day. What you feel like doing on your days off. What kind of work you really want to do. i can get stuck behind my fear and anxiety. i may lose my motivation when i know i have to make a decision. Making decisions can be difficult, very difficult. For me, making decisions is a creative process. But my mind doesn't know anything about creativity. My mind is logical, rational, and thinks it can logically decide on what is right or best. You have only 4 days to go. Make a choice, fyza! Between SMEs Corp or Royal Malaysian Customs department!
Congratulationsss to Azura n Aidil on their wedding reception in Penang on 8/11/2009 and KL on the 15/11/2009. Me n khasif are the bunga telur boy and girl for the day and it’s totally tiring day for us as we have to drive back to KL on the same day and have to work on the next day. Anyway, may GOD bless you both! Lately, ive been cracking my head to make one of the big decision in my life…Do you ever have trouble making decisions? The fear of failure and of making a mistake can immobilize a person. Which carpet to buy for your floor. Which sofa to choose. What to wear that day. What you feel like doing on your days off. What kind of work you really want to do. i can get stuck behind my fear and anxiety. i may lose my motivation when i know i have to make a decision. Making decisions can be difficult, very difficult. For me, making decisions is a creative process. But my mind doesn't know anything about creativity. My mind is logical, rational, and thinks it can logically decide on what is right or best. You have only 4 days to go. Make a choice, fyza! Between SMEs Corp or Royal Malaysian Customs department! -END-
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
the tronoh theatre shop and Qum actors
want to update on this... but have no time. will post it later. i promise!
cherrio!
cherrio!
Friday, October 16, 2009
Tiring weekendss and PAPADOM!
Hello!
:) im soo excited cz it's friday!
To let u know, since 1st weekend of puasa till this weekend's weekend (",), i dont have the chance to relax at all! wanna know y? lets recap:
1st week of puasa: went back to Kluang
2nd week of puasa: went back to Kedah
3rd week of puasa: went back to Kluang
4th week of puasa:went back to Kluang (again?)
5th week of puasa: went back to Kedah (Raya's coming!)
1th week of raya: in Kluang
2nd week of raya: went back again to Kedah :o)
3rd week of raya: Mama and the others came! Went to Kuantan. Thanks hubby!
4th week of raya: PILs coming on Sat for kenduri and Again will be back to Kluang (tomorrow lorr!)
soooo, im so damn tired with the word of T-R-A-V-E-L-L-I-N-G!
btw, guys GO AND WATCH PAPADOM... buah tangan terbaru from my fav of all, afdlin!
best giler! sanggup i bersengkang mata tgk movie nie pukul 11.55pm..ended around 2am. arrived home around 2.45am. and have to bangun around 6am untuk ke office.... :) but whatever...! i want to be among the 1st to watch it.... ermmm it's actually i HAVE TO BE!
:) im soo excited cz it's friday!
To let u know, since 1st weekend of puasa till this weekend's weekend (",), i dont have the chance to relax at all! wanna know y? lets recap:
1st week of puasa: went back to Kluang
2nd week of puasa: went back to Kedah
3rd week of puasa: went back to Kluang
4th week of puasa:went back to Kluang (again?)
5th week of puasa: went back to Kedah (Raya's coming!)
1th week of raya: in Kluang
2nd week of raya: went back again to Kedah :o)
3rd week of raya: Mama and the others came! Went to Kuantan. Thanks hubby!
4th week of raya: PILs coming on Sat for kenduri and Again will be back to Kluang (tomorrow lorr!)
soooo, im so damn tired with the word of T-R-A-V-E-L-L-I-N-G!
btw, guys GO AND WATCH PAPADOM... buah tangan terbaru from my fav of all, afdlin!
best giler! sanggup i bersengkang mata tgk movie nie pukul 11.55pm..ended around 2am. arrived home around 2.45am. and have to bangun around 6am untuk ke office.... :) but whatever...! i want to be among the 1st to watch it.... ermmm it's actually i HAVE TO BE! AND
im looking forward for CUCI 'da musical!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
new member of the house
there are already 3 of us, instead of only both of us. (",)
Welcome to mimie...
it's a persian cat, btw. huhuh
Welcome to mimie...
it's a persian cat, btw. huhuh
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
angkara si "DIA"
email from KSN to all KSUs,CEOs, and later forwarded to all officers (included me, of course!)
From: amei mei [mailto:amei_mei@yahoo.com]
Sent: 30 September 2009 15:19
To: Tan Sri Mohd Sidek b. Hassan
Cc: Nordziah binti. Mohamed
Subject: KELAKUAN KAKITANGAN KERAJAAN YANG KURANG MENYENANGKAN
Kenapa lah perkara ni tak dipantau oleh majikan mereka? adakah majikan mereka tidak tahu atau sama terlibat? ini yang menjadi persoalan......
Ada kes tu sehinggakan ruangan facebook tu sentiasa standby agar mudah untuk respon jika terima chat dan ada juga dok melayan game online. Kebanyakkan mereka yang muda-muda. Bagi saya jika ianya digunakan dengan betul tidak menjadi masalah.
tingkah laku kakitangan kerajaan itu mencerminkan kepimpinan kerajaan terutama Perdana Menteri kita dan juga Dato KSN.
Jadi, perkara mcm ni haruslah dianggap serius dan saya cadangkan agar keluarkan lah satu perkeliling agar ianya boleh memberikan kesedaran kepada mereka2 ni. Ianya juga dapat menyelamatkan mereka2 dari memakan hasil haram dari tindakkan mereka curi tulang.
SEKIAN, TERIMA KASIH
SELAMAT HARI RAYA
Saturday, October 3, 2009
my so-called journey of raya
this year eid is the most penat eid of all... most of the time of my raya days was on the highway..
1st raya - in sg. petani, kedah. after eid prayer, we went for tg dawai. Reached back in sg petani around 3pm. bought my all time fav blended ice kacang on the way back home. once arrived, put down my things and help mama preparing the foodssss for our rumah terbuka which should started at 7pm, but 2 of my uncles came in early (pah teh's family and uncle sham's family). khasif got diarrhea and was on the bed for the whole day (trust me! - he cant even walk or eat.. ) so US (me, kak uja, abg, abg am, and kak ewa - plus papa, of course) helps mama all the way. [boy cant make it for the hari raya. hua hua hua (which refer to padan muka, actually!)] my house was crowded for the night till 11.30pm. then, cleaned the house. settled around 12am and brought khasif to the clinic. came back to my luxury bed aroud 1am. (see how tired i was?)
2nd raya - wake up early to packed all my things as we (me and khasif) need to go back for kluang, pulak. thought of postponed it to the next day (yeah!) but his parents called and asked us (it's asked ME, to be exact) "will you both arriving at 1pm today? so that mak can masak for us." errmm, wut am i supposed to do then? (and tetibe khasif pun dah sihat [propaganda betul]). so around 11am, we started our journey back to johor. but we singgah for auty chu's open house in kulim (papa and mama urged us to go - which i think we should, hey! it's hari raya right? that's was the real hari raya meant to be) and tok teh's house in junjung. around 4pm we started our car heading for johor. Arrived in johor around 1 am
3rd raya - in kluang for the whole day as MIL having 24hours open house. non-stop cuci-ing the pinggan as well as preparing the foods and drinks (it's SHOULD be fooodssss and driinksss actually!)
4th raya - again on the road. heading for segamat, labis, etc (i dunno where's on earth is this places). and again reached in kluang around 10pm. thought of going for pontian for sabri's house. (Bun, kami tak jumper lagi Damia ko [tak aci, fadli and av dah jumpe!]). but have to beralah-lah...
5th raya - Again in the car for kota tinggi (cant go for pontian gaks). omg, places in johor is far away from one another. so pening. (but mama sms-ing me said that, "okey lah, at least tak duduk kat rumah jerk, kalu tak nanti kene masak and boring... ehhehe.. [mama really understand me-lah]). luckily, mama's message got through. celcom was breakdown on that day. i was "hangin" all the way gak as i cant call or sms-ing anyone! arrived back in kluang at 8pm. directly went for pacific (mall in kluang) as MIL requested for triffle. sampai rumah ader lagi tetamu yang datang beraya. (it's 10pm!, okey).
6th raya - wake up early again for "Breakfast wit MIL programme" (without khasif - as he was happily tido [sape anak for mak ayah saper nih?]). went for maybank (lembab-est maybank on earth [mabank, please take note!]) for cherry card, tabung haji (thumbs up!! [cz very effisien]) for daftar haji (requested by mak mertua), repaired mine and his watch (plus bought a new watch). this 4 so-called agenda took me till 4pm to settled. came back to packed our things. and around 6pm started our car untuk baliksss. but have to stop at mak ngah's house for salam raya (",) (his mak ngah's house is in the same neighbourhood actually) sembang2 sampai tak sedar dah pukul 7.30pm. turn back to MIL house as mak ngan kirim something for mak. start back our journey at 8pm to IPOH for Dina's Wedding. Arrived in ipoh at 2.30 am [penat, but cant wait for D's W (",)]
7th raya - wake up early (9am- it's early for me okey! coz it's saturday) for dina's akad nikah. have to be dina's dulang girl. (Dina, Happy Wedding okey!). settled around 1pm. Then, went for Fadli's house (Selamat Hari Raya, Fad. Sedap spagetti ko!, sampai habis khasif melantak... xpe nanti aku ganti balik ngan nasi ayam aku.. hahahha). Dina's Reception in SUK at 8pm. Came back to our sarang burung at 12am.
8th raya - Went for Simpang Pulai for Mak Itam's house. Stayed there till 3pm. Heading back to ipoh and lepaking in Ipoh Parede. Went for Jin Notti (borrriiinggg!) and spa-ing my hair (love this!). arrived again at my sarang burung at 10pm. thought of balik KL, tapi penat so we both tido jerk!
9th raya - supposely ive to start working today. but ive arrived in kl at 8.30am. (EL jelah gamaknyer!) We departed from Ipoh at 5.30am... sleep the whole day (it's recovering my energy okey!)
10th - 13th raya - working like hell! and im fasting for the puase 6. on friday - im sooo insists to go back to sg petani for my mom's cooking, plus boy in SP as well. can raya togerther2 (",)
14th raya - here i am, in SP for mama's food! (but somebody ruined my mood - u know who you are!) btw, Dina - Happy Wedding AGAIN in Muar. Selamat menjadi Johorian!
- END-
1st raya - in sg. petani, kedah. after eid prayer, we went for tg dawai. Reached back in sg petani around 3pm. bought my all time fav blended ice kacang on the way back home. once arrived, put down my things and help mama preparing the foodssss for our rumah terbuka which should started at 7pm, but 2 of my uncles came in early (pah teh's family and uncle sham's family). khasif got diarrhea and was on the bed for the whole day (trust me! - he cant even walk or eat.. ) so US (me, kak uja, abg, abg am, and kak ewa - plus papa, of course) helps mama all the way. [boy cant make it for the hari raya. hua hua hua (which refer to padan muka, actually!)] my house was crowded for the night till 11.30pm. then, cleaned the house. settled around 12am and brought khasif to the clinic. came back to my luxury bed aroud 1am. (see how tired i was?)
2nd raya - wake up early to packed all my things as we (me and khasif) need to go back for kluang, pulak. thought of postponed it to the next day (yeah!) but his parents called and asked us (it's asked ME, to be exact) "will you both arriving at 1pm today? so that mak can masak for us." errmm, wut am i supposed to do then? (and tetibe khasif pun dah sihat [propaganda betul]). so around 11am, we started our journey back to johor. but we singgah for auty chu's open house in kulim (papa and mama urged us to go - which i think we should, hey! it's hari raya right? that's was the real hari raya meant to be) and tok teh's house in junjung. around 4pm we started our car heading for johor. Arrived in johor around 1 am
3rd raya - in kluang for the whole day as MIL having 24hours open house. non-stop cuci-ing the pinggan as well as preparing the foods and drinks (it's SHOULD be fooodssss and driinksss actually!)
4th raya - again on the road. heading for segamat, labis, etc (i dunno where's on earth is this places). and again reached in kluang around 10pm. thought of going for pontian for sabri's house. (Bun, kami tak jumper lagi Damia ko [tak aci, fadli and av dah jumpe!]). but have to beralah-lah...
5th raya - Again in the car for kota tinggi (cant go for pontian gaks). omg, places in johor is far away from one another. so pening. (but mama sms-ing me said that, "okey lah, at least tak duduk kat rumah jerk, kalu tak nanti kene masak and boring... ehhehe.. [mama really understand me-lah]). luckily, mama's message got through. celcom was breakdown on that day. i was "hangin" all the way gak as i cant call or sms-ing anyone! arrived back in kluang at 8pm. directly went for pacific (mall in kluang) as MIL requested for triffle. sampai rumah ader lagi tetamu yang datang beraya. (it's 10pm!, okey).
6th raya - wake up early again for "Breakfast wit MIL programme" (without khasif - as he was happily tido [sape anak for mak ayah saper nih?]). went for maybank (lembab-est maybank on earth [mabank, please take note!]) for cherry card, tabung haji (thumbs up!! [cz very effisien]) for daftar haji (requested by mak mertua), repaired mine and his watch (plus bought a new watch). this 4 so-called agenda took me till 4pm to settled. came back to packed our things. and around 6pm started our car untuk baliksss. but have to stop at mak ngah's house for salam raya (",) (his mak ngah's house is in the same neighbourhood actually) sembang2 sampai tak sedar dah pukul 7.30pm. turn back to MIL house as mak ngan kirim something for mak. start back our journey at 8pm to IPOH for Dina's Wedding. Arrived in ipoh at 2.30 am [penat, but cant wait for D's W (",)]
7th raya - wake up early (9am- it's early for me okey! coz it's saturday) for dina's akad nikah. have to be dina's dulang girl. (Dina, Happy Wedding okey!). settled around 1pm. Then, went for Fadli's house (Selamat Hari Raya, Fad. Sedap spagetti ko!, sampai habis khasif melantak... xpe nanti aku ganti balik ngan nasi ayam aku.. hahahha). Dina's Reception in SUK at 8pm. Came back to our sarang burung at 12am.
8th raya - Went for Simpang Pulai for Mak Itam's house. Stayed there till 3pm. Heading back to ipoh and lepaking in Ipoh Parede. Went for Jin Notti (borrriiinggg!) and spa-ing my hair (love this!). arrived again at my sarang burung at 10pm. thought of balik KL, tapi penat so we both tido jerk!
9th raya - supposely ive to start working today. but ive arrived in kl at 8.30am. (EL jelah gamaknyer!) We departed from Ipoh at 5.30am... sleep the whole day (it's recovering my energy okey!)
10th - 13th raya - working like hell! and im fasting for the puase 6. on friday - im sooo insists to go back to sg petani for my mom's cooking, plus boy in SP as well. can raya togerther2 (",)
14th raya - here i am, in SP for mama's food! (but somebody ruined my mood - u know who you are!) btw, Dina - Happy Wedding AGAIN in Muar. Selamat menjadi Johorian!
- END-
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
090909 everyone!
It's 090909. This date wont come again babe, Ever!
what's so special about this date to me? absolutely - NOTHING!
im STILL going to do my work. this week have been so jahat to me- probably next week too... as tonneSS of KPIs need to be settle before eid-fitri.
ha'aaa, need to pick up my kuih raya at moon's house tonight! :)
me, so layu at the office today! chow
what's so special about this date to me? absolutely - NOTHING!
im STILL going to do my work. this week have been so jahat to me- probably next week too... as tonneSS of KPIs need to be settle before eid-fitri.
ha'aaa, need to pick up my kuih raya at moon's house tonight! :)
me, so layu at the office today! chow
Monday, September 7, 2009
Raya coming (Part 1)
Raya coming. Yeah! i cant wait. Why? because it'll be a new full chapter of hari raya for me...
last sat me and khasif did invite few friends for berbuka. i cooked nasi ayam for the invitees. my first try (serious! no-joke! - but of course-lah, tgk resipi mama) which will turn out to be my 2nd, 3rd.... [i even got tempahan from fadli for the triffle. hahahha :) ] everyone puji. included fadli (the very cerewet person!) [i still remember what he told me and av 7 years ago in Av's ous in Kelantan. "that's not the way of potong the bawang! tahu masak ker tak pompuan-pompuan nih?" (as for me and av, who's cares of the bentuk bawang? u ate it anyway! )]
still! im hunting for my baju raya... and kuih sarang semut. anyone know this kuih? please do let me know.
dina, ive just got your wedding card.... fuhh, at last... :) (dramas) need to reply kah? hahah surely i datang... can i make comfirmation through this blog... hahahaha
cant wait for your W. less than 20 days to gO! pray for DINA!!!
last sat me and khasif did invite few friends for berbuka. i cooked nasi ayam for the invitees. my first try (serious! no-joke! - but of course-lah, tgk resipi mama) which will turn out to be my 2nd, 3rd.... [i even got tempahan from fadli for the triffle. hahahha :) ] everyone puji. included fadli (the very cerewet person!) [i still remember what he told me and av 7 years ago in Av's ous in Kelantan. "that's not the way of potong the bawang! tahu masak ker tak pompuan-pompuan nih?" (as for me and av, who's cares of the bentuk bawang? u ate it anyway! )]
still! im hunting for my baju raya... and kuih sarang semut. anyone know this kuih? please do let me know.
dina, ive just got your wedding card.... fuhh, at last... :) (dramas) need to reply kah? hahah surely i datang... can i make comfirmation through this blog... hahahaha
cant wait for your W. less than 20 days to gO! pray for DINA!!!
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
[not in 'da mood 2 talk]
have no mood to talk
but in mood in doing my work!
everyone keeps asking me,
"ru sick?",
"you look very pale",
"hardly to hear fyza's voice these days".
it's because im not in the mood of TALKING!
gateaway, please!
Friday, August 21, 2009
Ramadhan coming!
yuhhu... fasting month is tomorrow. Oh.. so fast!
hoped to celebrate 1st Ramadhan with my mom and dad back in sg petani.
....but im going back to kluang tomorrow morning... hey, they are my parents as well right? :)
cant wait to feel the new experience on 1st ramadhan in a new place.
so Happy Ramadhan everyone. Sorry for all the wrongdoings!
-just came back from Hilton. for the launching of the SME Corp's new logo-
cheerio (",)
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
12 August 2009
1. Saya baru saja baik demam. my tonsil bengkak and caused my telinga infected ;(
2. saya masuk office hari ini dengan kerja yang bertimbun (update stimulus package, update retrenchment figures, settlekan DOSM's request, settlekan on the quotation, settlekan KE's folder on kabinet meeting on tourism, etc)
3. Fad ajak tengok the proposal. Tetapi av cannot make it as she was afraid of the H1N1. so fad, next time kiter plan again, okey!
4. Dina! your wedding coming soon... eeemmm tak sabar nak makan nasi pengantin u-lah.
5. kepala saya pening kembali. feel like vomitting at the same time. chow...
2. saya masuk office hari ini dengan kerja yang bertimbun (update stimulus package, update retrenchment figures, settlekan DOSM's request, settlekan on the quotation, settlekan KE's folder on kabinet meeting on tourism, etc)
3. Fad ajak tengok the proposal. Tetapi av cannot make it as she was afraid of the H1N1. so fad, next time kiter plan again, okey!
4. Dina! your wedding coming soon... eeemmm tak sabar nak makan nasi pengantin u-lah.
5. kepala saya pening kembali. feel like vomitting at the same time. chow...
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
^_^
Have you ever thought that KL sometimes could be so boring? Both me and khasif were always asking ourselves (especially on Friday! Coz weekends coming…) where else can we go? What else can we do? What else can we see? What else can we eat? and usually we end-up doing the same thing!
Last week (the whole week, to be exact!) we were craving for something.. and we don’t know what it is… So after office hour, we start our engine for somewhere and something eventhough we were so tired with lots and lots of works (pressure actually) during our office hour…
Monday – “jalan-jalan cari makan”
Tuesday – went for “Skrip 7707” (eventhough im soo insists of Ghost of gfs past and the proposal, but khasif wants the skrip 7707 [penyokong filem melayu-lah kononnya…]). It’s a crap!.... wasting my RM6…
Wednesday – “jalan-jalan cari makan” – AGAIN!
Thursday – went for setem… thumbs up!... (it’s a bit slow in the first half, but towards the end – the only words I can describe it – GOOOD JOB! [see, the extra O i gave :)] [Love afdlin (“,)]) Keep it up!
Friday – cleaning the house as his relatives coming!
Saturday – as told before, im so insists of beach… so we went for pantai klanang… somewhere in banting. Eventhough it is not as good as PD, but, hey, it’s not crowded with peoples okey! The beach is mine.. huhuh
Sunday – window shopping (we were walking from SOGO - Jalan TAR – Jalan Masjid India – PS [ that’s a long journey, babe! ]) and walking back to SOGO, of course!
Not forget to mentioned here,
Previous Saturday – went to nilai + bangi for wedding with parents in law. (bangi and nilai are soo panas okey….!)
Previous Sunday – went to SA to visit his relatives and IKEA- also with parents in law…aduhh sakit kaki sehhh!
See?? That’s why im soo ‘layu’ during office hour
Last week (the whole week, to be exact!) we were craving for something.. and we don’t know what it is… So after office hour, we start our engine for somewhere and something eventhough we were so tired with lots and lots of works (pressure actually) during our office hour…
Monday – “jalan-jalan cari makan”
Tuesday – went for “Skrip 7707” (eventhough im soo insists of Ghost of gfs past and the proposal, but khasif wants the skrip 7707 [penyokong filem melayu-lah kononnya…]). It’s a crap!.... wasting my RM6…
Wednesday – “jalan-jalan cari makan” – AGAIN!
Thursday – went for setem… thumbs up!... (it’s a bit slow in the first half, but towards the end – the only words I can describe it – GOOOD JOB! [see, the extra O i gave :)] [Love afdlin (“,)]) Keep it up!
Friday – cleaning the house as his relatives coming!
Saturday – as told before, im so insists of beach… so we went for pantai klanang… somewhere in banting. Eventhough it is not as good as PD, but, hey, it’s not crowded with peoples okey! The beach is mine.. huhuh
Sunday – window shopping (we were walking from SOGO - Jalan TAR – Jalan Masjid India – PS [ that’s a long journey, babe! ]) and walking back to SOGO, of course!
Not forget to mentioned here,
Previous Saturday – went to nilai + bangi for wedding with parents in law. (bangi and nilai are soo panas okey….!)
Previous Sunday – went to SA to visit his relatives and IKEA- also with parents in law…aduhh sakit kaki sehhh!
See?? That’s why im soo ‘layu’ during office hour
Monday, July 27, 2009
May she rest in peace..
i love her positive messages bout life...
i love her passion towards one nation... That is the message that Malaysia sorely needs these days!
And now, the magical Storyteller behind these messages is sadly gone!
Al-fatihah buat Yasmin Ahmad!
-end-
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
a so-called reunion!
WE (me, dina, gda & alida) together with khasif, aizat and lisa went for makan-makan in SP. (should this be called makan-makan? :p no idea lah, but... whatever!).
We arrived a bit late, nearly 10pm as khasif (yang sungguh GATAL!) wants to hv a hair cut on the way to SP...
futher story, please proceed to DINA ! sorry yerk dina, i malas nak tulis... hehhehe
btw, pic of US! again----without sally ;(
chow!
We arrived a bit late, nearly 10pm as khasif (yang sungguh GATAL!) wants to hv a hair cut on the way to SP...
futher story, please proceed to DINA ! sorry yerk dina, i malas nak tulis... hehhehe
btw, pic of US! again----without sally ;(
chow!
Friday, July 17, 2009
headache....
Just came back from secret recipies in mont kiara plaza. We're [ me, alida, gda, and alida's mother] having our lunch there. my head is spinning around because of the lamb steak i ate just now! im so craving for it and now im so regret. why is it on the first place i ate that cz i know i cant stand lorrr.. how am i going to settle my work while everything looks so blur and spinning around to me... damn steak!
ermm.... WE [me, alida, gda, dina] 'll probably hang up toningt! let's go girlS!
chow
ermm.... WE [me, alida, gda, dina] 'll probably hang up toningt! let's go girlS!
chow
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
ermmm...waiting for hubby!
1. ermmm im in bangi right now. time check - 10.45pm. waiting for hubby to settle his work... no idea on what is it. but he's beside me, with his crack face... tensionSSS + stressingSSS over something in LLM's website. his tolling system down.. so he's trying to fix it now. i can always waits for him in our sweet home, but ermm boring!!!!... so i decided to follow him since i dont hv to rush for work tomorrow morning . i have to attend 2 days training for trainers seminar - the SME & Universities Internship Programme hold by SMIDEC and UKM. huhuhu... HEAVEN!!!
2. ive upload my W pics in my fb. ermmm tak larat lorr nak upload it here!
3. this weekend is Johanna's W in bangi. and next weekend is Nad's W in Ipoh. and hubby's cousins coming this weekend as well as the upcoming weekend. so hv to manage every single second wisely!
4. klah... chow. that's all i wanna jot down here. cu on da next 3 days!!! cheerio...
2. ive upload my W pics in my fb. ermmm tak larat lorr nak upload it here!
3. this weekend is Johanna's W in bangi. and next weekend is Nad's W in Ipoh. and hubby's cousins coming this weekend as well as the upcoming weekend. so hv to manage every single second wisely!
4. klah... chow. that's all i wanna jot down here. cu on da next 3 days!!! cheerio...
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
I'll stuck in the office today!
it 5 pm. my plan to go back exactly at 5pm on the dot will flies far away from me! it's because of the NSDC meeting tomorrow. shit! i have to wait for my CEO to come back from the briefing meeting with our deputy minister on tomorrow's meeting... we have to wait for her as she want to ammend something on the slides. Hello...! meeting is tomorrow morning. what else you want? we hv prepared so many folders for the meeting. and you expect us to reprint everything back again? gosh... my boss [ALL of us in economics division in fact] was sooo fed-up with it... we were so tired and fatigue. my minister is another spoiler. He suppose to represent MITI in this meeting and we have prepared everything for him and even hold a special briefing session yesterday for him so that he will be able to present all slides in the NSDC meeting. he even request a special folder this morning. after a few hours running ups and downs preparing everything for him, suddenly he called and told us that he wont make it for the meeting. his deputy will replace him tomorrow. and that's why i am HERE in the office at this particular moment as my CEO have to hold another briefing session for the deputy minister pulak... arghh.. till what time i have to wait for her to come back? arrgghhhh... my boss went for briefing meeting with gabenor on tomorrow's meeting and our senior manager went for briefing meeting also with PM on tomorrow's meeting as well. everyone went out. so me, darwina, gayatry and suraini hv to ammend all STUPID folders. i hate working here!!!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
what a life!
ermmm... i always wanna write something here, but everytime i wanna start writting my stories, my memories flies... (",) ... im hungry now, damn hungry as im fasting today. thought of breaking fast, but since alida is also fasting, so i decided to continue my puasa. Talking of which, alida is working with smidec already. and she's in my division as well.. hehehe... funny lahh, we were in the same class back in tcs, sat next to each other. like dejavu -lahh, as it's repeating now...
suddenly i remembered dina message yesterday. she was telling me that her borang kahwin hv typing error. SAME LIKE MINE, okey! so we both were agreed that johorian nie harap pandai jawi jer, bahasa melayu hampeh...ejaan dalam malays pun salah. hiks hiks... right dina?
it's 5.59pm, i wanna go back. but if i were driving at this moment, surely i'll stuck in the traffic jam. so let's wait till 7pm to go back. khasif promise to cook tonight!. so fyza, you dont have to rush for anything!
ermm i've watch trasformers, drag me to hell, as well as jangan pandang belakang congkak. last week was my movie-marathon week. People keep telling me [i guess EVERYONE, kot] that transformers was great. so i and khasif decided to go for it-lah... and after 2 hours 30 minutes, we were like...ermmm ok? the movies were like ok jer lahh... not lahh so great!... i wonder how boy told me while US [abg am, kak uja, arman, adrish, khasif] were celebrating arman burfday. he said that he wants to cry watching that movie. the movie were superb. is it? NO idea lahh. As for drag me to hell, i hate the ending! Jangan pandang belakang congkak was great! It's not that im soo into malay movies. but i guess, it's been a while for malaysia to have such comedy film. I always thought that afdlin shauki is the only one who can produce such film... guess im wrong right? or am i being soo racist to my own film industry? hehhee...whatever-lah. (cant wait for twillight 2)
it's a tiring week for me. maybe because not enough rest! i went back to SP last saturday, then came back to KL on sunday and arrived around 11 something. my tyre was punctured, so i drove khasif's car to work on the next day. and my office hour was miserable [today got so many soalan parlimen that i have to prepare the answers, of course. (what else yerk?, monthly report, NSDC preps, inputs on post cab paper, inputs on board member meeting, input on Southern Region Investment & Trade Dialogue, status of govt stimulus package... fuuhh, by 5 pm, im half dead already!)]. last night we went to munirah's house in puncak jalil. and it's takes us 2 hours to arrives to their house. eventhough we were from serdang raya jer. gilerssss. it's because we were sesat-ing and to make thing worst i forgot to bring my hp, and khasif phone was blocked! ermmm luckily, it's only takes us 10 minutes to come back home and to change the tyre once we arrived, of course... cant wait for friday! come fast! come fast!
ermmm.... tonight got pasar malam lahh... my fav pasar malam (located in bangi) - to go OR not to go? im so insists of durian right now...
okeylah, we'll cont! time check-6.30pm. perfect time to perform my asar and to go back after that, of course... hehehe..
chow!
suddenly i remembered dina message yesterday. she was telling me that her borang kahwin hv typing error. SAME LIKE MINE, okey! so we both were agreed that johorian nie harap pandai jawi jer, bahasa melayu hampeh...ejaan dalam malays pun salah. hiks hiks... right dina?
it's 5.59pm, i wanna go back. but if i were driving at this moment, surely i'll stuck in the traffic jam. so let's wait till 7pm to go back. khasif promise to cook tonight!. so fyza, you dont have to rush for anything!
ermm i've watch trasformers, drag me to hell, as well as jangan pandang belakang congkak. last week was my movie-marathon week. People keep telling me [i guess EVERYONE, kot] that transformers was great. so i and khasif decided to go for it-lah... and after 2 hours 30 minutes, we were like...ermmm ok? the movies were like ok jer lahh... not lahh so great!... i wonder how boy told me while US [abg am, kak uja, arman, adrish, khasif] were celebrating arman burfday. he said that he wants to cry watching that movie. the movie were superb. is it? NO idea lahh. As for drag me to hell, i hate the ending! Jangan pandang belakang congkak was great! It's not that im soo into malay movies. but i guess, it's been a while for malaysia to have such comedy film. I always thought that afdlin shauki is the only one who can produce such film... guess im wrong right? or am i being soo racist to my own film industry? hehhee...whatever-lah. (cant wait for twillight 2)
it's a tiring week for me. maybe because not enough rest! i went back to SP last saturday, then came back to KL on sunday and arrived around 11 something. my tyre was punctured, so i drove khasif's car to work on the next day. and my office hour was miserable [today got so many soalan parlimen that i have to prepare the answers, of course. (what else yerk?, monthly report, NSDC preps, inputs on post cab paper, inputs on board member meeting, input on Southern Region Investment & Trade Dialogue, status of govt stimulus package... fuuhh, by 5 pm, im half dead already!)]. last night we went to munirah's house in puncak jalil. and it's takes us 2 hours to arrives to their house. eventhough we were from serdang raya jer. gilerssss. it's because we were sesat-ing and to make thing worst i forgot to bring my hp, and khasif phone was blocked! ermmm luckily, it's only takes us 10 minutes to come back home and to change the tyre once we arrived, of course... cant wait for friday! come fast! come fast!
ermmm.... tonight got pasar malam lahh... my fav pasar malam (located in bangi) - to go OR not to go? im so insists of durian right now...
okeylah, we'll cont! time check-6.30pm. perfect time to perform my asar and to go back after that, of course... hehehe..
chow!
Monday, July 6, 2009
hello world!
already got my W pics. Will upload it later - prob next week! I hv to rush for few things this week-NSDC meeting! gtg
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
5s
errrmmm... after a tough and rough preparation of 5s, at last we were certified 5s by MPC for the 2nd year in a row. as one of the committee member, i cant express my feelings now as it's a tiring job. trust me! we were busy-ing "sorok-ing" everything. (everyone cant find back their belongings after the auditing was done) hiks. it's a tough job as an internal auditors of 5s... felt like resigning this post soon... [let's give the others the chance, right?] but, before i can do so, i received a "GREAT" news ever. Got letter from the administration department saying "congratulation to you as you were selected as JK Penyiasat Kehilangan Aset Alih Kerajaan"... what the ****?
ok bye everyone. im OFF for my kenduri in kluang. and a few days off, of course! not forget, i hv to attend PTK exam while im in my cuti mode. [still 50-50, either to go OR not to go!]
chow...
btw dina, msg from khasif (eventhough, ive let you know earlier, [he reminds me everyday, okay!]) "Anda dijemput untuk menghadiri majlis di kluang! (at the same time boleh ziarah saudara mara di muar...ooops, bakal saudara mara(",) )"
and to alida, best of lucks for your interview!
ok bye everyone. im OFF for my kenduri in kluang. and a few days off, of course! not forget, i hv to attend PTK exam while im in my cuti mode. [still 50-50, either to go OR not to go!]
chow...
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
100609
arrrghh... today is so boringgggg. life would be much easier if we could only sleep, sleep, and sleep... got so many stuff to do and yet i dont hv mood into it. my lists would be:
- internal audit of 5S and prepare report of it, of course!
- Status of I and II stimulus package (hate this! cz those officers incharge [in certain non-cooperative ministry] of this dont want to pick up the stupid phone)
- have to go for persidangan statistik kebangsaan in PICC
- inputs on perlaksanaan penggunaan kod, klasifikasi dan definisi statistik [i have no idea of this! and Dato's message is "statistician please prepare input"] what kind of input do you want actually?
today got morning assembly and i purposely make my myself not available for that.. BORING!
- internal audit of 5S and prepare report of it, of course!
- Status of I and II stimulus package (hate this! cz those officers incharge [in certain non-cooperative ministry] of this dont want to pick up the stupid phone)
- have to go for persidangan statistik kebangsaan in PICC
- inputs on perlaksanaan penggunaan kod, klasifikasi dan definisi statistik [i have no idea of this! and Dato's message is "statistician please prepare input"] what kind of input do you want actually?
today got morning assembly and i purposely make my myself not available for that.. BORING!
Monday, June 8, 2009
2nd episode of twilight
The twilight saga:new moon coming! NOT that SOON, of course ('',) . will be coming out on the 20 November 2009.... Av and Fad! let's book our tics and date, please... hehehehe
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Wedding Part 1.
im using the word "Part" cz i dont think i hv the time to update every single story on my W day in 1 day (tiru dina actually, hehehhe) ... so the first part would be a few pics taken by my friends... have to "cilok" from them as the entire family were buzy welcoming the guests and dont hv time to snap the pics... i have to wholly depends on the photographer...hehehe
mitra,alida,dina,ME,sally 
us AGAIN 
Av and Shaz dengan post simpang jalan dieorg... hahaha
Shaz and Fad!
mitra,alida,dina,ME,sally
us AGAIN
ME with shaz and av...
Av and Shaz dengan post simpang jalan dieorg... hahaha
Shaz and Fad!
So TQVM for everyone for attending my W ceremony...
Cont later...
Monday, May 18, 2009
at last..
i just came back from spa for full body scrub and full body massage. at last... YEAHH! (curik tulang time keje nihh. heheh)
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argrghh... my back hurt. my arm hurt... my full body hurt cz i and khasif (of course!) went for basuh-ing and cleaning the so-called our house last weekend [whole saturday and whole sunday to be exact].....
hafiz won the af7... yeahhh... aril comes 2nd [pity alida! ('',)]... oklah tuhh.. both were my fav..im happy as long as isma not in the 1st place. so surprise how come she's at the 5th? where have her voters gone? btw, congratulation to both hafiz and aril as well as their afundersss... heheh...
my fingers also lenguh-lenguh, so i cant write more (full of drama lahh...[as told by dina])
p/s: Dina, dont forget to come and see me ar? before i get married... hehhhe ;)
hafiz won the af7... yeahhh... aril comes 2nd [pity alida! ('',)]... oklah tuhh.. both were my fav..im happy as long as isma not in the 1st place. so surprise how come she's at the 5th? where have her voters gone? btw, congratulation to both hafiz and aril as well as their afundersss... heheh...
my fingers also lenguh-lenguh, so i cant write more (full of drama lahh...[as told by dina])
p/s: Dina, dont forget to come and see me ar? before i get married... hehhhe ;)
Thursday, May 14, 2009
my life?
ermm..time check ------ it's 10.46pm and im STILL in the office... arrgghhh...tension sihhh!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
reward myself! ... need to.
arrgghh... need to go for full body massage and im ssoooo insists for manicure and pedicure as well as foot scrubs at this moment.. it's heaven! ('',)
btw, congratulationsss to czarina and czarif for the new borned baby!
btw, congratulationsss to czarina and czarif for the new borned baby!
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
thank you..
WE [khasif + me] never had a chance to thanked FADLI and AVVY for being OUR pengapit!
tq, tq, tq
After 4 days break
... was like hell.
- slides on the SMEWG -
- Monthly report -
- validation on the Survey on global economic and financial crises: impact on SMEs -
- tabulation on the SMEs retrenchement figures -
- invitees, programme books, invitation cards, etc.... for the opening ceremony of SMIDEX -
- Updates and report on 5S -
- meeting BAS meeting BAS meeting BAS meeting BAS -
not forget to add in the...
- invitation card for the W day -
- hantaran -
- hotels -
- non stop looking and surveying for the rumah.... i hate this! -
fuhh... all this need to be done by this weekends!
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
which one is which?
Hey! Ive been asked by somebody yesterday. Which one you’re interested in?
a guy who comes with a full of surprises presents and cards but he was ignoring you, he’s not giving his full attention to you because he was so busy and don’t have time to call you or even sent you a simple and sweet message to you. Eventhough it’s only takes a few minutes. OR a guy who is taking care of you, giving his full attention to you even though he’s so busy but yet he still got time to call you or even sms-ing you, but there is no any token of appreciation for you.
huh?
It’s the thoughts that count, anyway!
Chow
a guy who comes with a full of surprises presents and cards but he was ignoring you, he’s not giving his full attention to you because he was so busy and don’t have time to call you or even sent you a simple and sweet message to you. Eventhough it’s only takes a few minutes. OR a guy who is taking care of you, giving his full attention to you even though he’s so busy but yet he still got time to call you or even sms-ing you, but there is no any token of appreciation for you.
huh?
It’s the thoughts that count, anyway!
Chow
Monday, April 20, 2009
April...
It's been a week since my latest post. I find it’s hard for me to write down here on something everyday cz I don’t have time to click on to this website as well as I dont know what to blog in here.
Btw, let’s make a quick recap.
1) tqvm for all birthday wishes, for all presents, for all birthday cards, as well as for the surprise birthday party hold by my housemate. It’s a 6am birthday party, and im still sleeping on my luxury bed, surrounded by all my bantal busuk, and suddenly they came to my room together with my fav cheese cake, and sang a birthday song for me. Im touched. :( This year surprise birthday party reminds me of my friends back in UKM. Missing dayah, matul, hasi, noreen, aina and azni sooo much…thanxx so much for everything. I appreciate all you’ve done so much. And I meant IT! ermm it funny to received a totally diff birthday wishes this year. im used to hear the "semoga panjang umur", "semoga kawin cepat", etc. But this year it's more to "cepat cepat dapat baby".. hehehe.. im not married yet lah... :)
2) im soooo insists to go for the night market. It’s been a while since my last time. And tq for khasif for making my dream come true. Huhuh
3) My life quite tough for the past 3 weeks. I don’t know why but ive been so sensitive lately. It’s so tough both physically and mentally. Everything seems soo wrong. Everything is crumbling. Ive been through so many ups and downs. I’ve spent some sleepless nights. Sometimes, people just cant understand what others might hv been through. People sometimes are very selfish. Seems it’s so hard, even to asked, “how are you?” OR “what’s wrong with you?” (Hey you! You are NOT supportive ok?) Sometimes people are so rude and thought they, themselves are the best, but yet they are useless. Ive been so patience to that particular person and I don’t know why should I? but I guess, only God knows why.
4) at last, fad and av have comfirmed to be our pengapit on our W day. tq tq tq for being so sporting.
5) So many updates to run to. Gtg. Chow.
Btw, let’s make a quick recap.
1) tqvm for all birthday wishes, for all presents, for all birthday cards, as well as for the surprise birthday party hold by my housemate. It’s a 6am birthday party, and im still sleeping on my luxury bed, surrounded by all my bantal busuk, and suddenly they came to my room together with my fav cheese cake, and sang a birthday song for me. Im touched. :( This year surprise birthday party reminds me of my friends back in UKM. Missing dayah, matul, hasi, noreen, aina and azni sooo much…thanxx so much for everything. I appreciate all you’ve done so much. And I meant IT! ermm it funny to received a totally diff birthday wishes this year. im used to hear the "semoga panjang umur", "semoga kawin cepat", etc. But this year it's more to "cepat cepat dapat baby".. hehehe.. im not married yet lah... :)
2) im soooo insists to go for the night market. It’s been a while since my last time. And tq for khasif for making my dream come true. Huhuh
3) My life quite tough for the past 3 weeks. I don’t know why but ive been so sensitive lately. It’s so tough both physically and mentally. Everything seems soo wrong. Everything is crumbling. Ive been through so many ups and downs. I’ve spent some sleepless nights. Sometimes, people just cant understand what others might hv been through. People sometimes are very selfish. Seems it’s so hard, even to asked, “how are you?” OR “what’s wrong with you?” (Hey you! You are NOT supportive ok?) Sometimes people are so rude and thought they, themselves are the best, but yet they are useless. Ive been so patience to that particular person and I don’t know why should I? but I guess, only God knows why.
4) at last, fad and av have comfirmed to be our pengapit on our W day. tq tq tq for being so sporting.
5) So many updates to run to. Gtg. Chow.
Monday, April 13, 2009
Mad
[ currently into this, MAD by Ne-yo ]
She's starin' at me
I'm sittin' wonderin' what she's thinkin'
Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'
And now it's I'm yellin' over her, she yellin' over me
All that that means is neither of us is listening
And what's even worse?
That we don't even remember why we're fighting
So both of us are mad for,
Nothing, fighting forNothin', crying forNothing,
But we won't let it go forNothing, no not forNothing, this should beNothing to a love like what we go
Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?'
Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the painGirl,
I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me...
and the lyrics continued...
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
ME!
MY heart rate goes up.
MY blood pressure goes up.
MY breathing gets shallower and harder.
MY muscles tense up.
I’M being hit.
I’M being cheated.
I’M being neglected and ignored.
I’M unable to be in control and...
I’M being in stressful and demanding situations
MY blood pressure goes up.
MY breathing gets shallower and harder.
MY muscles tense up.
I’M being hit.
I’M being cheated.
I’M being neglected and ignored.
I’M unable to be in control and...
I’M being in stressful and demanding situations
Monday, April 6, 2009
it's show time!
friends out there! go and watch this 2 movies:
Talentime explores love in its many manifestations, from boy-girl affection TO parent-child devotion TO plantonic affection between friends...
Talentime explores love in its many manifestations, from boy-girl affection TO parent-child devotion TO plantonic affection between friends...
fast and furious 4: ermm... what can i say? just watch it. seeing is believing. words cant describe it! im INTO it.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
coba lah coba...
Coba kau dengar, coba kau coba, diam bila ku coba, untuk berbicara dengan kamu.
Pernahkah kau ada, bila ku perlu, untuk meluahkan rasa hati.
Dan bila kau bersuara, setia ku mendengar, agar tenang kau merasa.
Coba kau lihat, coba kau coba, renung ke mata aku, bila ku melihatmu.
Pernahkah kau ada, bila ku perlu, untuk menyatakan rasa sakit dalam diri.
Dan bila kau perlu, setia ku menunggu, agar senang kau merasa
Siapa sebenarnya aku padamu, mungkin sama dengan teman lain, yang bisa kau buat begitu.
Pernahkah kau ada, bila ku perlu, untuk meluahkan rasa hati.
Dan bila kau bersuara, setia ku mendengar, agar tenang kau merasa.
Coba kau lihat, coba kau coba, renung ke mata aku, bila ku melihatmu.
Pernahkah kau ada, bila ku perlu, untuk menyatakan rasa sakit dalam diri.
Dan bila kau perlu, setia ku menunggu, agar senang kau merasa
Siapa sebenarnya aku padamu, mungkin sama dengan teman lain, yang bisa kau buat begitu.
Dan bila tiada lagi teman bermain, kau pulang untuk dapatkan aku, itulah aku... padamu
-Beautiful words with meaningful phrases!-
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
March...
NO entry in March. Not even once because March has been so CRUEL to me as March didn’t gave me the opportunity to pen down anything here.
I’ve been very busy for the past few days. ermm shall I says the whole month? Or shall i say I am both lazy and busy then? (Hey! It rhymes! :hehe: ) I started and ended each month with my monthly report! Urgh! I had enough of those shits! This report just drives me mad and crazy as well. I’ve been coping with it for the last 2 years and I feel so sick whenever I looked up to the calendar and it shows 30th. As the report needs to come out by 7th, so the 1st till the 7th is like hell for me. I need 36 hour/day, please. Hurmm…. Need to work on the weekends as well.
Ive also went for a brainstorming session (programmes, policies and incentives for RMK10) in PD for 2 days. The 2 days was like hell… AGAIN! Not enough rest, not enough sleep. That’s why it was called a brainstorming huh? Nevertheless the food was always good. Thank god! (‘’,)
Not forget to mention I need to come over for a rehearsal in Legend Hotel for the so-called JICA Graduation day on a public holiday. Hello everybody! It’s a public holiday okey. Another 1 day gone!
Heyy, enough of it! Im more interested to wrote bout my training programme in JAPAN! It was wonderful! It was great! It was marvelous! Words just cant describe it. Wonder if anyone would says the same thing if they were in a training programme? Hehehe. Btw, those words was meant for the jalan-jalan session ok, not the training session. Hehe. Get me? [i remembered what dina told me, "fyza, this is not training, this is bercuti." heheh] How I wish I would be there again. I cherish every moment in Japan with lynn, fiza, farid and rahim. It will be never ending lists if I wrote here how I felt and what I felt. But that was a great moment for me to be there. Trust me! It was a short pleasure ive been waiting for after a rough year. Eventhough it was for short while but it means a lot for me, for US. We went for a few places – Tokyo Disneyland, Shinjuku, Ueno Okachimachi, Asakusa, Akihabara, Raponggi, etc. So here are some pics. Seeing is believing huh?
As im in Japan, I don’t have a chane to attend my cousin wedding in penang. All the best to moon and fawwaz for their future!. May god bless them, forever. Amin... A few shot i cilok from them, please. huhu
I’ve been very busy for the past few days. ermm shall I says the whole month? Or shall i say I am both lazy and busy then? (Hey! It rhymes! :hehe: ) I started and ended each month with my monthly report! Urgh! I had enough of those shits! This report just drives me mad and crazy as well. I’ve been coping with it for the last 2 years and I feel so sick whenever I looked up to the calendar and it shows 30th. As the report needs to come out by 7th, so the 1st till the 7th is like hell for me. I need 36 hour/day, please. Hurmm…. Need to work on the weekends as well.
Ive also went for a brainstorming session (programmes, policies and incentives for RMK10) in PD for 2 days. The 2 days was like hell… AGAIN! Not enough rest, not enough sleep. That’s why it was called a brainstorming huh? Nevertheless the food was always good. Thank god! (‘’,)
Not forget to mention I need to come over for a rehearsal in Legend Hotel for the so-called JICA Graduation day on a public holiday. Hello everybody! It’s a public holiday okey. Another 1 day gone!
Heyy, enough of it! Im more interested to wrote bout my training programme in JAPAN! It was wonderful! It was great! It was marvelous! Words just cant describe it. Wonder if anyone would says the same thing if they were in a training programme? Hehehe. Btw, those words was meant for the jalan-jalan session ok, not the training session. Hehe. Get me? [i remembered what dina told me, "fyza, this is not training, this is bercuti." heheh] How I wish I would be there again. I cherish every moment in Japan with lynn, fiza, farid and rahim. It will be never ending lists if I wrote here how I felt and what I felt. But that was a great moment for me to be there. Trust me! It was a short pleasure ive been waiting for after a rough year. Eventhough it was for short while but it means a lot for me, for US. We went for a few places – Tokyo Disneyland, Shinjuku, Ueno Okachimachi, Asakusa, Akihabara, Raponggi, etc. So here are some pics. Seeing is believing huh?
As im in Japan, I don’t have a chane to attend my cousin wedding in penang. All the best to moon and fawwaz for their future!. May god bless them, forever. Amin... A few shot i cilok from them, please. huhu
ermmm.. a few people getting old in March. ('',) Happy burfday to boy for his 23th birthday on the 22th March. As well as to Fadli for his 25th burfday on the 12th March.
so that's it... goodbye march 2009. Welcome April 2009. Im looking forward for this month. Seriously YESS!!
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Simple words with BIG impact.
Sometimes simple words can mean a lot to someone. The words "I hate you" can break your heart. The words "you are amazing" can change your whole attitude. Words start wars and divide families. Words can inspire, encourage, and convey love. They can poke and prod and compel to action. Or they can wound, discourage, and criticize. And what is said or not said in the most mundane moment can alter the course of a life...forever!
But what I wanna pen down here is the important of words – hello, thank you, im fine and how are you. It’s just a words, ONE simple words but it means a lot. It gives a big impact to the others.
When you’re busy, even when you’re in the middle of somewhere, is it HARD to call or at least sms-ing and says “hi. Im busy, cont later” OR “how ru?” OR “im busy. Cant talk. Hope ure OK” OR “tq for calling or sms-ing, but im bz. Hope ure ok”. That’s all! Is it sooo damn hard? Sometimes people make that as the hardest thing to do in the world. It only takes one or two minutes.
those words are not only meant for lovers, but friend and family member. Btw, hello doesn't come from Hell, that's for sure! So… just says it!
I talk politics OR I don’t talk politics?
Issue on Elizabeth Wong: She’s good. She sacrificed building a family and raising kids for the sake of servicing to the people. No doubt ‘bout it.
I shall says that she’s at the wrong place at the wrong time. Pity her that she was blackmailed. It’s true that, this ‘particular’ person who did that should be brought to the justice as it is against the law.
But, Come to think about it again.
- Do we want to vote a party that does not respect the sanctity of our family institution? (They don't let her to resign ..)
- Do we want our children to consume this cultural garbage?
- Can elected reps say that what ever happen behind closed door is their privacy and do not affect their role as elected leaders?
…. plus some leaders from the so called Islamic party allowed this to happen ...
I shall says that she’s at the wrong place at the wrong time. Pity her that she was blackmailed. It’s true that, this ‘particular’ person who did that should be brought to the justice as it is against the law.
But, Come to think about it again.
- Do we want to vote a party that does not respect the sanctity of our family institution? (They don't let her to resign ..)
- Do we want our children to consume this cultural garbage?
- Can elected reps say that what ever happen behind closed door is their privacy and do not affect their role as elected leaders?
…. plus some leaders from the so called Islamic party allowed this to happen ...
Monday, February 23, 2009
being someone better!
Hello. Black mon come again. im bored and totally have enough rest+sleep+food. Wanna know y? ermmm... cz khasif went for induction course for a week and only to come back on this friday. so i did nothing the whole weekend as he went for the induction yesterday and he need sat as the preparation-day. ;p
NO movies, NO window shopping, NO late night out, NO "lets try the food thing", NO calls, NO jokes, NO arguing, NO merajuk-merajuk thing, no-NOTHING!. Soo, on sat i went to my sis ous, N as ive expected, every1 keep on asking, "not going out with khasif?" or "where's khasif?" and another 1001 q on khasif to answer.
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and at this particular moment, im 100% agreed that sometimes we forgot to appreciate the most important life to us and sometimes we've only know what we've got until we loose it. and i dont want to loose him so that i can appreciate him. i want to have him and appreciate him-which ive never did that ever.
every year's resolution which 2b some1 better just flies through the year (which it's yearss 2b exact), without me done anything better on it. my BAD!. arrgghhh... saturday come fast!.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
marriage...
"Many marriages would be better if the husband and wife clearly understood that they're on the same side"
Monday, February 16, 2009
transfer order...
dude,
i received a transfer order last friday - from the IT division to a newly-setup economic division. [i was EL, so i got the news over the phone call] naa, actually my boss, which i suppose to address him as my ex boss now hv told me 2 days earlier before the MEMO came out. my feeling-ss?
freak+nervous+mazed+trobbing as i'll be working with new boss which she's from BNM, one E48 from MITI, and the other 2 new officer. im glad as my tag-team were brought together with me in this upcoming "most pressured division". There's a lot to be done- we need to come out with SMEs annual report by June as the NSDC meeting will be held -and we're now zero. we have to work backward. As told by BNM, they took around 8 months to came out with the report. but seems like we were given like 3-4 months ONLY...? i know it's a great feeling when you can benefit the public and together to enhance the economic development but please do it in a proper ways lahh...
i shall be glad as well as ill be experienced a new environment... ermmm lets take this as a opportunity for a better career path then? hopefully... amin....
one of the new officer, which i thought of "she looked very familiar" named darwina. after a short interview with her, you see- no wonder she looked very familiar! she's same aged with me and from ipoh. she's MCs. so many lahh ipoh-ians in this office.
en ghaz have transfered to MITI last friday. gonna miss you lahh. miss? NOT that miss, it's the other miss... heheh. btw en ghaz, tqvm for everything. every single thing. appreciate so much for your help-ss for the past 2 years. tq, tq, tq.
well.. that's all. gonna perform my solat.
i received a transfer order last friday - from the IT division to a newly-setup economic division. [i was EL, so i got the news over the phone call] naa, actually my boss, which i suppose to address him as my ex boss now hv told me 2 days earlier before the MEMO came out. my feeling-ss?
freak+nervous+mazed+trobbing as i'll be working with new boss which she's from BNM, one E48 from MITI, and the other 2 new officer. im glad as my tag-team were brought together with me in this upcoming "most pressured division". There's a lot to be done- we need to come out with SMEs annual report by June as the NSDC meeting will be held -and we're now zero. we have to work backward. As told by BNM, they took around 8 months to came out with the report. but seems like we were given like 3-4 months ONLY...? i know it's a great feeling when you can benefit the public and together to enhance the economic development but please do it in a proper ways lahh...
i shall be glad as well as ill be experienced a new environment... ermmm lets take this as a opportunity for a better career path then? hopefully... amin....
one of the new officer, which i thought of "she looked very familiar" named darwina. after a short interview with her, you see- no wonder she looked very familiar! she's same aged with me and from ipoh. she's MCs. so many lahh ipoh-ians in this office.
en ghaz have transfered to MITI last friday. gonna miss you lahh. miss? NOT that miss, it's the other miss... heheh. btw en ghaz, tqvm for everything. every single thing. appreciate so much for your help-ss for the past 2 years. tq, tq, tq.
well.. that's all. gonna perform my solat.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
...Because february means LOVE LETTER!
hello february! wahh so fast time flies... felt like i celebrated new year yesterday. hiks.. life go on, no matter how slow u r.
2- my colleague, ani have left this office for better place. i hope so.. Wish u all the best! Nanti kawin jangan luper jemput. For sure ill turun Pendang! hiks hiks. [here our last pic as requested by U!]
[after]
am i a good baby sitter? huh ('',)... khasif please answer me? hhhahah. definitely the answer will be YESS...
a quick recap!
1- trip to japan hv been postponed to Martch 10th. argghh... how i wish im on the plane right now so that i can left my brain in the office.. god, please make the time flies fast, i means faster! as told before, it is NOT that im so intoo for Japan, just that i wanna go somewhere without anyone from the office to disturb me.
2- my colleague, ani have left this office for better place. i hope so.. Wish u all the best! Nanti kawin jangan luper jemput. For sure ill turun Pendang! hiks hiks. [here our last pic as requested by U!]
3. Me and Khasif went for so called "jalan-jalan cari makan" at port klang. and we decided to go for ikan bakar at Muara Ikan Bakar as we were insists of it since.... forever. and the food? fuuhh... words just cant descrise it lets eyes be the witnesses.. It's a journey from nowhere to somewhere as we never planned to anywhere!
[Pic taken before we enjoy our food!]
[before]
[after]
yummy!
btw, thought of going together with my av and fad, but seems like they are too bz with.. LIFE? OFFICE? FAMILY? FRIENDS? PARTNER? .....
btw, thought of going together with my av and fad, but seems like they are too bz with.. LIFE? OFFICE? FAMILY? FRIENDS? PARTNER? .....
4. Last weekend, i went to see my beloved arman and adrish. as arman was not in good mood, so i and khasif took adrish for a short car-ride. thought of window shopping-ing but adrish slept before we arrived at our so-called "the only hot spot in wangsa maju" . so we cancel the plan and bring back adrish to his heaven.
am i a good baby sitter? huh ('',)... khasif please answer me? hhhahah. definitely the answer will be YESS...
5. im cracking my head [which i think it should be - STILL cracking] to prepare the wedding gift for my W day... friend & friendsss need your brain in providing me the best, best-er, and best-est idea..ideass
6. Speacial words to my ex roomate- BE TOUGH dayah!. Allah knows what HE's doing. Pray for the best! The best motivation always comes from within.
7. errmm... need more time to think on W. As i need to involves in SMIDEX in May, SMIDEC to be transform to SME Corp in APRIL, NSDC meeting in JUNE, Japan in March, so is there any minutes for me to think over for my W day? goshh....
chow
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
F*** OFF
arrghh... menyampah betul aku dok kat sini...
nak buat keje pun tak senang...
lepas sorang-sorang menyusahkan hidup aku...
Membebankan aku dgn masalah-masalah yang tak der kena mengena ngan aku...
and orang lain pun ske cari pasal ngan aku... pleaselah, tanyer elok2, so jawab lahh elok2 gak...
aku pun tau gak nak marah... kesabaran aku nie ada hadnyer...
enough IS enough!
and please
F*** OFF lahh!
nak buat keje pun tak senang...
lepas sorang-sorang menyusahkan hidup aku...
Membebankan aku dgn masalah-masalah yang tak der kena mengena ngan aku...
and orang lain pun ske cari pasal ngan aku... pleaselah, tanyer elok2, so jawab lahh elok2 gak...
aku pun tau gak nak marah... kesabaran aku nie ada hadnyer...
enough IS enough!
and please
F*** OFF lahh!
Thursday, January 29, 2009
half DEAD!
a quick recap
- im bz preparing the upcoming monthly report. i have to settle it by tomorrow as monday is holiday, then on tuesday i need to go for a short meeting with jica agency as well as to settle everything on my visa.. guys! im going to japan for 2 weeks... i cant wait anymore. you see, it is not about im so insists to go to japan, it's just that i cant wait to be out from the office, i dont want to be in the office anymore... i want to run away from the office! arrgghhh
-BUT before i can truly "flying without my wings", i have to crack my head first as i need to prepare another report on 2008 report.. im half DEAD already dear! so please make this weekend as a wonderful weekend ever for me! beach looks great for me at this moment.... or cameron? ok dear? ('',)
- what else to says? forget to mentioned. ive went back to SP on CNY. and the highway was crowded with lots and lots of carssssss.... it took 9 hours for me to arrived in SP... arrghh and eventhough im already in KL, half of me still in SP...im zombie... arrgghhh (again!)...
- klah, i want to go back. wulan is at 6pm. hiks hiks... a cup of milo ice sound good to me for me to have it on the way back!
cheerio!!!!
- im bz preparing the upcoming monthly report. i have to settle it by tomorrow as monday is holiday, then on tuesday i need to go for a short meeting with jica agency as well as to settle everything on my visa.. guys! im going to japan for 2 weeks... i cant wait anymore. you see, it is not about im so insists to go to japan, it's just that i cant wait to be out from the office, i dont want to be in the office anymore... i want to run away from the office! arrgghhh
-BUT before i can truly "flying without my wings", i have to crack my head first as i need to prepare another report on 2008 report.. im half DEAD already dear! so please make this weekend as a wonderful weekend ever for me! beach looks great for me at this moment.... or cameron? ok dear? ('',)
- what else to says? forget to mentioned. ive went back to SP on CNY. and the highway was crowded with lots and lots of carssssss.... it took 9 hours for me to arrived in SP... arrghh and eventhough im already in KL, half of me still in SP...im zombie... arrgghhh (again!)...
- klah, i want to go back. wulan is at 6pm. hiks hiks... a cup of milo ice sound good to me for me to have it on the way back!
cheerio!!!!
Im Tired of IT!
(19 January 2009)
I can’t believe how tersangat rajin I am for the past 1 week. I have no mood to do my job since last week. I felt so tired, I felt so sleepy… is not that I don’t hv nything to do in fact I have so many due date to run for and yet im still NOT in the mood of doing any… in fact, I have no mood to jot down any here.. arggh..
Kenapa lah sumer org + org tue asyik nak marah marah? Asyik panas baran? Sumer bender tak kene…pressure lah and penat lahh asyik nak kene sabar jerk…penat lah nak layan… penat lah nak ikut rentak korang jerk… penat! IM TIRED OF IT! i have a lot-i means lotss and lotsss of job need to be done, lotss and lotsss of things that I need to think it through, so please don’t make thing worse for me…
Kenapa lah sumer org + org tue asyik nak marah marah? Asyik panas baran? Sumer bender tak kene…pressure lah and penat lahh asyik nak kene sabar jerk…penat lah nak layan… penat lah nak ikut rentak korang jerk… penat! IM TIRED OF IT! i have a lot-i means lotss and lotsss of job need to be done, lotss and lotsss of things that I need to think it through, so please don’t make thing worse for me…
HAPPY NEW YEAR
(1 January 2009)
Today is the beginning of another new year!
where new resolution are made,
new targets are set,
new aims to achieve,
new faiths to fulfill!
but whatever it may be,
this old me would like to wish all of you the very best in whatever you may be doing and may you be in the best of health and happiness always!
WELCOME TO 2009!
Today is the beginning of another new year!
where new resolution are made,
new targets are set,
new aims to achieve,
new faiths to fulfill!
but whatever it may be,
this old me would like to wish all of you the very best in whatever you may be doing and may you be in the best of health and happiness always!
WELCOME TO 2009!
i wish... you didnt know..why?... will you?...
(21 December 2008)
Love is blind, but yet STILL can feel the passion.
Love is blind, but yet STILL can touch the heart.
I wish I had the chance to turn back time and could change the choice – CHOICES – ive made,
I wish ive NOT done anything ive done before
I wish im NOT the person I am now
I wish I have the GOLDEN opportunity to change my past and have a better tomorrow!
Like flowers need the rain
Like coffee needs a cup
Like a candle needs a flame
Like a hammer and a nail
Like socks and shoes
Like rhythm and blues
That’s how i NEED you!
BUT
You didnt know,How you hurt me so,
You’ll never know,Cause ill never show.
You didnt know,That i couldnt let go.
You just dont care,
You werent even there.
I dont know how i can show,
What you yourself, can never know.
Why do i care so much?
Why do i still try?
Why does it hurt so much when there was never anything there?
Why does it make me cry?
Why you and not someone else?
Will you ever care?
Will you ever be able to dry my tears?
Will it always be you?
Will you ever get over yourself and open up your eyes?
I ask myself those questions everyday but STILL can’t find any answers.
I don’t care what others might says, might think.
As for me, its hurts so much and it doesn’t mean anything anymore to me.
Im walking AWAY!
Love is blind, but yet STILL can feel the passion.
Love is blind, but yet STILL can touch the heart.
I wish I had the chance to turn back time and could change the choice – CHOICES – ive made,
I wish ive NOT done anything ive done before
I wish im NOT the person I am now
I wish I have the GOLDEN opportunity to change my past and have a better tomorrow!
Like flowers need the rain
Like coffee needs a cup
Like a candle needs a flame
Like a hammer and a nail
Like socks and shoes
Like rhythm and blues
That’s how i NEED you!
BUT
You didnt know,How you hurt me so,
You’ll never know,Cause ill never show.
You didnt know,That i couldnt let go.
You just dont care,
You werent even there.
I dont know how i can show,
What you yourself, can never know.
Why do i care so much?
Why do i still try?
Why does it hurt so much when there was never anything there?
Why does it make me cry?
Why you and not someone else?
Will you ever care?
Will you ever be able to dry my tears?
Will it always be you?
Will you ever get over yourself and open up your eyes?
I ask myself those questions everyday but STILL can’t find any answers.
I don’t care what others might says, might think.
As for me, its hurts so much and it doesn’t mean anything anymore to me.
Im walking AWAY!
i understand...
(10 December 2008)
i do understand with the words of “private moment”
i do understand with the phrase of “i cant be with you 24/7″
i do understand with the sentences of “i have no time now. need to go. let’s cont later”
i do understand with the words of “i wanna hang out with my friends”
i do understand with the sentences of “im tired, need to sleep”
i DO understand all that. in fact i NEED to understand.
But all i asked is just a moment... A MEANINGFULL moment instead.
For you to share my ups and downs.
For you to wipe away every tears that falling down.
For you to share your shoulder when i need to and
For you to lend your hand when i want to.
ive fall down. its hard… its hurt. but as im climbing back, i realise that im on my own.
without you,
without your support,
even without you knowing what is actually happen.
life is COMPLICATED. totally miserable!
i understand… in fact i NEED to understand!
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ermm just came back from eid-hajj. ive enjoyed every single food every single day. best! best! after 5 days of leave, my mail box is full of requested data @ statistics. need to rush for all that, but STILL i have time to jot down something. let’s see what have i hv done since morning…
-recap-
1) prepare requested data from amin, faiz, roslan, shidi & farid on data of profile of SMEs by districts
2) prepare requested data from ursla on status of financial assistances in sarawak
3) updated figures in the monthly table
4) prepare data for weekly report to MITI
5) prepare listing of companies in Perak for Faiz at 12.00pm, i went to see my boss, and here is my updated due date to rush to:
6) call SSM for their listing on the available information in their database
7) prepare figures for BI Tools
8- prepare special format on ethnicity data to EPU
9) i have to prepare few inputs as i need to attend meeting in Malacca for 3 days… 3 days? omg. 3 days for 1 meeting……
need to go…
chow
p/s: ive thought of going out for movie - its movieSS actually which are LOST and FAUN, transporter 3, twilight - AGAIN! love it!
i do understand with the words of “private moment”
i do understand with the phrase of “i cant be with you 24/7″
i do understand with the sentences of “i have no time now. need to go. let’s cont later”
i do understand with the words of “i wanna hang out with my friends”
i do understand with the sentences of “im tired, need to sleep”
i DO understand all that. in fact i NEED to understand.
But all i asked is just a moment... A MEANINGFULL moment instead.
For you to share my ups and downs.
For you to wipe away every tears that falling down.
For you to share your shoulder when i need to and
For you to lend your hand when i want to.
ive fall down. its hard… its hurt. but as im climbing back, i realise that im on my own.
without you,
without your support,
even without you knowing what is actually happen.
life is COMPLICATED. totally miserable!
i understand… in fact i NEED to understand!
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ermm just came back from eid-hajj. ive enjoyed every single food every single day. best! best! after 5 days of leave, my mail box is full of requested data @ statistics. need to rush for all that, but STILL i have time to jot down something. let’s see what have i hv done since morning…
-recap-
1) prepare requested data from amin, faiz, roslan, shidi & farid on data of profile of SMEs by districts
2) prepare requested data from ursla on status of financial assistances in sarawak
3) updated figures in the monthly table
4) prepare data for weekly report to MITI
5) prepare listing of companies in Perak for Faiz at 12.00pm, i went to see my boss, and here is my updated due date to rush to:
6) call SSM for their listing on the available information in their database
7) prepare figures for BI Tools
8- prepare special format on ethnicity data to EPU
9) i have to prepare few inputs as i need to attend meeting in Malacca for 3 days… 3 days? omg. 3 days for 1 meeting……
need to go…
chow
p/s: ive thought of going out for movie - its movieSS actually which are LOST and FAUN, transporter 3, twilight - AGAIN! love it!
Wonderful Weekend!
(1 december 2008)
I hv a wonderful weekend last week. i have fun. lots and lots of fun actually. i enjoyed every single moment! we ( ME, my darling bebey - [he likes memey soo much, so i decided to call him bebey ('',) ], and together with the upcoming future couple to be - fadli & avvy nivia - *wink*) ‘ve spent time the whole saturday together gether.
the recap…
10.30am - went to seri kembangan to fetch my khasif as it’s my turn 2b his driver :( on the way to avvy’s house, we drob by to have a cup of pleasure… -which is the sugar cane and cocunut drink… yum yum yum… then, we stop again at the McD’s drive through and have Mc Chicken + banana pie + sundae choc for our breakfast. (NOT sure whether it still 2b consider as breakfast or not??) Jammed all over sg besi’s road. but he (he drives at last. fuhh!) took his sweet time driving.
1.00pm - arrived at av’s house. while waiting for her, we took this pic. (after a few shots to be exact. hiks hiks)
the movie end nearly around 2am. so after we sent av back to her apartment, and khasif to his apartment as well, i went back to my heaven. and i arrived in my sarang burung around 4pm…. hehhe…ill be dead if my mom find out!. huhu.. btw… im having soooo much fun! tq to bebey, av and fadli. next time we’ll go out again… and again… and again…. and again…… and it’s a NEVER ENDING LISTS!
chow!
I hv a wonderful weekend last week. i have fun. lots and lots of fun actually. i enjoyed every single moment! we ( ME, my darling bebey - [he likes memey soo much, so i decided to call him bebey ('',) ], and together with the upcoming future couple to be - fadli & avvy nivia - *wink*) ‘ve spent time the whole saturday together gether.
the recap…
10.30am - went to seri kembangan to fetch my khasif as it’s my turn 2b his driver :( on the way to avvy’s house, we drob by to have a cup of pleasure… -which is the sugar cane and cocunut drink… yum yum yum… then, we stop again at the McD’s drive through and have Mc Chicken + banana pie + sundae choc for our breakfast. (NOT sure whether it still 2b consider as breakfast or not??) Jammed all over sg besi’s road. but he (he drives at last. fuhh!) took his sweet time driving.
1.00pm - arrived at av’s house. while waiting for her, we took this pic. (after a few shots to be exact. hiks hiks)
1.30pm - we start our journey to OU. on the way there, i hv stomach pain and need to go to the toilet. URGENTLY. so we drob by at my house. and perform solat as well.
2.30 pm - arrived in OU. we looked for the parking (indoor parking) almost for half an hour. then we decided to park at the open air parking (we have to walk for 10 minutes. arrgghh!) We watched the salsa performance for 15 minutes. and go for free medical check up hold by OSIM. (this is the “Health is important” journey EVER! huhu… so the results- my urine test is ok! my stress level is ok as well, my blood glucose is normal!, my body water is ok… but i have problem with my blood pressure. that lady told me that i have low blood pressure! same as what my panel doc hv told me before…. (so guys out there! im perfectly perfect 4u! i wont get angry easily) hahah…. av is also ok with her results. and since fadli stress level is nearly to the high susceptibility, so we went to secret recipies (so that fadli can taste every single of pleasure - the cheese and the chocolate cake… i means cakeSSS). then we decided to go for IKEA after that. we spent there for “cuci mata” till 8.oo pm.
9.00 pm - we have dinner in ampang. have one round of movie at the le’ park restaurant (should i call this restaurant??). (the transporter - which ive already watched it).
11.15 pm - we headed to KLCC. plan to watch midnight movie. but no idea yet of what movie to watch. so we’re just gambling!
11.55 pm - arrived in tgv. so we decided to go for TWILIGHT. and i would like to say the movie is AWESOME! [ it is because im truly and deeply interested with the guy - Edward Culler. im in LOVE with him.. yESS im in love.. even avvy as well in love with Edward Culler.. that is the type of gut that I, no! it is actually WE (all ladies) interested in! ('',) ] it’s a action-packed & love story between a teenage girl with a vampire. a VAMPIRE!.
the movie end nearly around 2am. so after we sent av back to her apartment, and khasif to his apartment as well, i went back to my heaven. and i arrived in my sarang burung around 4pm…. hehhe…ill be dead if my mom find out!. huhu.. btw… im having soooo much fun! tq to bebey, av and fadli. next time we’ll go out again… and again… and again…. and again…… and it’s a NEVER ENDING LISTS!
chow!
the so, so, so, so AND so...
(27 November 2008)
So many updates to run to… so many meetings to attend to… (I have to prepare to attend one meeting tomorrow morning which I s-o-o fed up of it) and yet I still hv time to jot down something. It is because im so fed-up with all this (sooooo to be exact). Im so hungry at the moment. Let see what do I hv for my stomach today? 1 glass of milo ice, 2 slices of kaya and butter toast. That’s it… arrgghh… don’t hv time to eat as I hv to rush for my Dato’s speech input the whole morning till lunch break. Arrgghhh the phone just rang, I need to go for BAS (Business Advisory Services). Hold up!
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(50 minutes later)
Here I am… back to my luxury cubicles… just met a new upcoming entrepreneurs. One entrepreneur for a trading company (trader for frozen food to be exact) and another one is a manufacturer in furniture industry. Have to talk the same scripts every single time for every different casts. Tired of it… damn tired!
Stop for a while… my sis called!
So many updates to run to… so many meetings to attend to… (I have to prepare to attend one meeting tomorrow morning which I s-o-o fed up of it) and yet I still hv time to jot down something. It is because im so fed-up with all this (sooooo to be exact). Im so hungry at the moment. Let see what do I hv for my stomach today? 1 glass of milo ice, 2 slices of kaya and butter toast. That’s it… arrgghh… don’t hv time to eat as I hv to rush for my Dato’s speech input the whole morning till lunch break. Arrgghhh the phone just rang, I need to go for BAS (Business Advisory Services). Hold up!
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(50 minutes later)
Here I am… back to my luxury cubicles… just met a new upcoming entrepreneurs. One entrepreneur for a trading company (trader for frozen food to be exact) and another one is a manufacturer in furniture industry. Have to talk the same scripts every single time for every different casts. Tired of it… damn tired!
Stop for a while… my sis called!
This is ME? ... is it?
(23 November 2008)
Ive went though a personality test hold by JPA last August. And last week I got the results which im not sure whether it reflects me or not. Maybe certain criteria do fit in me, but the others??
Im an extrovert:
- Mendapat ransangan dari luar
- Gemar dan merasa bertenaga apabila bersama orang lain
- Memerlukan perhubungan dengan orang lain.
- Selalunya ramah, mesra dan mudah dikenali
- Cenderung bertindak sebelum berfikir
- Mudah memberi pendapat dan kritikan
- Berkemungkinan kurang peka dengan keperluan dalaman
diri
- Mudah merasa bosan dan gelisah jika terlalu lama
bersendirian
- Menceriakan kehidupan seharian
- Sering dianggap cetek pemikiran dan mengganggu oleh
orang introvert
- Memerlukan introvert untuk keseimbangan
Im an intuitive:
- Memproses maklumat secara mendalam dengan memberi fokus kepada makna, kaitan dan perhubungan
- Melihat corak dan kemungkinan tetapi maklumat sering tidak lengkap
- Berkomunikasi secara umum dengan menggunakan terma-terma yang abstrak
- Melihat sesuatu secara menyeluruh sebelum menyesuaikan bahagian-bahagian dengan yang berkenaan
- Cenderung bersedia untuk masa hadapan
- Gemar berimaginasi dan suka mencipta sesuatu yang baru
- Melakukan sesuatu secara tidak teratur dan berubah-ubah
- Suka kepada perubahan, idea baru dan kepelbagaian
- Dianggap sebagai Mat Jenin
Im a Feel’s person:
- Membuat keputusan berasaskan perasaan orang lain melalui proses yang berasakan nilai
- Berpegang kepada prinsip nilai sendiri
- Memberi perhatian kepada nilai orang lain dan organisasi
- Tidak suka kepada prinsip yang ‘impersonal’
- Mudah memahami orang lain dan mudah memuji
- Memberi fokus kepada perasaan dan bukannya fikiran
- Sukar untuk memberi perkhabaran buruk kepada orang lain
- Pentingkan perhubungan dan keharmonian
- Kelihatan seperti terlalu beremosi dan tidak rasional
Im a Judging person:
- Menjalani kehidupan yang teratur dan terancang
- Gemar kepada struktur dan terkawal
- Selesa berada di dalam’comfort zone’
- Membuat perancangan awal dan penjadualan yang tetap.
- Gemar membuat keputusan dan menguruskan orang lain
- Suka melakukan sesuatu sehingga selesai
- Tidak suka untuk mengubah perancangan dan sering terlepas pandang perubahan yang perlu dibuat
- Cepat membuat keputusan dan kelihatan tegar, terlalu mendesak dan tidak fleksibel
As conclusion, Anda mempamerkan diri sebagai seorang yang mempunyai imaginasi, kreativiti, suka kepelbagaian, dan cabaran baru dalam kehidupan. Anda boleh melihat pembangunan potensi diri orang laindan berusaha membantu mereka mencapai matlamat yang ditetapkan. Anda mempunyai sikap ingin tahutentang sesuatu idea baru dan mahu memberi sumbangan dari aspek kebajikan serta kemanusiaan. Dari aspek hubungan interpersonal, anda seorang yang mudah mesra penyayang, setia, boleh dipercayai dan boleh menyesuaikan diri dengan orang lain. Anda seorang yang prihatin dan menggunakan empati diri orang lain dan memberi sokongan serta semangat bagi pembangunan diri mereka. Anda menghargai kerjasama, boleh mempunyai orang lain, dan membina persetujuan antara satu sama lain walaupun mereka mempunyai minat serta motif yang berbeza. Anda kerap bertindak sebagai pengantara, fasilatator atau pemimpin yang memberi inspirasi, mengeluarkna yang terbaik daripada orang lain dan bertanggungjawab mengurus interaksi sosial antara rakan sekerja, kawan atau keluarga.
So as conclusion, im Extraversion, Action taker, Outward, Expressive, Do-Think-Do, Interaction-ER, Intuitive, Imaginative, Theoretical, Love to give Ideas, Future thinker, love to think on “What could be next”,Subjective, Understand, kind hearted, Judgement, Organized, in Control, Deliberate, Closure, Planner, Merciful, Decision maker, impersonal…
Am i this list? Am i…? am i…? — No idea!
Ive went though a personality test hold by JPA last August. And last week I got the results which im not sure whether it reflects me or not. Maybe certain criteria do fit in me, but the others??
Im an extrovert:
- Mendapat ransangan dari luar
- Gemar dan merasa bertenaga apabila bersama orang lain
- Memerlukan perhubungan dengan orang lain.
- Selalunya ramah, mesra dan mudah dikenali
- Cenderung bertindak sebelum berfikir
- Mudah memberi pendapat dan kritikan
- Berkemungkinan kurang peka dengan keperluan dalaman
diri
- Mudah merasa bosan dan gelisah jika terlalu lama
bersendirian
- Menceriakan kehidupan seharian
- Sering dianggap cetek pemikiran dan mengganggu oleh
orang introvert
- Memerlukan introvert untuk keseimbangan
Im an intuitive:
- Memproses maklumat secara mendalam dengan memberi fokus kepada makna, kaitan dan perhubungan
- Melihat corak dan kemungkinan tetapi maklumat sering tidak lengkap
- Berkomunikasi secara umum dengan menggunakan terma-terma yang abstrak
- Melihat sesuatu secara menyeluruh sebelum menyesuaikan bahagian-bahagian dengan yang berkenaan
- Cenderung bersedia untuk masa hadapan
- Gemar berimaginasi dan suka mencipta sesuatu yang baru
- Melakukan sesuatu secara tidak teratur dan berubah-ubah
- Suka kepada perubahan, idea baru dan kepelbagaian
- Dianggap sebagai Mat Jenin
Im a Feel’s person:
- Membuat keputusan berasaskan perasaan orang lain melalui proses yang berasakan nilai
- Berpegang kepada prinsip nilai sendiri
- Memberi perhatian kepada nilai orang lain dan organisasi
- Tidak suka kepada prinsip yang ‘impersonal’
- Mudah memahami orang lain dan mudah memuji
- Memberi fokus kepada perasaan dan bukannya fikiran
- Sukar untuk memberi perkhabaran buruk kepada orang lain
- Pentingkan perhubungan dan keharmonian
- Kelihatan seperti terlalu beremosi dan tidak rasional
Im a Judging person:
- Menjalani kehidupan yang teratur dan terancang
- Gemar kepada struktur dan terkawal
- Selesa berada di dalam’comfort zone’
- Membuat perancangan awal dan penjadualan yang tetap.
- Gemar membuat keputusan dan menguruskan orang lain
- Suka melakukan sesuatu sehingga selesai
- Tidak suka untuk mengubah perancangan dan sering terlepas pandang perubahan yang perlu dibuat
- Cepat membuat keputusan dan kelihatan tegar, terlalu mendesak dan tidak fleksibel
As conclusion, Anda mempamerkan diri sebagai seorang yang mempunyai imaginasi, kreativiti, suka kepelbagaian, dan cabaran baru dalam kehidupan. Anda boleh melihat pembangunan potensi diri orang laindan berusaha membantu mereka mencapai matlamat yang ditetapkan. Anda mempunyai sikap ingin tahutentang sesuatu idea baru dan mahu memberi sumbangan dari aspek kebajikan serta kemanusiaan. Dari aspek hubungan interpersonal, anda seorang yang mudah mesra penyayang, setia, boleh dipercayai dan boleh menyesuaikan diri dengan orang lain. Anda seorang yang prihatin dan menggunakan empati diri orang lain dan memberi sokongan serta semangat bagi pembangunan diri mereka. Anda menghargai kerjasama, boleh mempunyai orang lain, dan membina persetujuan antara satu sama lain walaupun mereka mempunyai minat serta motif yang berbeza. Anda kerap bertindak sebagai pengantara, fasilatator atau pemimpin yang memberi inspirasi, mengeluarkna yang terbaik daripada orang lain dan bertanggungjawab mengurus interaksi sosial antara rakan sekerja, kawan atau keluarga.
So as conclusion, im Extraversion, Action taker, Outward, Expressive, Do-Think-Do, Interaction-ER, Intuitive, Imaginative, Theoretical, Love to give Ideas, Future thinker, love to think on “What could be next”,Subjective, Understand, kind hearted, Judgement, Organized, in Control, Deliberate, Closure, Planner, Merciful, Decision maker, impersonal…
Am i this list? Am i…? am i…? — No idea!
will cont. LATER!
(11 November 2008)
Lots and lots of lists to update here.
2 friends of mine were already being a mother. Bun with her daughter named Damia Lutfiah and fiza CC is a mother to a new born baby named Nurul Madihah. Heheh… macam nama-nama dalam novel jerk… but whatever pun, Congratulations to you both! Hope you guys will be a great mother, grandmother, aunty etc EVER! :p
Me and khasif went to alida’s house for her so called “open house” eventhough we’re not in syawal month dah… the reason we were there is that alida told us that she’s going to cook on her own. So me and khasif were like “… ermmm… lets try it” Thanx GOD the food was ok… not bad for her 1st time try - I guess.. ;p thanks a triilion to dira as well. Meena and her boy was there too. The funny thing is when khasif at first thought “is that umi aida”? thanx god he never says it. :p Don’t forget to mention he was so nervous to meet alida and dira for the 1st time. Reason? I have no idea!
I went back to SP last weekend with khasif and my sis as well as with my beloved arman and adrish. The journey was disaster… the tyre was punctured around 1.30am. and we’re in the middle of nowhere. Luckily, the plus officer arrived there less than 5 minutes. And help us to settle down on everything. Go PLUS, go PLUS, go PLUS. Thank you very much to the Mr “I forget to ask his name”. Tq, tq, tq,..
Need to stop lah.. no mood to jot down on everything eventhough lots of stuffs need to tell ya! Miss my sayang actually…
p/s: Did I mention that im so in love with this new 2 songs. Which are the song by estrange – aurora as well as by M.Nasir ft malique – mantera beradu. Love it!
Lots and lots of lists to update here.
2 friends of mine were already being a mother. Bun with her daughter named Damia Lutfiah and fiza CC is a mother to a new born baby named Nurul Madihah. Heheh… macam nama-nama dalam novel jerk… but whatever pun, Congratulations to you both! Hope you guys will be a great mother, grandmother, aunty etc EVER! :p
Me and khasif went to alida’s house for her so called “open house” eventhough we’re not in syawal month dah… the reason we were there is that alida told us that she’s going to cook on her own. So me and khasif were like “… ermmm… lets try it” Thanx GOD the food was ok… not bad for her 1st time try - I guess.. ;p thanks a triilion to dira as well. Meena and her boy was there too. The funny thing is when khasif at first thought “is that umi aida”? thanx god he never says it. :p Don’t forget to mention he was so nervous to meet alida and dira for the 1st time. Reason? I have no idea!
I went back to SP last weekend with khasif and my sis as well as with my beloved arman and adrish. The journey was disaster… the tyre was punctured around 1.30am. and we’re in the middle of nowhere. Luckily, the plus officer arrived there less than 5 minutes. And help us to settle down on everything. Go PLUS, go PLUS, go PLUS. Thank you very much to the Mr “I forget to ask his name”. Tq, tq, tq,..
Need to stop lah.. no mood to jot down on everything eventhough lots of stuffs need to tell ya! Miss my sayang actually…
p/s: Did I mention that im so in love with this new 2 songs. Which are the song by estrange – aurora as well as by M.Nasir ft malique – mantera beradu. Love it!
- YOU -
(28 October 2008)
I used to asked my self who… YOU? and why… YOU?
Now I know that it is…
Because YOU loves to makes my life worthliving!
Because YOU loves making me cry before it made making me smile…
Because YOU loves to inspires me to be a better person…
Because YOU loves to taught me patience!
Because YOU loves to never blamed me for the wrongs I did…
Because YOU loves to stood up for me when nobody else did!
Because YOU loves to argue with me…
Because YOU loves to let me be me!
And because of it…
I DON’T really loves you to be here with me
I DON’T really loves you to share my life with me
But I NEED u to complete me…
Now I know that it is…
Because YOU loves to makes my life worthliving!
Because YOU loves making me cry before it made making me smile…
Because YOU loves to inspires me to be a better person…
Because YOU loves to taught me patience!
Because YOU loves to never blamed me for the wrongs I did…
Because YOU loves to stood up for me when nobody else did!
Because YOU loves to argue with me…
Because YOU loves to let me be me!
And because of it…
I DON’T really loves you to be here with me
I DON’T really loves you to share my life with me
But I NEED u to complete me…
MALAYS... where are we now?
(24 October 2008)
Hello there. How’s every 1? Hopefully u all in a good shape and in pink health. So what I wanna write here? Let me see… Mmm … There’s something that I always wanna jot down here in my blog. But each time, when im here in front of my comp and started to arrange my sentences on this topic, suddenly my mind goes blank. Maybe I’m afraid that someone will hurt while reading this. But as for now, I believe, it’s the time for me to pen down on this matter. Since I just came back from this 1 programme attended by my minister and which is coincidence-ly the same topic I’m interested in – Malays, where are we now? Allowed me to write on this matter – what my mind wants to say…
As at 2006, Malays are the main citizens of Malaysia:
Malay = 13,575,100
Chinese = 6,219,600
Indian = 1,858,500
This numbers can tell you that Malays are the majority. With 54.7%, supposedly Malays are the majority contributor in all aspects especially in the economic sector. BUT, what is actually happened is far away from what we’re actually expected.
Ekuiti milik bumiputera as at 2007 hanyalah 19.4%, sedangkan sasaran kita di dalam DEB, ia sepatutnya mencecah angka 30%. Jumlah ekuiti bagi kaum bukan bumi as at 2007 adalah 40.4%. sedangkan sasaran yang sepatutnya adalah 40%. Lihat sahaja perbezaan yang ketara itu. Lihat sahaja betapa kaum melayu sebenarnya telah ketinggalan ke belakang.
Ada pihak dengan lantangnya berpendapat DEB telah gagal. Tetapi bagi saya ia tidak gagal. Ia cuma tidak mencapai target setinggi seperti yang ditetapkan. Mungkin anda tidak tahu, pada tahun 1970, tahun dimana DEB diperkenalkan, ekuiti milik bumiputera pada masa itu hanyalah 2.4%. Pada tahun akhir DEB, iaitu 1990, taraf ekuiti bumiputera telah meningkat kepada 19.2%. Satu peningkatan yang pada saya cukup ketara. Cukup tinggi! Namun antara tahun 1990 hingga tahun 2007, peratus ekuiti melayu adalah 19.4%. Peningkatan sebanyak 0.2% sahaja bagi tempoh 17 tahun. Pada tahun DEB dilaksanakan, ekuiti melayu telah meningkat sebanyak 16.8%, namun pada tahun selepas itu sehingga tahun 2007, ekuiti bumi putera hanya meningkat 0.2%. Tidakkan itu menunjukkan bahawa DEB tidak gagal, tetapi orang orang melayu antara tahun 1990 hingga 2007 yang telah gagal untuk memajukan sektor ekonomi kaum mereka sendiri.
Saya juga terpikir, adakan mungkin disebabkan peningkatan yang tinggi itu telah berlaku pada tahun DEB dilaksanakan, menyebabkan kaum melayu berasa selamat di zon yang tersendiri. Dan dengan itulah, hanya peningkatan sebanyak 0.2% sahaja yang kita dapat lihat bagi kaum melayu dalam masa 17 tahun selepas itu??
Namun jika kita lihat sekarang, kaum melayu sendirilah adalah antara mereka yang dengan lantangnya telah menolak DEB. Tidakkah mereka terpikir, dengan DEB itulah, peratus ekuiti melayu telah meningkat?
Memang tidak dinafikan DEB adalah satu dasar yang tidak lagi diamalkan. Memang betul zaman DEB telah tamat. Namun, angka 30% itulah yang sepatutnya dijadikan semangat kita yang perlu dikekalkan sehingga sekarang. Semangat yang sepatutnya kita perjuangkan hingga sekarang.
Timbul pula isu kontrak sosial. Apa itu sebenarnya kontrak sosial? Kontrak sosial merujuk kepada perjanjian oleh bapa-bapa kemerdekaan negara dalam Perlembagaan, dan merupakan penggantian beri-memberi atau quid pro quo melalui Perkara 14–18 yang berkenaan dengan pemberian kewarganegaraan Malaysia kepada orang-orang bukan Melayu. Ia adalah satu persetujuan yang memberikan kewarganegaraan kepada orang-orang bukan Melayu dan bukan orang asli (kebanyakannya orang Malaysia Cina dan Malaysia India) sebagai ganti untuk pemberian hak keistimewaan kepada orang-orang Melayu.
Keyword - pemberian kewarganegaraan SEBAGAI GANTI pemberian hak istimewa kepada orang-orang Melayu. Namun, apa yang berlaku pada hari ini, setiap yang berbau melayu telah dicabar dan dipersoalkan dengan lantang dan terbuka. Contohnya, artikel 153: hak-hak istimewa bumiputera, sosial kontrak, asal usul melayu, DEB, bahasa melayu, kepimpinan melayu, raja-raja melayu, kebudayaan melayu, agama islam dan sebagainya yang berhubung kait dengan keistimewaan orang melayu. Kesemuanya itu telah dicabar dengan lantangnya oleh orang orang bukan melayu. Alasan yang diberikan, amat mudah – dasar tersebut menindas kaum lain. Hak kesamarataan perlu di tuntut!
Saya terpanggil untuk berfikir, jika hak keistimewaan melayu perlu ditarik balik, adakah sanggup kaum cina dan kaum india memberikan semula hak kewarganegaraan mereka? Kerana sosial kontrak itu sendiri menyebut hak keistimewaan melayu adalah SEBAGAI GANTI kepada pemberian kewarganegaraan. Fikirlah wahai melayu. Kadang-kala saya agak terkilan kerana melayu sendiri yang mahu hak keistimewaan mereka digadai. Contoh mudah – manifesto politik, yang dilaung laungkan sabah hari - hak yang sama antara kaum! Adakah itu yang sepatutnya diperjuangkan? Adakah itu yang sepatutnya diagung-agungkan? Sanggupkah kita menggadaikan apa yang sepatutnya menjadi milik kita hanya semata-mata untuk mengejar kekuasaan untuk mentadbir sebuah negara? Bukan saya hendak mengutuk mana-mana parti politik, jauh sekali menyokong mana-mana parti politik. Tetapi saya menyokong mereka yang akan memperjuangkan saya, yang akan memperjuangkan hak-hak saya, yang akan memperjuangkan hak-hak anak-anak, cucu-cucu dan seterusnya waris-waris saya. Saya menyokong mereka yang akan memperjuangkan bangsa saya dan agama saya… yang akan memperjuangkan negara saya! Tapi kini, melayu itu sendiri yang terumbang ambing di tanah asal usul mereka sendiri.
Saya setuju dengan laungan Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad satu masa dahulu… “Melayu mudah lupa!”… melayu mudah lupa dengan pengobanan orang orang terdahulu. Melayu mudah lupa dengan apa yang diperjuangkan oleh orang-orang terdahulu. Melayu mudah lupa akan erti sebenar sebuah bangsa, akan erti sebenar sebuah negara. Erti sebenar sebuah pengorbangan demi bangsa, agama dan negara… melayu mudah lupa akan segala galanya.
Adakah dengan wujudnya sosial kontrak itu, bangsa lain begitu tertindas? Adakah benar akan kenyataan tersebut? Kerana jika kita lihat pendapatan purata bagi kaum melayu lebih rendah berbanding kaum-kaum lain. Pendapatan purata kaum bagi tahun 2007:
Melayu = RM 3,156
Cina = RM 4,853
India = RM 3,799
Lihat saja! Pendapatan purata bulanan kaum yang selama ini mengatakan mereka tertindas, jauh lebih tinggi daripada kaum melayu sendiri. Lihat sahaja siapa sebenarnya yang tertindas. Chinese and Indian, they have better standard of living compared to the Malays. Adakah ini yang dikatakan satu penindasan?
Dari segi jawatan yang dipegang dalam syarikat, dari segi bidang professional, dari segi pemilikan syarikat, dari segi pemilikan bangunan dan premis komersial dan pelbagai lagi bidang… yang pasti bilangan bumiputera itu sendiri masih lagi kebelakang, masih lagi mundur… Kesemuanya dimonopoli oleh kaum bukan bumiputera.
Adakah ini masih lagi satu penindasan?
Tidakkan kita fikir, akibat daripada kelemahan org melayu itu sendiri lah, pada hari ini, melayu makin tidak berpijak di bumi yang nyata? Melayu selalu saja merungut… Kerajaan tak pernah membantu lah…. Kerajaan tak jaga melayu lahh… bermacam macam alasan dan rungutan lagi….
Wahhal, kerajaan sendiri telah memberi bantuan berbilion-billion ringgit kepada bumiputera itu sendiri. Dari segi dana, dari segi modal, dari segi kewangan, GLCs, ULCs, institusi-institusi melayu, peraturan peraturan dan dasar dasar yang melonjakkan melayu dalam ekonomi, pelbagai dasar yang memihak kepada melayu dan macam macam lagi. And yet melayu masih lagi mundur dalam sektor ekonomi.
Kenapa? Kenapa? Dan kenapa?
Saya terpikir, adakah kerana terlalu dimanjakan, adakah kerana terlampau disuap dalam segala hal, adakah kerana terlalu banyak pertolongan yang telah diberikan menyebabkan melayu menjadi seperti sekarang?
Yang pasti, melayu terperangkap di dalam zon ekonomi yang selesa yang mengelirukan! Melayu adalah bangsa yang tidak patriotik, adalah bangsa yang tidah pernah bersyukur dengan segala nikmat dan keistimewaan yang telah diberikan. Adakah kita masih perlu terus menerus tunduk dengan kemahuan kaum-kaum lain yang inginkan hak hak kita diketepikan? Adakah kita mahu menumpang di negara kita sendiri? Adakah kita masih mahu ketinggalan dalam segalanya?
Bangkitlah melayu! Bangkitlah melayu. Sedarlah!
Mungkin saya tidak mampu untuk mengubah segalanya seorang diri. Mungkin saya tidak mampu untuk menyedarkan semua orang akan hakikat sebenarnya seorang diri saya. Tetapi sekurang-kurangnya saya sedar akan kedudukan dan kelemahan kaum saya sendiri. Setidak-tidaknya saya berusaha dengan cara saya sendiri. Sekurang kurangnya saya masih ada semangat yang membara demi melayu saya…demi bangsa saya…demi agama saya…demi negara saya… !
Mungkin di era saya, melayu masih mampu berkuasa… tetapi adakah anak-anak saya, cucu-cucu saya dan seterusnya waris-waris saya masih mampu merasai nikmat hak-hak keistimewaan sebagai seorang melayu…? sebagai seorang islam…? Sebagai seorang penduduk peribumi negaranya sendiri?
Tidak terniat untuk mengutuk, jauh sekali untuk mempertikaikan kewujudan kaum lain. But as for me,
I’m not being racist, but I’m being a patriotic in my own ways - for my own Malays!
Hello there. How’s every 1? Hopefully u all in a good shape and in pink health. So what I wanna write here? Let me see… Mmm … There’s something that I always wanna jot down here in my blog. But each time, when im here in front of my comp and started to arrange my sentences on this topic, suddenly my mind goes blank. Maybe I’m afraid that someone will hurt while reading this. But as for now, I believe, it’s the time for me to pen down on this matter. Since I just came back from this 1 programme attended by my minister and which is coincidence-ly the same topic I’m interested in – Malays, where are we now? Allowed me to write on this matter – what my mind wants to say…
As at 2006, Malays are the main citizens of Malaysia:
Malay = 13,575,100
Chinese = 6,219,600
Indian = 1,858,500
This numbers can tell you that Malays are the majority. With 54.7%, supposedly Malays are the majority contributor in all aspects especially in the economic sector. BUT, what is actually happened is far away from what we’re actually expected.
Ekuiti milik bumiputera as at 2007 hanyalah 19.4%, sedangkan sasaran kita di dalam DEB, ia sepatutnya mencecah angka 30%. Jumlah ekuiti bagi kaum bukan bumi as at 2007 adalah 40.4%. sedangkan sasaran yang sepatutnya adalah 40%. Lihat sahaja perbezaan yang ketara itu. Lihat sahaja betapa kaum melayu sebenarnya telah ketinggalan ke belakang.
Ada pihak dengan lantangnya berpendapat DEB telah gagal. Tetapi bagi saya ia tidak gagal. Ia cuma tidak mencapai target setinggi seperti yang ditetapkan. Mungkin anda tidak tahu, pada tahun 1970, tahun dimana DEB diperkenalkan, ekuiti milik bumiputera pada masa itu hanyalah 2.4%. Pada tahun akhir DEB, iaitu 1990, taraf ekuiti bumiputera telah meningkat kepada 19.2%. Satu peningkatan yang pada saya cukup ketara. Cukup tinggi! Namun antara tahun 1990 hingga tahun 2007, peratus ekuiti melayu adalah 19.4%. Peningkatan sebanyak 0.2% sahaja bagi tempoh 17 tahun. Pada tahun DEB dilaksanakan, ekuiti melayu telah meningkat sebanyak 16.8%, namun pada tahun selepas itu sehingga tahun 2007, ekuiti bumi putera hanya meningkat 0.2%. Tidakkan itu menunjukkan bahawa DEB tidak gagal, tetapi orang orang melayu antara tahun 1990 hingga 2007 yang telah gagal untuk memajukan sektor ekonomi kaum mereka sendiri.
Saya juga terpikir, adakan mungkin disebabkan peningkatan yang tinggi itu telah berlaku pada tahun DEB dilaksanakan, menyebabkan kaum melayu berasa selamat di zon yang tersendiri. Dan dengan itulah, hanya peningkatan sebanyak 0.2% sahaja yang kita dapat lihat bagi kaum melayu dalam masa 17 tahun selepas itu??
Namun jika kita lihat sekarang, kaum melayu sendirilah adalah antara mereka yang dengan lantangnya telah menolak DEB. Tidakkah mereka terpikir, dengan DEB itulah, peratus ekuiti melayu telah meningkat?
Memang tidak dinafikan DEB adalah satu dasar yang tidak lagi diamalkan. Memang betul zaman DEB telah tamat. Namun, angka 30% itulah yang sepatutnya dijadikan semangat kita yang perlu dikekalkan sehingga sekarang. Semangat yang sepatutnya kita perjuangkan hingga sekarang.
Timbul pula isu kontrak sosial. Apa itu sebenarnya kontrak sosial? Kontrak sosial merujuk kepada perjanjian oleh bapa-bapa kemerdekaan negara dalam Perlembagaan, dan merupakan penggantian beri-memberi atau quid pro quo melalui Perkara 14–18 yang berkenaan dengan pemberian kewarganegaraan Malaysia kepada orang-orang bukan Melayu. Ia adalah satu persetujuan yang memberikan kewarganegaraan kepada orang-orang bukan Melayu dan bukan orang asli (kebanyakannya orang Malaysia Cina dan Malaysia India) sebagai ganti untuk pemberian hak keistimewaan kepada orang-orang Melayu.
Keyword - pemberian kewarganegaraan SEBAGAI GANTI pemberian hak istimewa kepada orang-orang Melayu. Namun, apa yang berlaku pada hari ini, setiap yang berbau melayu telah dicabar dan dipersoalkan dengan lantang dan terbuka. Contohnya, artikel 153: hak-hak istimewa bumiputera, sosial kontrak, asal usul melayu, DEB, bahasa melayu, kepimpinan melayu, raja-raja melayu, kebudayaan melayu, agama islam dan sebagainya yang berhubung kait dengan keistimewaan orang melayu. Kesemuanya itu telah dicabar dengan lantangnya oleh orang orang bukan melayu. Alasan yang diberikan, amat mudah – dasar tersebut menindas kaum lain. Hak kesamarataan perlu di tuntut!
Saya terpanggil untuk berfikir, jika hak keistimewaan melayu perlu ditarik balik, adakah sanggup kaum cina dan kaum india memberikan semula hak kewarganegaraan mereka? Kerana sosial kontrak itu sendiri menyebut hak keistimewaan melayu adalah SEBAGAI GANTI kepada pemberian kewarganegaraan. Fikirlah wahai melayu. Kadang-kala saya agak terkilan kerana melayu sendiri yang mahu hak keistimewaan mereka digadai. Contoh mudah – manifesto politik, yang dilaung laungkan sabah hari - hak yang sama antara kaum! Adakah itu yang sepatutnya diperjuangkan? Adakah itu yang sepatutnya diagung-agungkan? Sanggupkah kita menggadaikan apa yang sepatutnya menjadi milik kita hanya semata-mata untuk mengejar kekuasaan untuk mentadbir sebuah negara? Bukan saya hendak mengutuk mana-mana parti politik, jauh sekali menyokong mana-mana parti politik. Tetapi saya menyokong mereka yang akan memperjuangkan saya, yang akan memperjuangkan hak-hak saya, yang akan memperjuangkan hak-hak anak-anak, cucu-cucu dan seterusnya waris-waris saya. Saya menyokong mereka yang akan memperjuangkan bangsa saya dan agama saya… yang akan memperjuangkan negara saya! Tapi kini, melayu itu sendiri yang terumbang ambing di tanah asal usul mereka sendiri.
Saya setuju dengan laungan Tun Dr Mahathir Mohamad satu masa dahulu… “Melayu mudah lupa!”… melayu mudah lupa dengan pengobanan orang orang terdahulu. Melayu mudah lupa dengan apa yang diperjuangkan oleh orang-orang terdahulu. Melayu mudah lupa akan erti sebenar sebuah bangsa, akan erti sebenar sebuah negara. Erti sebenar sebuah pengorbangan demi bangsa, agama dan negara… melayu mudah lupa akan segala galanya.
Adakah dengan wujudnya sosial kontrak itu, bangsa lain begitu tertindas? Adakah benar akan kenyataan tersebut? Kerana jika kita lihat pendapatan purata bagi kaum melayu lebih rendah berbanding kaum-kaum lain. Pendapatan purata kaum bagi tahun 2007:
Melayu = RM 3,156
Cina = RM 4,853
India = RM 3,799
Lihat saja! Pendapatan purata bulanan kaum yang selama ini mengatakan mereka tertindas, jauh lebih tinggi daripada kaum melayu sendiri. Lihat sahaja siapa sebenarnya yang tertindas. Chinese and Indian, they have better standard of living compared to the Malays. Adakah ini yang dikatakan satu penindasan?
Dari segi jawatan yang dipegang dalam syarikat, dari segi bidang professional, dari segi pemilikan syarikat, dari segi pemilikan bangunan dan premis komersial dan pelbagai lagi bidang… yang pasti bilangan bumiputera itu sendiri masih lagi kebelakang, masih lagi mundur… Kesemuanya dimonopoli oleh kaum bukan bumiputera.
Adakah ini masih lagi satu penindasan?
Tidakkan kita fikir, akibat daripada kelemahan org melayu itu sendiri lah, pada hari ini, melayu makin tidak berpijak di bumi yang nyata? Melayu selalu saja merungut… Kerajaan tak pernah membantu lah…. Kerajaan tak jaga melayu lahh… bermacam macam alasan dan rungutan lagi….
Wahhal, kerajaan sendiri telah memberi bantuan berbilion-billion ringgit kepada bumiputera itu sendiri. Dari segi dana, dari segi modal, dari segi kewangan, GLCs, ULCs, institusi-institusi melayu, peraturan peraturan dan dasar dasar yang melonjakkan melayu dalam ekonomi, pelbagai dasar yang memihak kepada melayu dan macam macam lagi. And yet melayu masih lagi mundur dalam sektor ekonomi.
Kenapa? Kenapa? Dan kenapa?
Saya terpikir, adakah kerana terlalu dimanjakan, adakah kerana terlampau disuap dalam segala hal, adakah kerana terlalu banyak pertolongan yang telah diberikan menyebabkan melayu menjadi seperti sekarang?
Yang pasti, melayu terperangkap di dalam zon ekonomi yang selesa yang mengelirukan! Melayu adalah bangsa yang tidak patriotik, adalah bangsa yang tidah pernah bersyukur dengan segala nikmat dan keistimewaan yang telah diberikan. Adakah kita masih perlu terus menerus tunduk dengan kemahuan kaum-kaum lain yang inginkan hak hak kita diketepikan? Adakah kita mahu menumpang di negara kita sendiri? Adakah kita masih mahu ketinggalan dalam segalanya?
Bangkitlah melayu! Bangkitlah melayu. Sedarlah!
Mungkin saya tidak mampu untuk mengubah segalanya seorang diri. Mungkin saya tidak mampu untuk menyedarkan semua orang akan hakikat sebenarnya seorang diri saya. Tetapi sekurang-kurangnya saya sedar akan kedudukan dan kelemahan kaum saya sendiri. Setidak-tidaknya saya berusaha dengan cara saya sendiri. Sekurang kurangnya saya masih ada semangat yang membara demi melayu saya…demi bangsa saya…demi agama saya…demi negara saya… !
Mungkin di era saya, melayu masih mampu berkuasa… tetapi adakah anak-anak saya, cucu-cucu saya dan seterusnya waris-waris saya masih mampu merasai nikmat hak-hak keistimewaan sebagai seorang melayu…? sebagai seorang islam…? Sebagai seorang penduduk peribumi negaranya sendiri?
Tidak terniat untuk mengutuk, jauh sekali untuk mempertikaikan kewujudan kaum lain. But as for me,
I’m not being racist, but I’m being a patriotic in my own ways - for my own Malays!
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